new to this tribe

topic posted Tue, March 18, 2008 - 10:49 AM by  nobodynobody
I am Gay but not Gay..never fit in to the Gay scene, bars, hate the music, hate the lots of stuff...When I was young and stupid..I knew I was gay but believed I would meet someone special, get married and live anormal life...didn't happen. Everyone seemed to haave a different agenda and taste in music ect. I was raised on Rock and punck and can even like some country ..some...but primarily I was never a disco techno rapp type of person...even though I went to college I never was a snob not even when I taught college...still never met Mr. Right and eventually gave up..all my friends were straight. So here I am now in my 40's and alone wishing for friends Gay males who are not gay so to speak but I have almost given up on finding true love and settling down..this depresses me to no end...I mean I don't have o have verything in common with a person...just love I would love to even have a tribe person to talk to as a friend. Since my resume and facts about me are on another tribe name I had to start a new tribe account to meet gay men so that those on tribe with prejudice or possible people which might effect me getting a job might see me there on tribe..I am here and happy to have found this tribe especially.
I am currently in Stockholm Sweden and return to the states in Northern Indiana where I will stay with a straight friend and look for work..get a job and live the sad pathetic lonely life of a gay but not gay man..still hoping and praying there is someone out there for me.
If I make friends here..I will gladly share my e-mail personal life and whatever is required to form friendships and maybe find love.
Thank you for this tribe.
  • Re: new to this tribe

    Tue, March 18, 2008 - 11:08 AM
    about me...well this has been my life. The art world is primarily straight as is academia...chose the wrong career? I am sure if I ever meet Mr. Right I will be successfull and content...working alone through the years without a partner has been hard...just think what a person could do if they had a life partner:

    CURRICULUM VITAE


    Education

    1995 MFA Multimedia/Intermedia, University of Iowa, Iowa
    City, IA
    1995 MA Multimedia/Intermedia, University of Iowa, Iowa
    City, IA
    1993 BFA Fine Arts, California Institute of the Arts,
    Valencia, CA
    1990 BA Fine Arts with concentration in painting,
    sociology, and technical theatre, Indiana
    University Northwest, Gary, IN

    Honors

    1997 Certificate of Teaching Excellence, awarded by Coalinga High
    School
    1995 – 1996 Native American Student Award
    1993 - 1995 Iowa Arts Fellowship Award, University of Iowa (two-year
    fellowship with tuition scholarship)
    1992 Ahmanson Scholarship, California Institute of the Arts
    1990 The Special Service Award, Indiana University Northwest
    1986 – 1990 Best in Painting, Indiana University, Northwest
    National Dean's List
    Higher Education Award and Scholarship
    1997 – 1990 Student Guide Award, a service award. Acted as ambassador to
    visiting lecturers and other VIP's
    1988 Who's Who Among America's Universities and Colleges
    International Poet's Society Award


    Teaching Experience

    Spring 2005 Lecturer/Art Talk: Native American Film and Art, National
    Museum of the Native American, Smithsonian, NY, NY

    Fall 2003 Art History, Mt. Mercy College
    Spring 2004

    Spring 2003 Painting, Drawing, Art History, Kirkwood Community College

    Fall 2002 Art History, Art, Introduction to Art, Mt. Mercy College, Fall
    Summer 2003

    Summer 2002 Instructor, Mt. Mercy College, Art Department
    Fall 2002

    Spring 2002 Guest Lecturer, University of Iowa, Intermedia Department

    Fall 2000 Guest Lecturer, University of Iowa, Intermedia Department

    1999 – 2000 Painting 1, Painting 11, and Art History/Survey: University of
    Kentucky,

    1999 – 2000 Fundamentals of Design: Ivy Tech College, Evansville Campus

    1999 – 2000 Art History/Survey, Appreciation: Brescia University

    1998 – 1999 Art and Art History, Art 105 and Art 210: University of Evansville

    1998 – 1999 World Cultures 101 and 102: University of Evansville

    1998 – 1999 Special Problems in Art, Art 104: University of Southern Indiana

    February 1998 Lecturer and Visual Presentation Retrospect, University of Southern
    Indiana

