well. yesterday was on the phone w/ a potential donor for a grant. been tryin' for some time to generate a write of passage program on the rez. have been hittin my head against the wall w/ policies, beaurocracies and snaggles. am talking on the phone and the donor (who is in iowa but also has a place in sfe) asks, 'well let's see if we can revision or something. what's up out where you are? what's relevant? what are youth up to?'

i say, i hear there's a lot of violence. and anger. and restlessness. and addictions. drug usage. frustration.

we start talking about violence and what kind of art might be of interest and

bang! bang! bang!

i look out my window and three kids are shooting a gun at my house.

i say, 'um i think someone's shooting at my house, hold on.'

a bb goes through the kitchen window.

'yup, they're shootin at my house those fuckers!'

one looks like he's 10, the other 14 and a young looking driver.

what's this to do w/ spider woman?
it really woke me up. what am i doing here? what are we doing here? what do we do w/ this violence? how do i interact w/ kids here?

so i'm getting ready to put together a multi-media performance piece on the myth of spider woman. and the emergence into the different worlds. hoping to work w/ youth in a way that makes sense. give them cameras. supplies. make puppets. film. weave it into a shadow puppetry ritual performance piece or something.

i didn't think earlier that the 'desert spider' handle actually meant i wd explore the spider woman mythology or the emergence cycles more closely. have had spiders falling all over my house for the last 2 years. duh! i'd love any and all information pointing me to these stories in closer detail.