So I recently went to TN and LOVED it.....I LOVED it so much that I am hoping to move down there *someday*. I currently live and take care of my grammy and I would be riddled with guilt if I just left.

So my boyfriend of 4 years and I are talking. Now mind you that last year we were engaged, and then (long story made short) I basically found out that he only asked me to "shut me up and that it a marriage is just a good excuse for a party"......so I called it off. Ever since then he's made it VERY clear that he really doesnt want to get married. Fine. I accept that.

When I started talking about moving, he got pissed--really pissed. And he goes to me "so what about me?" I say I am not going to wait around forever for him to decide he wants to get married. Well suddenly--he wants to discuss. I tell him that he's only wanting to discuss because I am thinking of moving...and now--it WOULD really be an excuse to marry me....and I am not down for that. You want to marry me it should be because you WANT to......

He got all pissy and then called me a bitch! And then goes, "Fine, I am fucking going home." So I say, "whose the little bitch now??"

ARGH.......

And as if I werent stressed enough. I came home all conflicted about what I want to do about moving and leaving grammy, I found one of beloved snakes dead when I got home--and he knew all this shit. So instead of being supportive--its ALL ABOUT HIM!

WTF?

I am so angry I want to punch the shit out of something....