    1997 – 1998 World Cultures 101-102, Literature and Writing, Comparative
    Religious Studies, and Western Civilization, University of
    Evansville

    1997 – 1998 Art 104, Design in Materials, Art 400, Special Problems in Art,
    University of Southern Indiana

    1996 – 1997 Art Instructor, Coalinga-Huron Unified School District, CA

    1995 – 1996 Montessori School, Coralville, IA

    1988 – 1990 Art Instructor and Materials Maker, Calumet Region Montessori
    School, IN



    Related Work History

    2001 - Pearson's Scoring Supervisor, Scorer, Iowa City, IA

    July 2001 Co-curator Latino Native American Culture Center's 30th
    Anniversary Art Exhibit, University of Iowa

    1996 Producer and Videographer: "When I Talk Indian I think Differently" a
    documentary in association with the Iowa Multimedia Workshop for
    Endangered Languages. This documentary was distributed and aired
    across the country by Brenda Farnell, anthropologist, Dr. Wallace
    Chafe, Linguistics Department, University of California, Santa
    Barbara, and the panel members consisting of Betsy Buck (Cyuga),
    Melvin Grey Owl (Dakota), Richard Grounds (Euchee),
    Shirl Snyder (Navajo), and Mike and Mari Talks Different
    (Assiniboine). The video is part of a CD-ROM and Web Page1994 –

    1995 Assistant Youth Counselor (art therapy, art project and instruction),
    Youth Homes, Inc. (runaway shelter), Iowa City, IA

    1995 – 1996 Producer and Director ofthe Commercial for the 1995 and 1996 Pow
    Wows which aired on Heritage Cablevision Public Access Station,
    including ABC, CBS, and NBC, Iowa City, Cedar Rapids and
    surrounding cities

    1995 Instructor for youth project, Iowa Arts Council, Iowa City, IA

    1994 Producer, Videographer and Technical Editor in association with
    Brenda Farnell, anthropologist: Documentary on Kevin Lock,
    Native America ring dancer, storyteller and flute player, iowa City,
    IA

    1995 – 1996 Producer and Technical Editor of Documentary for the Native
    American Pow Wow, Iowa City, IA

    1994 – 1995 Founder and Curator, Parquet Gallery, International Center,
    University of Iowa, Iowa City, IA

    1992 Story boarder and Visual Researcher for Ancient Mysteries and
    Mysteries of the Bible on A&E; Jack Houseman, creator of "In
    Search of' and "Ripley's Believe It or Not" television shows, Studio
    City, CA

    1986 - 1990 University Theater Positions; chief scene painter, lighting and
    sound, set construction and costumer, Indiana University Northwest,
    Gary, IN
    Curator and Attendant for Gallery Northwest, Indiana University
    Northwest, Gary, IN

    1989 Set Designer, The Hobart Community Theater, Hobart, IN

    Lighting Design and Sound Technician, Great Midwestern Music
    Hall, Grand Rapids, MI. Musical artists included: DEVO, Hall and
    Oats, Hank Williams, Jr., Jonny Winter, Johnny Paycheck, The
    Romatics, Joe Perry of Aerosmith, etc.

    1988 Video and Computer Instructional Media Center, Indiana University
    Northwest, Gary, IN
    Cameraman, "This Is Your University," Indiana University
    Northwest, Gary, IN

    Exhibits, Shows, Videos, and Performances

    2005 Long Road Home, Paintings Installations and Film, The American
    Indian Community House Gallery, NY, NY

    Film Short: Scrubbed White, The American Indian Community
    House Gallery, NY, NY

    2004 Scrubbed White, Circle Theatre, Coralville, IA
    Prayers for the Ancestors, Tunnel, Mt. Mercy College

    2003 Art at the Crossroads of Culture (one-man show). Hall Art Gallery,
    Cedar Rapids, IA
    2002 Benefit for Leonard Peltier. Art Show-The Mill, Iowa City, IA

