it's been a while since i've posted anything anywhere -
and it almost seems too cliché to be posting a day or two before new years...
but...
here we (I) go again...
time for a change! god!
and when better than the freshness and clean-slated-ness of a brand-shiny-spankin' new year!?!
i've been doing really well with the food thing for months. months.
no sugar, no flour, no caffeine, back to vegan...
then the boyfriend moved in...
i couldn't be luckier, really.
he is vegan, could care less about sugar, not into caffeine - b u t . . .
with him came bready things.
again - couldn't be luckier - it's like sprouted whole grain bread or bagels.
i withstood it for a month, then it started oh-so-innocently, "hmmm... that bagel sure smells good, can i have a bite? ?
then I had my own bagel, then it was daily, then with butter, then honey and butter, then those 'protein bars' that are really dressed up candy bars, then it was xmas-sugar-coma-binge-season and before i knew it i was on a first name basis with all the counter folks at peet's coffee- they all say hello when i occasionally lift my face from the pile of sugar and flour to wipe the quad-shot eggnog latte foam off my trembling upper lip. (picture pacino as tony montana in 'scar face'...)
so - again i say
HERE I FREAKING GO AGAIN.
jan. 1 - 10 doing my version of the Master Cleanse, then into a week (at least) of juice.
then, get this, i have the boyfriend talked into liver & gall bladder cleansing until there are no more stones. we have 5 months of cleanses scheduled already. I don’t really think he understands what he just agreed to. (heh heh *evil laughter*)
i guess i don't need to say it, but my fear is this:
i'll wake up january first and that tiny little voice will say, "just one more. just today. start tomorrow. "
if i listen that day, on jan1st, i'm uber-screwed.
so, i know this was a lot of babble, and i thank you if you've read so far -
just send me good thoughts and strength.
i was feeling better than i have in years the second half of 2007.
i weighed less than i had since high school.
and i can't believe i'm standing in this spot again.
love to you all.
shea
and it almost seems too cliché to be posting a day or two before new years...
but...
here we (I) go again...
time for a change! god!
and when better than the freshness and clean-slated-ness of a brand-shiny-spankin' new year!?!
i've been doing really well with the food thing for months. months.
no sugar, no flour, no caffeine, back to vegan...
then the boyfriend moved in...
i couldn't be luckier, really.
he is vegan, could care less about sugar, not into caffeine - b u t . . .
with him came bready things.
again - couldn't be luckier - it's like sprouted whole grain bread or bagels.
i withstood it for a month, then it started oh-so-innocently, "hmmm... that bagel sure smells good, can i have a bite? ?
then I had my own bagel, then it was daily, then with butter, then honey and butter, then those 'protein bars' that are really dressed up candy bars, then it was xmas-sugar-coma-binge-season and before i knew it i was on a first name basis with all the counter folks at peet's coffee- they all say hello when i occasionally lift my face from the pile of sugar and flour to wipe the quad-shot eggnog latte foam off my trembling upper lip. (picture pacino as tony montana in 'scar face'...)
so - again i say
HERE I FREAKING GO AGAIN.
jan. 1 - 10 doing my version of the Master Cleanse, then into a week (at least) of juice.
then, get this, i have the boyfriend talked into liver & gall bladder cleansing until there are no more stones. we have 5 months of cleanses scheduled already. I don’t really think he understands what he just agreed to. (heh heh *evil laughter*)
i guess i don't need to say it, but my fear is this:
i'll wake up january first and that tiny little voice will say, "just one more. just today. start tomorrow. "
if i listen that day, on jan1st, i'm uber-screwed.
so, i know this was a lot of babble, and i thank you if you've read so far -
just send me good thoughts and strength.
i was feeling better than i have in years the second half of 2007.
i weighed less than i had since high school.
and i can't believe i'm standing in this spot again.
love to you all.
shea
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Re: here we go again....
Sat, December 29, 2007 - 2:59 PMi can do this i can do this i can do this i can do this. -
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Re: here we go again....
Sat, December 29, 2007 - 4:43 PMYes you can!!!!!!!!
You know the first few days are the hardest, but once your body remembers that clean feeling, you'll be sayin' "bah!" to sugar!
:)
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Re: here we go again....
Thu, January 3, 2008 - 2:40 PMThanks for the reminder Shea! I have been on a "holiday" binge of sugar and caffeine. I think this is the time to get back on track (I say this having just eaten a slice of rum cake!).
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Re: here we go again....
Thu, January 10, 2008 - 5:18 PMHow are you kids doing? I was wheat free from January 2004 until August 2007. Then I realized I was no longer allergic to wheat so I started eating it again. (My wheat allergy primarily manifested as itchy skin.) But I guess I forgot about all the yuckiness besides itchy skin that wheat and sugar breed.
From January 2004 til June 2007, my weight dropped (slowly) from 154 lbs to 117 lbs. 117 lbs was too little, so I was a bit more liberal in my eating. I really like myself at 124 lbs. But last night the scale said 137 lbs. Uggh. And my pants are tight, and I've been sluggish, and moody, and bloated and uggh uggh uggh.
So starting today, I am back on the low wheat (only cereal) and low sugar (only natural unprocessed stuff like agave) diet. I think I already lost 2 lbs since yesterday!
So what I'm sayin' is...I'm with ya!
:)
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Unsu...
Re: here we go again....
Fri, January 11, 2008 - 9:33 AMI slid off the wagon yet again! It's so easy with all the holiday sweets still lingering in the office and at home. I need to make a trip to TJs to get some healthy snacks!!
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Re: here we go again....
Sun, January 13, 2008 - 12:47 PMhey! hi!
sorry! i seemed to have disappeared for a bit!
well...
so far, this year -
NO CAFFEINE, NO SUGAR AND NO "FLOUR"
can you freaking believe?
(i quote "flour" because i have had the sprouted grain bagels a few times and i'm just not sure whether they fall into the realm of 'flour' or not.)
i didn't make it 10 days with the master cleanse - i made it 7.
i was all gung-ho geared-up for 10, but on day 7 (january 7th) the boyfriend took me by the shoulders and begged me to eat. or, at least drink juice. apparently it wasn't working for me. :)
so, with all good intentions i embarked on what i thought to be a week, maybe two of juicing.
and i have been. one to two quarts of fresh, amazing, yummy veggie juices daily.
b u t . . i've also been eating. just a little.
(those damn bagels!)
and together we did, indeed, begin preparation for our first of who-knows-how-many liver gall bladder flushes...
and "D" day ("dump day) is tomorrow.
so far so good. feeling pretty darn good and pretty darn good about it.
sort of large sweeping general health and food plans for 2008:
ween myself back to raw by march 1st.
have a raw month in march.
and hopefully begin the juice-feasting program april - june.
www.juicefeasting.com
thank you ladies for being here.
ad thank you E for checking in.
i'll be back!
love LOVE love LOVE
shea
