in my years of pouring through metaphysics books and teachers and classes, i have found "manifesting" to be a much addressed topic. i think this is because everybody is always wanting more and wanting what they don't have... it's funny because, in the way that it's addressed, the subject of manifesting often gets away from the core of what it is we are wanting... to simply love our lives and our selves and the moment that we're in. it often strikes me as a way teachers can easily make money and gain followers by offering people a "superfood" solution to their hungers without addressing the real hunger itself.

anyway, my own experience in manifesting is quite opposite of the way it is taught. it seems to me that the things that i focus on manifesting, don't come, and often painfully. if you want it, you long for it, you put your energy into that wanting and longing and you continue to feed those feellings. affirmations only work when you've so honestly convined yourself of the truth of the affirmation that you don't even need the affirmation any more. the things that seem to happen the best and most easily are the when i say to myself or the universe or whatever little beings i happen to be conversing that day, "it would be nice if...." it comes from this place of being totally happy with what i've got and who i am and how my life is going... "and by the way, if this happened to happen, it would be such a fantastic bonus." when i do that, i don't normally plan it, or decide that i'm going to say this thing and then pray or meditate on it, i just kind of have the thought and then it kind of goes away and then i don't think about it much and then viola! one day i have that thing and i just say, "wow! thanks guys! y'know, you didn't have to do that, but you did. you must really love me."

and i blow kisses to those little invisible guys that take care of me and go on, feeling very very loved and fortunate to be me.