    April 2001 Latino and Native American Cultural Center 30th anniversary
    exhibit "Malu White as a God." Collaboration with Richard
    Ocompo, Manila, Philippines,

    2000 Private first glimpse show: Characters and paintings for my book
    "My Tribe," a collection of short stories, manipulated dolls, and
    other art on contemporary Native American issues and people, Iowa
    City, IA

    Performance, lecture with slides and video, and discussion:
    Colloquium: "Spirituality in Art." University of Iowa

    Retrospective, performance: "About Scrubbed White." Intermedia
    Workshop, University of Iowa

    Performance and installation: "Vandals & Ruins." With painting site
    Specific in the woods, Evansville, IL

    Raven Blue Wolf performance and installation: KCTCS Gallery,
    Owensboro, KY

    Painting: "Ancestors." Group show, KCTCS Gallery, Owensboro,
    KY

    2-D and 3-D Work and Installation: "I Object." Museum of Arts and
    Science, Evansville, IN

    1999 Performance, painting, and installation: "2000 Prayers". 3rd Street
    Gallery, Evansville, IN

    Retrospective, Paintings: KCTCS Gallery, Owensboro, KY

    Faculty Show: University of Evansville Gallery, Evansville, IN

    Installation /Ritual Site: "Suburban Sweat Lodge." Evansville, IN

    2-D and 3-D Paintings, Sculpture and Installation: "My Tribe." 3rd
    Street Gallery, Evansville, IN

    1998 Paintings/Installation: East Meets West Show, Museum of Arts and
    Science, Evansville, IN John Streetman, Museum and Gallery
    Curator, Pieces: Painting, "Once Upon A Time," oil on masonite,
    stand oil glaze. Painting/Installation: Once Upon A Time 11," oil on
    canvas, stained glass, wood. Mask "Green Man," glazed ivy leaves.
    Show dates: August -October

    Painting: "Soul Searcher." Oil on steel plate, candles, steel chest.
    Painting 24" x 30"/ Installation 6' x 6' 3rd Street Gallery, Evansville,
    IN

    Painting: "The Child Within." Oil on canvas, mixed media, 20" x
    24", 3rd Street Gallery, Evansville, IN

    Painting: "Reflections." Oil on canvas, 6' x 8', 3rd Street Gallery,
    Evansville, IN

    Painting: "Home?" Oil on canvas, 12" x 14", Alternative Space,
    Curator, J. Rosevere, Munster, IN

    Curator: Show of Young Artists, "The Office." Lori Frairie,
    Proprietor.

    Urban Sweat Lodge Installation: Crow Mask. Mask materials: wood
    and crow feathers, 18" x 24", 3rd Street Gallery, Evansville, IN

    Painting/Installation: "Cornucopia." Oil painting on puzzled
    masonite. Dimensions: painting 20" x 20"; installation space, 18' x
    18',yd Street Gallery, Evansville, IN

    Installation: "Changing the Cards You Are Dealt." Materials: bisque
    statues, cloth, candles. Installation space: 18' x 18'. Dimensions of
    piece, 30" x 30". Alternative Space, 14 SE Third Street, Evansville,
    IN

    Installation/Conceptual: "Well Read." Media/materials: wooden
    chair, silk rope (noose), reading glasses, book. University of
    Southern Indiana Faculty Show, Owensboro Community College,
    Owensboro, KY

    Performance: "Crush." Alternative Space, Evansville, IN

    1997 Installation: "Maze." Mixed media, Coalinga Artist Workshop
    Space, Coalinga, CA

    Installation and Painting Installation: "Path to the Light." Materials:
    wooden mouse traps painted white, white puzzle pieces and white
    candle. Painting: Oil. Wabash Valley College, Mt. Carmen, IL


    Painting: "Redemption." Oil on canvas, 8' x 6'. Coalinga Artist
    Workshop Space, Coalinga, CA

