Did I do what I just did?

topic posted Fri, December 30, 2011 - 11:10 PM by  Scarlet aka ...
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Just before the new year (not even thinking of 12-21-12 here :-) i did something that I have never done in my life; I sent an email to HR which basically accuses my Manager of being a liar...and by the way - he is. Reviews are a bitch - they attempt to reduce people to numbers that accountants and stockholders rely on to calculate your value as it relates to their perceived existence, worth or need. It sometimes gets personal. In this evaluation I was assigned a percentage- and as I am not mathematically inclined I normally just accept that the number/percentage assigned to me must be accurate because they have all these nifty charts and calculations they show you with a little "you are here" arrow that seems to be right on target. I mean after all - there you are. But are you really? Today I decided that I wasn't. After months of being micro-mismanaged by a Manager who doesn't even know what everyone in his department does - I...um..went off the reservation. Why? What is it that makes a quiet, non-confrontational person who basically plays by the rules to make a living say "I've had enough?" We're talking rules I don't necessarily agree with (because they're numbing, dumbing and scumming) but don't compromise me to the extent that I don't recognize myself in a mirror. It would have to be something that exhibits such a complete lack of character that it not just distorts reality...it fictionalizes it and calls it truth knowing that it isn't - which makes it seem deliberate to me. That really gets my attention - which is something you don't really want if you're trying to fuck with me. "You can't stop them from thinking" as the 10th Dr. Who said. I asked for a copy of their own playbook from my Facebook entrenched pseudo nemesis- which proves one of two things - either my manager lied or he's as clueless as a thimble ('cause in their own lingo - the numbers seem to be inconsistent with the actuality of the perceived data) Anyway - come Monday (after the ball drops, the resolutions get televised (and the revolution gets fictionalized) the shit hits the fan. I'm a little antsy. So...does anybody out there have any words, music or art to take the edge off?

BTW.....................HAPPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!! I wish you all Peace, Health, Happiness, Prosperity - and a Hellishly good time!!! LOVE.
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Scarlet aka Anon
Philadelphia
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  • Re: Did I do what I just did?

    Sat, December 31, 2011 - 6:54 PM
    I've been known to swing an axe at the line between bent and broken, too. Time comes when it simply needs to be done. Often enough, it's worked out better than I'd expected, but when it hasn't I've walked away knowing that at least I haven't handed my self over to the executioner. And that's no small thing.

    Good luck to you in the new year!
  • Re: Did I do what I just did?

    Sun, January 1, 2012 - 3:35 AM
    I applaud your speaking your truth ~ even if you don't get the results you would like ~ you may, but IMHO speaking your truth is enough. My advice is to not tie yourself to expectations & results of actions too much. Sometimes it does get personal & sometimes the situation is meant for your own personal growth, something no one else is privy to ever really understanding.

    Here's a song that I'm digging on atm:
    Freelance Whales ~ 2nd Floor Generator
    www.youtube.com/watch

    Happy New Year! :)

    love all-ways,
    mem
  • Re: Did I do what I just did?

    Fri, January 13, 2012 - 1:57 PM
    Corporate micro-mismanagement seems to be the rule rather than the exception. Everything heralded by a ruthless band of mindless bean collectors and their fawning smoke up the ass blowing henchmen. How do you think they get the term brown nose? I can't stand the cubicle environment all the noise and fucking prairie dogs. I have my share of war stories related to being micro-mismanaged by a complete imbecile (well, nearly complete -he was missing a brain as well as a sense of humor-). After being at the company for 11 years and doing a stellar job (promotions and awards for being a 'valuable employee' blah blah blah) I essentially was forced to resign due to irreconcilable differences. Funny that the CEO of the company had frequently told me that he admired my directness and honesty and to *NEVER* change. Well, that worked out *GREAT* in fucking practice!
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      Re: Did I do what I just did?

      Fri, January 13, 2012 - 3:04 PM
      good to see you're still alive and kicking

      what the corporate environment reminded most of was our whole society - Reaganomics and Prosac, those at the top hiding behind a thin facade of respect their real "class" distaste for the work force - anyone not in senior management, aka the metaphorical one percent
      • Re: Did I do what I just did?

        Fri, January 13, 2012 - 4:54 PM
        In a nutshell: Following the adage, those who can't do teach.
        My take: Those that can't do MANAGE, or worse and more typically, MICRO-MISMANAGE!
        Nothing worse than having some asshole who can't find his ass with both hands trying to tell me how to do the fucking job I've done with distinction for 5 years (especially considering he had *NEVER* used the software I was using and the main issue was trying to solve a problem which required more powerful hardware than I had been supplied with and had a perfectly reasonable workaround which I was ready to program.
        Reply: I don't think you should do it that way!
        *WHAT*!!!! You don't know what you are talking about. Leave me alone and let me do my job and keep your goose stepping lackey off my back for the next 3 hours!
        Reply: We should have a meeting with the rest if the team and you should explain it to everyone.
        *WHAT* I am on an impossible DEADLINE artificially created by the client and *NOT* REALITY CHECKED by the clueless project manager. I'm the second consultant on the project and minimally briefed by the previous one. You now want me to take an hour of my time to *EXPLAIN* it to the team? If they didn't have their incompetent heads up their asses I would merely have to say I am doing X,Y then Z and anyone with half a brain would have full comprehension and THUMBS UP! MAYBE the useless PM could spend this time and go buy me a LARGE external hard drive for my fucking laptop computer!.
        GACK! Useless meeting...
        I got the fuck out of there after about another month. Pretty much had no choice considering the environment!
        • Re: Did I do what I just did?

          Fri, January 13, 2012 - 10:56 PM
          when i had it, being mis managed by the resident cow, at a group home, i went to the bathroom during a meeting, and climbed out the window and over the company fence and smoked a dobbie on the way home.
    • Re: Did I do what I just did?

