i have this thing i can't explain, some sort of energy i can generate from my arms from the fingers of my hands, running up to the shoulders crossing straight to the other shoulder then to the other tips of my fingers of the other hand. it does not radiate or extend or influence anything other than certain parts of my body especially my hands and arms. at first, about 7 years ago i tried raising my hands by just thinking about it. i was inspired by a game we used to play back in the elementary days where we would have our hands moving in a certain direction for a time and then when we stop, the arms would just raise by itself.

7 years ago i was able to do it by myself but i was always afraid of it 'coz people from our place always said that people being possessed by demons exhibit this same characteristic just before being possessed. it did not keep me from trying every once in a while though. years ago i could have my arms raised at shoulder level without tensing a muscle but that was just it, it will not happen if my arms are not completely relaxed. if i help the movement in any way except by thinking my arms would drop back down to the sides or i'd feel my arms getting heavier and i would be using my muscles to support it then. i'd feel a certain energy flowing through my arms, wrapping itself on my hands and forearms and that was it.

lately, from years of research, i became bold enough to just let it happen on its own without consciously trying to influence its flow. i was amazed at what this "energy" can do. before i could only raise it up to shoulder level from the sides and from the front and always at the same time but now as i let it flow by itself it directed my arms in many ways. now it can raise my arms to shoulder level and pull it back to its maximum point. this can happen for either left or right arm or both. it can also raise my arm higher sometimes overhead (straight) with the finger touching. it can also raise just one arm. all i do is think of raising my arms and when i feel this energy on my forearms i let it "take me away".

also, if i "tune in" to this energy and on which points it has more concentration, i'd get the feeling that it wants me to bend on certain points in my joints and if i do it, it moves my arms in different other ways. up to now i can feel it coursing through my spine, sometimes pushing me forward or pulling me backward. i can do this sitting or standing up. i sometimes feel great concentration of energy in my chest when it raises my arms.

the positions of my arms when it "pauses" are the positions where you can raise your arms for a long time without straining.

what is this energy? answers will be greatly appreciated.