    Painting: "Balancing the Male." Oil on canvas, 4' x 6'. Coalinga
    Artist Workshop Space, Coalinga, CA

    Painting: "Djinn." Oil on canvas, 6' x 8', Coalinga Artist Workshop
    Space, Coalinga, CA

    Painting: "Born Under a Bad Sign." Oil on canvas, 8' x 6', Coalinga
    Artist Workshop Space, Coalinga, CA

    Painting: "Untitled." Triptych, oil on canvas, 6' x 6', Coalinga Artist
    Workshop Space, Coalinga, CA

    1996 Video: "Mosaic of Rhythm, The Red River Flows." Perfonnances
    by Rodney Hanson. and Ivan Doutt, percussionists. Acted as
    creative consultant, set designer and cameraman. Produced and
    aired on Public Access Television, Iowa City, IA Video: "WeAre
    Here." Video production and collaboration with Shirl Snyder and
    Marissa Cummings, fellow Native Americans. Interviews with
    Native Americans concerning their contributions to society. Acted
    as creative and technical director and editor. University of Iowa

    Video: "Mosaic of Rhythm." Performances by Rodney Hanson and
    Ivan Doutt, percussionists. Acted as creative consultant and
    cameraman. Produced and aired on Public Access, Iowa City, IA

    Video: "The Ophelia Project, Between the River and the Moon."
    Produced and directed the video production and documentation for
    the production that expresses strong feminist view on the abuse of
    women and their plight throughout history. University of Iowa

    Video: Commercial for Pow Wow aired on Heritage Cablevision,
    Public Access, Iowa

    1995 Video: "Om to Om." University of Iowa

    Earthwork: "Peace Circle." Work in continual progress and
    collaboration, "In the Woods," Holiday Road, Iowa City, IA

    Earthwork: "Contemplation, Realization/From Seed to Seed."
    Collaboration with students and instructors of the Montessori
    School of Iowa City, IA

    Installation, sculpture, ritual and performance: "Contemplation/As
    Above So Below/Forming of the Seed Pod." Iowa City, IA

    Installation, sculpture, ritual and performance:
    "Contemplation/Harvest." Parquet Gallery, Iowa City, IA

    Painting, installation and performance: "Contemplation." Parquet
    Gallery, Iowa City, IA

    Sculpture, installation and performance: "Puzzled." Parquet Gallery,
    Iowa City, IA

    Video: "Ritual and Realization." University of Iowa, IA Twelve
    paintings: "Spermata Pingere," Series 11 "Framed." Parquet Gallery,
    Iowa City, IA

    Video: "Fog." University of Iowa

    Video: "There Ain't Nobody Here But Us Chickens." University of
    Iowa

    Video: "Mixed Blood." Interviews with Native Americans of mixed
    blood. University of Iowa

    Video: Commercial for Pow Wow aired on Heritage Cablevision
    and 1996 Public Access, Iowa

    1994 Video: Amsterdam collaboration with visiting artist and performer
    Harry Heyink, Head of the Department of Intermedia at Garrit
    Rietveld Academie, Amsterdam and Dutch artists Harco Haagsma,
    Maarten Vanderploeg, Matthys DeBruijne, and Guido Van Gennep.
    Live television show with video inserts and performances broadcast
    in Iowa and P.A.R.K. TV Amsterdam, Netherlands. Contributed a
    video: "Lasca Ditto Will You Marry Me," and performed with
    Harry Heynik during the live show. Also acted as floor director.