      Sat, January 14, 2012 - 12:19 AM
      Hey there, Mister Plant! Good to see you!

      I find it hard to recognise up close and personal, but when I get a chance to look from a safe distance I notice that some people CAN'T be honest about their motivations and intentions because they have no f'n idea what they're all about. Best to keep them at that safe distance, I reckon... but life doesn't always give us enough choice of associations to keep it that way.
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        Re: Did I do what I just did?

        Sat, January 14, 2012 - 9:14 AM
        two types of leaders and I take this from a military pardigm - one values their career more than their "men", the other values their "men" more than their career - and the difference may only be 49 percent to 51 percent but it is a crucial two percent for those following such a leader especially when not only your job rest upon it but your life and limbs as in a war
        • Re: Did I do what I just did?

          Sun, January 15, 2012 - 10:54 PM
          mY "LEADER" is now getting me and all the background I have and the info I can share , support and supply,,FINALLY!!!
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            Re: Did I do what I just did?

            Mon, January 16, 2012 - 5:43 AM
            you know, a great leader is almost as difficult to find as a great spouse

            Work & Love - if ya can get those two down, ya got something going on!
            • Re: Did I do what I just did?

              Tue, January 17, 2012 - 10:13 PM
              Leadership is not a manager function.

              Managers are great for office supplies. They can hand them out, write down inventory, and order new supplies.

              LEADERSHIP is based on trust. Trust is earned. You earn it by doing the right thing and setting the example. The true leader leads from the front of the job.

              Technical excellence is one thing. Leadership development is an entirely different ball game. It not only requires the technical competence, it requires getting in the trenches with the rest of the line employees. If you're not willing and able to do it every single day, you don't need to be leading.

              A leader appreciates his people, and says so. If he or she didn't have followers, the leader wouldn't be a leader. Of anything. Just my 2 cents worth.


              Great to see you back, Trance.
              • Re: Did I do what I just did?

                Tue, January 17, 2012 - 11:37 PM
                does any of that apply to the moderators tribe??? i don't see it.
                • Re: Did I do what I just did?

                  Tue, January 17, 2012 - 11:38 PM
                  there are the touted euphamisms of what is.

                  then there is, what IS. (thats called the less perfect model)
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                    Re: Did I do what I just did?

                    Wed, January 18, 2012 - 7:34 AM
                    In my case, I do what I'm capable of. I'm only human.

                    In my work, I'm recognized as a leader, or so they say.

                    The bottom line is that everyone, including me, is not perfect. I admit it. And that's why I'm willing to listen.
                    • Re: Did I do what I just did?

                      Mon, January 23, 2012 - 1:25 AM
                      i have seen you repeatedly NOT listen to anything you have determined is below your need to comprehende. You sure are not perfect, and routinely make sure others know it. You put on your reasonable tone when amoungst mixed company. Otherwise, you demean the intelligence of people that do not concure with you. Rake their ass over the coals, and then speak so calmly after having done so. Any show of anger from one of those people, for having been treated like chattel, and you use that as proof your decisions are right, regardless of how the people feel. Between you and Mickey, there isn't a single, real, humble bone in your body. Nor any demonstrated desire to be caring or considerate of people that fall below your intellect argument standards. In short, its not uncommon for you to rock the foundation of any tribe you enter, and re arrange it policies as your sensebilities have determined is best for the group, of which you were not a member before you come in to change its politics, or form more tribes for the purpose of voting against people. Nor do you get to know new tribesters at their level- just unsolicited advice about them or your perception of what they mean, having not known them well to begin with. So this 'im only human' bullshit is just that - bullshit. You are a leader because you make yourself tribe leaders of voting tribes to oust someone elses politics. If this were not the tribe it is, you would have already dismissed me like so much garbage, like you have done to my very reasonable avatar, and other good tribe mods, when you are in the bitchy mood. You and Mickey play 'bad cop, good cop' like pro's. You even back ousting mods when your take on things isn't concured with. You vote for mods that have actual disdain for the tribe members they supposedly moderate, Mickey is a prime example of you backing a poisoned pen leader that disdains the people she should be listening too, instead of running like an autocratic margaret thatcher. If Trance were absent from this tribe too long, you would even try to regulate the voting of a new mod here, like you have so many, many other places. You are one of the cheif fire lighters in the intermittent tribe inquisitions that occure here. You have backed two or three mods that have repeated heinous crap like i am a child molester- to steal my mod positions- nor have you ever attempted to talk with me, before allowing spurious shit like that to be spread like the social disease it is. You have talked about me- within a theads that i address issues in- but have never even spoke to me as if i am eve n present. You support slander if it suits your purpose. You are just good at rephrasing things to sound reasonable, so what if the content of what you say is hearsay and evil.

                      i know im not perfect, you've used me as an example from time to time to prove it.
                      now lets see if you are so darned willing to listen.
                      then rephrase it as my misunderstanding. Its always someones elses misunderstanding- not like you 'listened' to them at all.
                      • Re: Did I do what I just did?

                        Mon, January 23, 2012 - 11:31 AM
                        Baloney, Flint.

                        I happen to know Mickey personally, whereas I don't know you personally.

                        Folks can get angry with me, and I can get angry with them, too. I've tried to be reasonable, as you put it, because there's no reason to point fingers and cause unneeded drama on an online network, which, by your finger-pointing in my direction, you've done. That demeans the conversation.

                        You can point your finger and jump up and down like an organ-grinder's monkey if you want to, but I've done what I've done. I can't 'undo' it. If you feel slighted, I'm sorry. Demeaning anyone was never my intent.

                        Now, if you care to carry it further, have at.

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