That's a lot of question! I'm going to do a reading on your website.

According to the cards, you are already not enjoying it as much as you thought you would. Maybe it's a new equilibrium that you are struggling with, but something doesn't seem to be resonating with you. I see another option or something, perhaps a partnership with someone else on the site? Or another way of looking at it--new goals? -- That eventually pays off for you emotionally, so I would guess money is there. This seems to be more about materializing a relationship with your ?? self (your boundaries? your giver self? your sense of balance? somethng like that, that ends up being about how you love yourself) than a grand money thing. Although I don't see a big 'money' theme here, I do not see any lack of it. This experience, on the whole, is important to your process though... Try to let it flow.
Hope that is helpful.
Peace

well that doesn't seem very in line with what i was getting, but i'm glad you gleaned something from it! i just realized also that throughout my reading for you i assumed you were male! oh well...gender is subjective anyway. :P

Gabby

Thanks for that!

It's the day job that gets me down sometimes - being self-employed in a country that has the most punitive tax system in Europe bar, allegedly, Belgium. My last accountant did a runner, another did a moody, the last one before that dropped me in it with Immigration, I have sometimes had doubts about the present one and the people working for him, but they have been supportive overall.

Nit-picking and pettiness- omigod, I could give you a few stories there. And yes, it can be very dog-eat-dog and selfish. I miss the community there was in the UK in the towns I lived in - I know a group that puts on exhibitons there, though they are Christians - but at least there is a perspective there that is beyond conventional work and family.

I have felt better about things since getting more involved with one or two aert outlets here, as well as bering more active an an artist online. That is a whole lot more important to me than this one.

So, thanks Gabby!

simone',

yeah that's what i meant. haha. :P

i don't know.... actually it was just recently that i started just allowing myself to sort of "improvise" off of the cards I was getting and not be so bound up by the cards themselves. i think i'm finally learning how to have faith in my intuition... and I think it's because I finally realized that it's okay that I have to use tarot cards to get there. I was bummed out for a long time that I couldn't just be clairvoyant or clairsentient or whatever... but then I read something this one guy wrote about he came to terms with a similar feeling...he decided one day that we each have our own gifts, and instead of coveting someone else's gift, just hone the skills you've got. that has helped me a whole lot. I'm not clairvoyant, clairsentient, I can't read auras (which I would love to do more than anything in the world), I can't even do tarot readings over the phone very well because I need to be able to take my time...but what I can do is what I'm doing here, and that's pretty okay with me. :)

My question is: My lease for my office is up end of February and I'm hoping to move into a bigger, less expensive place near my house pronto. How do you see this materialise and what will it do to my business?

Better though that you answer this in the other thread. Thanks in advance :-)

sorry, been having internet problems! Kelly, I will answer your question either late tonight or sometime tomorrow.

Kelly's Question:

How can I regain my "self" within my relationship and upcoming marriage? I have been swept away, and have gained weight, and my dance skills have suffered. I am having a hard time merging my two 'lives' My partner and I are A very good match, but our friends and social lives aren't meshing yet. arrgghh!! Any insights into this situation?

The Reading:

Thank you for your question. It seems like a really frustrating situation that you're in right now. I asked the Tarot, "Where should I begin?" with this situation, and I received the 10 of Pentacles. If you are familiar with this card from the Rider-Waite deck, you know that it shows an elderly gentleman seated outside his palatial estate. His pets are there, his family members. He is surrounded by people who love him, and they are all provided for, socially and materially.

This is what you are aiming for. But the vision shows someone who has worked many years to achieve this emotional and material abundance. It did not come all at once. So if this is where you would like to be someday with your husband-to-be, it may be some small comfort to you to know that it will not come overnight, so there's no pressure to try to make it happen that soon.

I'm also picking up that your manners of socializing are different. You I see as the Queen of Wands. Friendly and outgoing with everyone. You are funny, positive, and by and large people like you (which is what you're generally aiming for).

Your fiance comes through as The Emperor and the Knight of Pentacles. It just isn't as important to him to know everyone, talk to everyone, or be liked by everyone. He thinks he has more serious concerns, and so getting to know the people in your life who *you* love just does not seem to him like his top priority. He would rather concentrate on his problems and the work he has to do, the duties he has to fulfill, than to worry about emotions (his or those of other people).

You, on the other hand, are more balanced in dealing with others, and if you notice a problem in your relationships, you want to fix those problems, even if you don't know exactly how (the Judgment card and the 5 of pentacles).

The Strength card shows me that there is a great deal of potential for this relationship. The problems you two are having are not ones that cannot be overcome, and you likely will overcome them.