    Painting: "Spermata Pingere." Series 1; Painting 1, "On the Art
    World." Parquet Gallery, Iowa City, IA

    Twelve Paintings: "On the Art World." "Spermata Pingere." Series
    1. Parquet Gallery, Iowa City, IA

    Performance: "Ice." On the icebergs in January at -20 degrees, Lake
    Michigan, Gary, IN

    Video and performance: "Ice/Red, White and Blue." Intermedia
    Performance Space, Iowa City, IA

    Video: "Ice/Red, White and Blue." Fairfield Video Show, MID,
    Fairfield, IA

    Video: "Time." Fairfield Video Show, MID, Fairfield, IA

    Video production: "TV Dinners." Aired on University of Iowa
    Television and Public Access
    Videos: "Cheap Shots, Full Circle." Introduction piece designed to
    unite the individual videos of the group of artists contributing to the
    show.

    "Because I don't have a wooden heart"

    "It's not unusual"

    Videos re-aired that were shown previously at the University Video
    Night. Shown on Wednesdays "Video Night" through the summer
    months at the 620 Nightclub, Iowa City, IA

    Video: "Pow Wow Highlights 1994."

    University of Iowa and the Latino Native American Cultural Center,
    Iowa City, IA

    Video: "Kevin Lock." University of Iowa and Latino Native
    American Center, Iowa City, IA

    Installation and opening of Parquet Gallery: "Been There, Done
    That:" International Center, University of Iowa

    1993 Video: "Rough Zone." University of Iowa

    Altar piece installation and performance: "Churches of Earth."
    Cosgrove Institute, Cosgrove, IA. Re-shown at the University of
    Iowa.

    Collaboration with other Native American writers and artists:
    "Indian Radio Days." This was a radio playas well as a live show
    performed on stage at CSPS, a gallery in Cedar Rapids, IA It was
    also broadcast on radio and reviewed in "Tractor" magazine.

    Video production and collaboration with Jymie Davidovich. Group
    show at the California Institute of the Arts, The University of Iowa
    television Station and EXIT Gallery, New York. My piece was
    entitled, "Time."

    Text installation: "Follow Me." Main Hall Gallery, California
    Institute of Arts, Valencia, CA

    Installation: "Identity Work in Progress." Tatum Gallery, 12 pieces,
    California Institute of the Arts, Valencia, CA

    Installation: "Time." California Institute of the Arts

    Group show: "Action Reality Transformation." Sponsored by
    Community Arts Partnership of Los Angeles, CA

    Participation in performance ball: "The Drag Bal1." Arranged by
    Matias Viegenet and Millie Wilson, California Institute of the Arts

    1992 Installation: "Bah, Bah, Black Sheep." Animal show arranged my
    Maria Cardosa, Main Gallery, California Institute of the Arts

    Student group performance and ritual: "Prayer for the Riot."
    Campus Lawn, California Institute of the Arts

    Installation: "Mao'nds." In collaboration with Vesper a Pekin
    Nightingale for the animal show, arranged by Maria Cardosa, Main
    Gallery, California Institute of the Arts

    Painting: "I Have A Friend." Group show, Mint Gallery, California
    Institute of the Arts

    Painting/Installation: "Flowers for a Goddess." Group show,
    arranged by Nancy Mitchnik, Mint Gallery, California Institute of
    the Arts

    1991 Painting: "Hung." Group show arranged by Lime Gallery, Judith
    Linhares, visiting artist, California Institute of the Arts

    Solo exhibition, paintings and installation: "Spirit in Painting." Food
    For Thought bookstore, Merrillville, IN

    Painting: "Woodsman." Commissioned for Karlene Cantrell,
    Merrillville, IN

    Painting: "In an Iris." Commissioned for Karlene Cantrell,
    Merrillville, IN

    1990 One sculpture and three paintings: "Around the Coyote." Group
    show arranged by Jim Happy Delpech, exhibited in Coyote
    Headquarters, Chicago, IL

    Five paintings in an installation: "We're Sorry, Blah, Blah, Blah, We
    Regret." Group show, Gallery Northwest, Gary, IN

    I have also done a variety of jobs, retail, bartending, manual labor, mental health professional and social work.....work is work.. I don't care if Mr. Right is a Doctor or a ditch digger..I am not a snob..just haven't met anyone who wasn't too"gay" for me..never met a man who wanted a life partner..are they out there?

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