i am so upset i might not post something coherent. i've been married seven months. Before I got married, i knew my husband played wow, but i didn't know how much he NEEDED to play. We didn't live together until we got married so I never really saw it. He played at work because he had a job where he basically babysat a slow store. I thought he played just to pass the time. But i swear, he needs this game more than he needs me. We have fought over this game and the issues surrounding this game at least every other day. He knows it makes me lonely because when he's on the computer, that's all he cares about and I might as well be single. He quit today, but not of his own will. I simply suggested that he might quit since it was causing us to fight so much. He did, but he's furious. Tonight is the first night he's going to bed angry with me. Tonight is the first night I feel he's no longer in love with me. And all because of a stupid fucking game.

I kept warning him that this game was going to ruin our marriage. I told him that I was starting to feel bitter and resentful and that I was started to feel hatred in my heart. I told him how hurtful it was that he simply didn't care how much his behavior was hurting me. He's watched me cry over it almost every other day for the past 7 months. He's been willing to cause me pain and fight with me because he NEEDS this game so much. He is unwilling to admit that this game is of utmost priority to him. That it causes him to neglect his duties as a husband and a father. He becomes agitated and impatient with both me and his five month old daughter if he feels we are interrupting his play time. She doesn't deserve that and neither do I.

Like I said, he quit. But I feel it will majorly affect our marriage because Wow was his happiness, not me. Wow filled his needs, not me. So without Wow, he will no longer have his happiness, and he will no longer be getting what he thinks he needs.

My parents failed at their marriage, though they made it 35 years before the end. It breaks my heart to think that ours could fail too. I feel so horrible for my child. I feel that I failed her more than anything else already. I don't want her to grow up with two parents that despise each other. I wanted her to grow up in a warm, loving, nurturing home. I wanted her to see a mother and father who loved each other and loved her. I never had that. My parents hated each other. And this was last thing I wanted to happen. And she's only five months old. She deserves better than that.

Wow and marriage cannot coexist. They cannot. Even wow with boundaries cannot exist. It is an all or nothing game... in between just does not work. I told my husband today he shouldn't have married me. He should have remained single so that he could play Wow, his real love, with no interruption. I deserve a husband. A full time husband. All his thoughts are preoccupied with Wow. I deserve to be wtih a man who is preoccupied with our future, preoccupied about "making it" as a family... both financially and emotionally. I deserve a man who is preoccupied with loving his family. All my husband thinks about is getting his 10 games and doing his dailies... and all I think about is taking care of my child and making it as a family. Something is wrong here... and i'm sad to think about what the solution is....