...not that I want to complain, hell, I like him even more...but what about me... I'm falling-a-fucking-part right now...flaring.. everything is flaring...emotional roller coaster set to high velocity... captain... we have liftoff... pardon me...have you seen my basket..I seem to have dropped it.. and oh by the way the only doctor who has ever treated me like a human is moving to fucking Guatemala... god bless him and his four adopted children...

I get to see him once more for follow up... at least he didn't push psychoactives at me... said he liked that I was taking as spiritual approach as possible... all good stuf.f.. then he's directing me to someone that he thinks I'm mesh well with...

havn't slept... going nuts... starting to hate my fucking house... oh and by the way learning to walk right again... my partner is more mentall yfucked than I suspected, trying open business...have to take ex to court to balance custody and stop paying support so I can afford to get the treatments I need to I can take care my kid, myself and my man... and run a business..and ... and... and... the doctor commened me for my self PT, I'm doing good...the pain is incredible...I turned down more oxy..
how the fuck... what the fuck... why?