Me too. It makes me sad/mad to read books sometimes, though. - it did today after a while of reading. You ....I mean people ....or who has or doesn't have psychological security? Shouldn't we have that? ( I think I know what you mean.) Why not? Then if we don't, we are all out here unsafe? Or crazy and no one cares? Physical securtity? Aren't you scared? Clinging to physical security? You mean like house, and stuff, a place to be... Shouldn't we be? What else is there to do? If I wait for myself to have the inner 'wisdom' to know when I release this 'clinging', what I should do, then I ... should just take action now. I suppose one would call that NOT living ... oh well.. my freakin' brain hurts..... Aren't you scared?

Just thought I'd jump in here with an excerpt from this new book (the title is actually The Love of Uncertainty)--currently being printed--so that your curiosity can be at least somewhat satisfied. Unfortunately, the italics drop out when I paste the text in here, so you lose the emphasis, but this should give you an idea of the flavor of the book:

Virtual Reality

Life doesn’t have anything to do with what we want. It doesn’t have anything to do with our description, our conditioning, our direction. It’s not that it’s doing what it wants, because there’s no “it” that wants. Life just is. It’s tremendously dynamic and yet it does not move from location to location. It doesn’t move in time—doesn’t move in any way that we can think about or describe. If we attend to what is actual in our life, we’ll see that our life has absolutely nothing to do with our description, nothing to do with the way we think about what’s happening. We are not in control of our life or anything else, but we live as if we have that capacity. We struggle to have control, to define life, to direct it, to own it.

What is the expression of feeling in us? What is the restriction of it? Can we let it express itself? What’s actually moving, and will we let it move?

We constantly take energy into the mind, into a description, over and over again. The mind has patterning that we identify as control. It’s mechanical, habitual, chronic, so we say that’s predictable and I control it. But if you don’t move energy into your mind and disconnect yourself from your own body, your own life, your own presence, what happens?

You have to find out by doing it, by not resisting, by not taking all that energy constantly into the mental area. This means the philosopher may have to move around. It means their stoicism, their ability to control energy by sitting still and making precise descriptions of it, is actually an avoidance. Pretty much everything we do is an avoidance. Our whole life is a conversion of moving energy into something that appears to be in our control, appears to be stable. We try to push it into certain kinds of relationships, certain kinds of activities, things that we know about, things that are not risky. But there are all kinds of energetic movements that are not expressing. Where do they go? What happens to a body that doesn’t express itself, that doesn’t allow expression, that wants to move, but is restricted from moving, that wants to call out or cry out and doesn’t?

Pain, pain, and pain, in all forms. Pain in the outer forms—the breakdown of relationships, the breakdown of finances, the breakdown of health. And in the inner world, calcification or hardening of the space. This looks like control, like “I’ve got something here” in the inner space. “I found something, I know something, I am somebody.” That’s what it looks like, but it’s actually resistance to the movement, which is alive, creative, and has all the human potential in it.

This energetic movement destroys what’s false in relationships. In that destruction it deepens the actual relationship, because the actual relationship is a fact, not an idea. It destroys the falseness of activity that is not whole.

It is both the destruction of what’s false and the creation of something whole, because that’s what it is—it is alive, it is whole. Resistance to that movement is pain, pain, and pain. There’s absolutely no movement to the resistance. It’s the illusion of time and process, the spirituality of getting better.

We tend to try to modify our conflict, to relieve the absolute pressure, the absolute pain of relationship conflict, but this attempt to fix it actually makes it more difficult. If you and I work out our communication with each other so that we feel better about each other, this is actually a worse condition than being in total conflict, because in total conflict we’re right in contact with something extremely vital. But in our self-improvement, we’re replacing that uncomfortable contact with an ideal that suggests we’re getting better, when all we’re doing is thinking we’re getting better.

I’d rather be in contact with the actual resistance, the pain of it, and the possibility of that pain releasing because it’s too much. I would prefer to be flattened by my own resistance. To actually feel what that is. But that’s the movement of feeling again, isn’t it? And that moving energy will rip apart anything that is not true, that is not the expression of that movement.

The mentalized world that resists energy doesn’t have substantial existence. It’s a virtual world where we hide, and the hiding, the virtual world, and the “we” that hide there are all without substance. It’s like a computer game where all the senses are somehow engaged, as if we’re walking down the street, as if a monster jumps out, as if we have the ray gun. This has all the qualities of actuality, but in fact it’s just a trick of the senses. The aggregation of those senses would suggest that I live in separation, that I know something, that I am something.
You can’t find that world in feeling—it doesn’t exist in that form at all. You find something that is like that—thinking takes place in feeling, feeling expresses itself through thinking, but there’s no separate world in that feeling. There’s a separate world seamlessly connected to a whole world. What you find in actual life is relationship, movement of energy, which means that all that separation you build from the aggregation of the senses isn’t.

Do I want to see that I am not? Does the aggregation want to see that it is not? Certainly not. In that friction we find the quality of sublime confusion. It’s the disorganization of what we think we are and, at the same time, a sublime quality of connection with feeling. It’s destruction and creation at the same time.

Feeling is not in the virtual world because it’s not describable. It can’t be taken into the conceptual world. When we try to do that, we get philosophy and spirituality.

By entertaining the idea that some entity is actually capable of letting or not letting go, that there's some part of us that's in control to this degree, or any degree for that matter - well, that's an idea that I don't subscribe to.