Well...for those of you who don't know, my parents divorced when I was little, and my mother remarried.

My biological father was a prick for most of my life (who am I kiddiing-he's more interested in his defactos kids and grandchildren than his own blood daughter and granddaughter). Every now and then he'll be in my life a little bit...he's on my MSN, and we talk sometimes. I can't remember the last time I spoke to him on a phone. My whole teen and adult life, I've wanted nothing more than for him to acknowledge me more- to show me he loves me, to make an effort to do things that fathers should do. And in all my 32 years, I've only felt that a couple of times from him.

Anyway, aside from that- today I said hello on MSN to him- he popped up. I haven't spoken with him for some time (A couple of months at least) and he tells me....'I have to go to the doctors to have my wounds checked and bandages changed.' I'm like...WHY? What happened?

He heard a dog whimpering. Their house backs on to a small airstrip...and as he walked out the back gate onto the airstrip to find out where the whimpering was coming from- he was viciously attacked by two staffys.
They tore him up good. SO good in fact he'd been in and out of hospital with an IV drip giving him antibiotics, and fluids because his body was fighting the germs so hard he was dehydrated and very very unwell. He's much better now, but weeks later still has wounds that need bandaging, and checking by doctors.
He said the dogs were put down- he doesn't know who by, or who they even belonged to. He says he doesn't remember much about it, but he remembers thinking 'If I don't get up off the ground they're going to kill me'......Scary. He's in his early 50's, and isn't a very big man at all...he's maybe 5'6 or something...and a very slight frame.

So even with all the betrayal and anger I have toward him- I'm sitting here crying because I didn't know until now, and I love my dad...more than he realises. I've made it my mission that when I move back over there (he's currently 4000kms away-say....LA to NY away) I'm going to sit him down and tell him all the things I want him to know. I just want my dad to love me, and for my daughter to know her grandad and HUGE extended family!! Dad has like 6 brothers and sisters...and my grandparents are in their late 80's- I want her to know them all- and feel that sense of family....they're all characters and I love them all.

SO I just needed to talk about what happened to him...thanks for listening.