I'd like to know if anyone else does this. I call it "Imaginary Tasking".
About 8 years ago I started doing this peculiar thing of imagining I had a task done when I didn't. If there was a letter I was supposed to answer or a bill I was supposed to pay, but I couldn't find the time or energy, I got into this habit of mentally "seeing" myself doing it, as if I was going to get right up and do it, but that imaging relaxed me so much that I would forget all about the task. "What -- I didn't pay that bill?" "Oh no, I guess I didn't. Gee. I think I'm in deep shit now."
I think that was a coping mechanism for the years of my mother's Alzheimers. I was truly overwhelmed by the demands of life, exhausted, and wishing Calgon could take me away.
Well, since the Fibro Fog has been so bad the past 3 weeks, I've been having worse trouble with this imaginary tasking. Friday morning I got to work and realized I did not have my carton of Pacific Organic Green Tea, my multi-grain bread or my banana. I couldn't believe it! I thought for sure I'd packed everything. So when I went home for a quick break I looked for those items... couldn't find them.
I thought this is it, the sure signs of senility. Brain damage from the Zodiac Pesticide neurotoxins mixed with Fibro Fog and the lifelong scatterbrained forgetfulness. Oh my!
So I looked and looked... found only the multi-grain bread. Went back to work, bread tucked under arm. When it was time to go home for the day, I made a shocking discovery: In the front seat of my car, there lay the missing banana... sun-baked BLACK and ever so hot to the touch. Too bad I didn't care for hot banana pudding. But I was so shocked at seeing the banana, I might as well have been beholding the mythical holy grail. Yes... it was an amazing sight.
So then I got home... thought, SURELY I can now find my carton of Pacific Organic Green Tea! The gods showed me the banana so I think it must be time for the next miracle. Please? Please! I went to the fridge... looked all around... and to my dismay, there was the carton of Pacific Organic Green Tea. Hallelujah! I wasn't crazy after all -- I really did own a carton of this special tea!
Unfortunately, that's when I realized I'd simply engaged in some heavy duty Imaginary Tasking that morning. Mentally, I'd packed my lunch bags, and it was as good as done. ::sigh:: I gotta stop this crap.
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About 8 years ago I started doing this peculiar thing of imagining I had a task done when I didn't. If there was a letter I was supposed to answer or a bill I was supposed to pay, but I couldn't find the time or energy, I got into this habit of mentally "seeing" myself doing it, as if I was going to get right up and do it, but that imaging relaxed me so much that I would forget all about the task. "What -- I didn't pay that bill?" "Oh no, I guess I didn't. Gee. I think I'm in deep shit now."
I think that was a coping mechanism for the years of my mother's Alzheimers. I was truly overwhelmed by the demands of life, exhausted, and wishing Calgon could take me away.
Well, since the Fibro Fog has been so bad the past 3 weeks, I've been having worse trouble with this imaginary tasking. Friday morning I got to work and realized I did not have my carton of Pacific Organic Green Tea, my multi-grain bread or my banana. I couldn't believe it! I thought for sure I'd packed everything. So when I went home for a quick break I looked for those items... couldn't find them.
I thought this is it, the sure signs of senility. Brain damage from the Zodiac Pesticide neurotoxins mixed with Fibro Fog and the lifelong scatterbrained forgetfulness. Oh my!
So I looked and looked... found only the multi-grain bread. Went back to work, bread tucked under arm. When it was time to go home for the day, I made a shocking discovery: In the front seat of my car, there lay the missing banana... sun-baked BLACK and ever so hot to the touch. Too bad I didn't care for hot banana pudding. But I was so shocked at seeing the banana, I might as well have been beholding the mythical holy grail. Yes... it was an amazing sight.
So then I got home... thought, SURELY I can now find my carton of Pacific Organic Green Tea! The gods showed me the banana so I think it must be time for the next miracle. Please? Please! I went to the fridge... looked all around... and to my dismay, there was the carton of Pacific Organic Green Tea. Hallelujah! I wasn't crazy after all -- I really did own a carton of this special tea!
Unfortunately, that's when I realized I'd simply engaged in some heavy duty Imaginary Tasking that morning. Mentally, I'd packed my lunch bags, and it was as good as done. ::sigh:: I gotta stop this crap.
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Re: Imaginary Tasking
Thu, June 19, 2008 - 5:59 PMI do that," imaginary tasking", hoping somehow it will help me get things done. I do alot of that, it actually keeps me awake at night, planing every little detail of what will NOT get done the next day, until it REALLY does gets done in a late and scattered way, nothing like my wishful thinking. Isn't it part of our pattern as ADD's to be daydreamers??
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Re: Imaginary Tasking
Thu, June 19, 2008 - 6:42 PMI think so.
On another topic, Tribe is really screwing up, at least for me. It's been DAYS since I've been able to log on completely. Anyone else having trouble, more than the usual amount? I suppose it's pointless to ask, since continuing technical issues may prevent me from your replies. But in case this goes through and I don't return, I would like to wish you all a nice summer. :) -
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Re: Imaginary Tasking
Thu, June 19, 2008 - 6:44 PMI've been having the same trouble...
Really anoying, when I log on I want to log on NOW!!
Sarah
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Re: Imaginary Tasking
Thu, June 19, 2008 - 7:56 PMya iggi ... been making me mental, tribe has ... -
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Re: Imaginary Tasking
Thu, June 19, 2008 - 9:06 PMYeah, it's aggravating. Just when I *finally* remember what I was going to say, I go online to post and get blocked and -- that's the end of that!
I guess this means I should get going on my life story. Writing it, that is. Living it has gotten to be a bit boring. I could get creative. It could be semi-autobiographical... maybe based on someone else's life... and a little bit of mine, the real twisted parts.
Anyone here written their kinda sorta life story?
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Re: Imaginary Tasking
Thu, June 19, 2008 - 9:47 PMyessss! i'm prone to the similar affliction of remembering to do something, being proud of myself for remembering and then assuming that i'll remember it again when we all know i won't until 15 minutes after it's too late or mentioned to me. "oh yeah, I was gonna do that..." just doesn't cut it in my life right now. professionally at least. personally, i'm barely treading the surface of about a month of laziness that has accumulated around me since the weather started turning for the better. -
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Re: Imaginary Tasking
Thu, June 19, 2008 - 9:51 PMas for tribe...it monsterously sucks when you log on and get that blip 5 minutes that the site is working and then all of a sudden it's no-go.
i've been learning to live without tribe lately.
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