As Shea pointing out, July 6th is just around the bend. Who needs a little love to get them focused? Who has some inspiration to share?
I'll start by saying that I gave into a few cappuccinos at a friend's house on Sunday as well as some sweets (they were at least wheat free). But boy did I feel it later on that day as well as on Monday. I was soooo tired the whole day! At least I got to the gym (after a week hiatus), but I still felt pretty crappy last night. Today I got up pretty early and I'm feeling better.
It's days like that that I try to remember when I'm thinking about succumbing to my addiction. It's just not worth the few minutes of flavor to feel shitty for two days! Anyway, I'm back on track!
I'll start by saying that I gave into a few cappuccinos at a friend's house on Sunday as well as some sweets (they were at least wheat free). But boy did I feel it later on that day as well as on Monday. I was soooo tired the whole day! At least I got to the gym (after a week hiatus), but I still felt pretty crappy last night. Today I got up pretty early and I'm feeling better.
It's days like that that I try to remember when I'm thinking about succumbing to my addiction. It's just not worth the few minutes of flavor to feel shitty for two days! Anyway, I'm back on track!
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heard THAT allie!
i tell myself that all the time.
sometimes i listen....
sometimes not so much....
hugs,
s
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I keep reminding myself that instant gratification lasts only an instant. That's how I was able to stay away from the brownies only a few paces away from me here at work. Now all I have to do is drag myself to the gym!
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what im struggling most with these days is... struggling...
see, theres a story (when is there not?)...
if i really get honest with myself, its really about being authentic, and fear...
im one of the more unlikely ministerial students youll every run across... been around the block many times, know black places, unhealthy choices, etc... and while i no longer engage in most of that self destructive stuff, i still smoke, still get pissy and moody now and again, still dont exercise (feeling quite fat at the moment), drink too much coffee...
thats the problem when i get thinking along these lines, i can come up with a whole list of shit, then i feel like shit, and im pretty much done with that whole self-depreciating thing...
but, you can see that there's conflict. finishing my second year of grad school, ready to start my last year, i think that i figured i'd have my shit together a little more by now than i do... boy is THAT a familiar line...
so, really just trying to relax into what is, see the good, know that all is well, and at the same time get off my ass and take some constructive action...
aint it fun??
thanks for letting me vent...
xoj
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Hi Jeff :)
It's not worth getting down about this stuff...I mean making a list of things you are doing "wrong" and then feeling bad about those things is just another way of self poisoning...
Make a list of things you feel good about...and smile as you reread it...keep reading it until you're smiling even when you stop reading it...
And then just choose one undesirable thing to release...and feel good about that...in another couple of weeks or months or whatever release something else...
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Unsu...
Thanks for you honesty Jeff. I think it's good to be upfront about where you've fallen short, but don't dwell too much on that (you know that!). It's amazing how much pressure we put on ourselves, especially when we have a "reputation" to uphold. We "supposed" to be like.... well, we're all human and struggling!
Like Ivy said, one thing at a time. Can I suggest that you lose the coffee first? I found that giving up caffeine has made giving up other things much easier. You can even try substituting something with good caffeine like green tea. Anyway, pick your one thing and take a stand for your health!
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allie allie allie -
where am i at right now?
it's july 5th and i'm full of caffiene and there's no way tomorrow is it for me.
flour and sugar i can do. i have faith.
but the caffiene will have to wait for another set date.
(should we change the name of the tribe after tomorrow? new goal date, new name?)
my birthday is sunday and i really really want a piece of carrot cake. i haven't had 'cake' in years.
cake. ahhhh.... ('ahhhh' is such an illuion!)
so tomorrow, back to primarily vegan and no flour or sugar. (been good with it again)
it's just the darn stimulants.
good luck everyone!
hugs,s
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Unsu...
I like that idea of changing the date after tomorrow. I'll start a new thread and see what everyone thinks... another month? Another year?
Flour and sugar for now!! Work on the caffeine later. Whatever you feel you can take on is a good step in the right direction!!
Personally, I've given myself the leeway to have a piece of cake now and then at a birthday or a special event. I just try to make sure it's really worth it. I don't eat the crap M&M's here at work any more (although I have sneaked a chocolate covered raisin now and again). I'm doing pretty well considering what I used to pound down!
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