I asked the Tarot what you could do to help merge your social lives better, and I pulled the Magician and the Fool. You already know what some of the things are that you need to do, and you have the skills and resources to do them. You'll have to put some of your fiery nature to work here: throw the occasional mixer and invite your friends and his. Make people feel comfortable getting to know each other,, that sort of thing. Also, the Fool's advice here seems to be to RELAX a little more about this. Don't think that things have to go any certain way. Your friends may never mesh exactly the way you had hoped, but be open to whatever may happen.

You also asked how you can regain your "self." I'm getting the ace of pentacles, the Star, the 7 of swords clarified by the World.

I think the focus on yourself gets lost because you are secretly putting so much of your emotional effort into making your relationship as perfect as it can be. People do not know how often you spent thinking, worrying, and doing things that you hope will make your relationship ideal. Even though you have good energy around yourself, and plenty of support to help your relationship grow, you do not always see that this is enough.

When I ask what you need to do in order to regain your self, I pulled the Hermit, the King of Wands, the 10 of Wands, and the ace of wands.

There is a need to make your alone time really yours, and the plethora of wands here seem to indicate that physical activity is a key for you, something that, when you do it right, really does make you more balanced mentally, physically, and emotionally, and so dance, and any other physical activity you enjoy, should get special attention from you right now. I'm also seeing here from the 10 of wands that physical activity is not completely easy for you. You feel the struggle of it. You feel the struggle of your body not working the way you want it to, of the new weight that you do not want or need. But the King of Wands shows that you are still physically strong, and you will work your way back to a body that works better for you. The Ace of Wands shows that you have the spark of energy necessary to make this happen.

The Hermit highlights the need to use your alone-time to renew yourself and pull more energy into yourself. When you are dancing, or doing other things that are for YOU and YOUR well-being, make sure to center your focus on yourself. You cannot get out of dance what you need to get out of it if you are worrying about your partner the whole time. It might be helpful to take a few minutes before beginning to dance (or craft, or pick out a good movie to watch, or whatever else you might like to do for yourself) to meditate and center yourself. Take several slow, deep breaths, thinking with each breathe you take in "this is for me," and with each breathe out, gently push away the thoughts, needs, and concerns of other people in your life.

Kelly, I hope this helps! The final advice from the Tarot comes in the form of the 4 of swords: Relax! Rest! Calm your mind, and recognize that the universe supports you, and that everything will be just fine. Not perfect, but fine!

Well it takes her about 4-5 days to get to someone, because so many keep on asking her. Basically your not the only one waiting for one as well. You were probably next to get a reading, but because your too impatient and need the instant gratification for your question to be answer, it has led me to believe of not being surprised that you have given up so quickly.

Teresa,

I didn't think you were being rude, and I'm sorry I took so long. I had tried to read on yours yesterday and could not focus. I didn't want to give you a mediocre reading. I really think the answer to your question is probably a complicated one. There are probably several reasons he didn't call, none of them alarming or cause for distress. I do not think it was anything that you did wrong, and like I said before he very much liked you. You, like most of us, are still learning how to be in relationships, and there is no "right" or "wrong" way to do that. If you think you are choosing wisely, then you probably are. Sometimes you might choose a direction that seems wise at the time, and turns out to have been totally wrong. That does not mean you are bad or did anything wrong. It is just something unfortunate that you can learn from, and then you move on even though moving on is very difficult.

What you say about Sean makes more sense now. I definitely got the sense that he did not want to get into a relationship for the wrong reasons, but also the feeling that it was a struggle for him sometimes--and from what you say about him trying to be with you, it sounds like the struggle is difficult for him!

Congratulations!

Well the three of cups is a celebration, so I guess there will be a clinched deal at the end of it. I think the Emperor showing up also is pretty reflective of my Saturn return. Saturn features very strongly in my readings; I have been pulling on Judgement, Emperor and Saturn comes as himself in horary readings. Maybe this is the tough end of the stick as I clear things out in my Saturn return.

Hello Gabby

For your question, I got 4 of pentacles, Temperance and 9 of swords.

I have a sense that they have saved up some money to see you, or the journey that they are on is quite the shoestring budget. The journey to see you is made with some effort. It feels quite possibility this is a first meeting, if not one in a long time and this visit is quite a rare one. I don't sense that the relationship that you have with them is a very cordial one, it is one fraught with past tensions and things unsaid when they should have been said. The relationship feels like a critical one but is one that has to be maintained for some reason; thus the Temperance card. This card also tells me there is a lot of tactfulness and cautiousness in all dealings. This is also a card of calm and restraint. I also feel that there are some grievances that you would have picked up off them for some reason; are they hoping to ask you for help or a way out of a situation but you are not able to extend your help. There is a certain amount of dead negativity with them. I get the feeling that one of them is either very ill, or very stressed. I sense K is taking care of L. L feels like the more debilitated one.

Who are L and K? Are they your parents? Or are they clients?

I'm quite keen to find out if the reading is accurate for you.

Elementals? Now that is something I would not want to contact! Did they purposely contact them, or did it happen by accident?

Okay.... with the 5 of pentacles I wasn't sure if it was that YOU would not want to spend time with him, or vice versa. So it seems from what you say it might have been a little bit of both?

I dunno, Teresa. If he is bothering you, and he won't stop, it seems like maybe it would be a good idea not to talk to him? Or at least not take relationship advice from him! You never know, he might have a crush on you, and that sounds like the kind of behavior you might expect if he does. ? I wouldn't exactly call that kind of behavior evil, but it is immature and manipulative to try to come between you and someone you like.

About my being scared of mediumship--I think it's just not something I am ready for. I may never be. It's just a really deep place that I am not ready to go. When I have sensed spirits before, it mostly is just that... "sensing" them. I do not see them, nor can I communicate w/them. I think that makes it scarier to me because I can't tell who it is or why it is there, you know? I felt my mother's presence once, and felt it really strongly... but I pulled out of the experience because even then I was scared it might be an evil spirit just trying to make me think it was her. Honestly, even if I knew for sure that it was her, it would still be a frightening experience for me. sigh...

hi teresa,

what u r saying here is v.v.v.interesting!

I have the psychic circle board at home and tried it during my teenage years. It can get v,nasty or extremely wacko. I still hv it but hv not touched it (its been 12 years!!!).

Are u able to tell me if the spirit still lives there or it has gone? :)

thanks!

LadySaber,

Hey, that's amazing! Congratulations!

Pleasure Victim,

I saw that you also asked about this in the horary tribe, and my Tarot reading is pretty close to her horary reading, so this is not likely what you want to hear.

For advice I am getting the Queen of Swords. You need to try to separate yourself from the emotional pain of this for awhile. Try not to worry about it. Resign yourself to the reality that you will both need a lot of time and distance from each other before things can ever be settled.

I am getting 6 of Wands when asking if you will ever rekindle your friendship, so I think that you will, but there will be a lot of waiting (Hanged Man). I asked if you would rekindle the relationship before the end of this year and pulled the Emperor. I take that as a "no."

I asked if it would be rekindled before the end of next year (2011) and the card I pulled was 4 of Wands, which seems to indicate that you will. Still, that's likely much longer than I think you would like to wait. I asked again, to clarify, "What is the likelihood they will reconcile before the end of 2011" and got the 6 of Swords. This definitely seems like there will be a reconciliation then, but there will be a lot of waiting to get to that point.

When I ask if he will try to reconnect with you I get 3 of Swords. When I ask how you will know when it is time and when it is safe to try to reconnect with him again I get 3 of Swords and 10 of Swords. I really think this just reiterates what Tanit has said... he will not be the one to try to reconcile. He will not approach you looking to patch things up. And there may never be a clear point at which it seems "right" or "okay" for you to approach him for that, which will be really difficult for you.

The further advice I am getting is The Fool. Again, just try to move on for now. There really isn't much you can do for this friendship right now. Just from what you've said in the horary tribe, it doesn't sound like you really did anything that bad. If this was the only time you ever got mad at him, then, you know, that's just what happens in friendships sometimes! If he can't take someone ever getting mad at him, then he has some growing up to do and I guess he will have to learn that separately from you. Anger is certainly a valid emotion.

When I ask "How bad were Pleasure Victim's actions toward her friend" I get 4 of Swords, Page of Coins, and Temperance. I mean, it really seems to me like you were trying your best to form a stronger friendship. That your aim was peaceful, however it might have seemed, and that you were certainly trying your best to be cautious with this person. You cannot feel guilty for the break in this friendship. You did not cause it... he did. He chose to walk away after you gave him what basically seems like an ultimatum (from other cards I have drawn here, that seems to be sort of the jist of it, right?).

You laid down the law. You said, "Here are my rules, here's how I want to be treated," and he decided he did not want to play by those rules and would rather sever ties, at least for the time being. That was his choice, not yours. You were trying to build a closer bond, and you cannot feel guilty for that. You deserved what you were asking for.

I also think he wanted to be with you romantically, and he thought you considered yourself "too good" for him. I really think that is the major source of his pain right now. If he thinks it's all or nothing, there again, that's his choice! Not much you can do for him.