I've been riding a roller coaster of involvement with a new friend and muse, and thought I'd share with you some of my new poems.
THey go in order. The 1st two were written on Monday and the last one I wrote today...it has indeed been a rollercoaster....thanks for receiving my art.
Love You,
Laura
#1-- DO I WANT TOO MUCH FOR TODAY?
I love the first big poop in the morning. Why is it that we never talk about poop very much? Oh it's so taboo....huh?
Well I'm waiting for mine...I've smoked a lot already this morning....But it hasn't...moved...down there....yet. I'll try some coffee and breakfast.
I'm hungry.
I feel soooooo high maintenance right now...do I want too much for today?
Coffee
Breakfast
Stretching
Talking
Smoking
Laughing
A Kiss
Lots of Hugs
Dancing
The Pleasure of Waking You
Finding Common Grounds
Bus Rides
Reading
Sharing
Mantra
Reiki
Massage
Caresses
Visions
Blogging
Learning
Drawing
Qi Gong
~*~ A Full Moon Mushroom Journey ~*~
Grounding
Healing
Fire
Water
Air
Earth
Spirit
Health
Abundance
AND SwEeT sWeEt SuNsHiNe.........ahhhhhhhhhh........Bliss Filled,
Soaking into my skin with the smell of morning and the sounds of city stirred into me.....
Well at least the garbage truck is always on time, and the sun is coming *so* soon.
#2 Pre Dawn Ramblings
First I had to take a break and drop the kids off at the pool...but it was just gas. Sometimes, I don't wash my hands after I pee...is that gross? :)~ I am *such* a dork. :)
I want to draw soon
I want to visit my best friends
I want some hugs
I want a kiss.
shhhhhhhhhhh-----I really need to give this a rest for a minute, time for a stretch and a spliff....
But I snuggled up to you for a minute instead.......and I realized....
....Waiting for a kiss is easier to bear after writing about it....
......AND I *love* anticipation......
......I feel so beautiful lately, inside me and outside.....
.......And I wonder.....
.....Do you really like me?....
...Because I feel *so* beautiful around you, and compassionate.
And in this weird vulnerable space- where I feel so open...
...I want to share...
....Everything about myself, I want to know you inside and out. I come into contact with you and there is an activation that is beyond most I've felt. It's electric intensity is overwhelming but I am not afraid....
....But you are....
Of Me? Your Self? Stepping into Your Power? The Future?
......You and Me......It's a We of Unlimited Energy....we are are so safe in each other.
What are you afraid of....? It's hard to tell why?
And Really.....
Who Really Really Really cares anyway....Your Safe.....and now your waking up.
HOORAY!!!
So this is new work was Wednesday morning, the night after I had read the two previous poems at an open-mic and then went to hang out with my muse to celebrate.....my how the wheels of life shift:
#3 SATURN IN RETURN MAKES US ASK WHY.
I really didn't believe you when you told me all it would be was a disappointment because...
...I took my time...
...I walked with care...
...I made sure to show you my whole truth...all the time...
...I thought you were just scared...and scarred...
So I asked my heart over and over and over and over...
Are you Safe?
Should you be here?
Are you living in the moment?
Responsibly?
Are you doing your dharma?
So you see I've got my own 12-steps worked out, it took me a long time to hone, but it's my way and it works for me.
Step1: Breathe
Step2: Ground
Step3: Stretch
Step4: Be Grateful
Step5: Hug As Many People As Possible
Step6: Plan Your Day with Intention....but loosely...
Step7: Soak in The Sunshine...Recalibrate to the Earth.
Step8: Be Fully In Your Body
Step9: Release The Past, Keep Yourself Watchful and in The NOW.
Step10: Open Your Heart
Step11: Clear Your Mind
Step12: Put Aside The EGO and be VuLnErAbLe!
So I meditate and act on this program dail for the final release of the state of fear and ego domination.
<<<<AND NOW A WORD FROM OUR SPONSORS>>>>
DO YOU LIVE IN FEAR OF CHANGE?
ARE YOU STUCK IN THE PAST. DOOMED TO REPEAT PATTERNS OF FAILURE?
DO YOU REMEMBER AT LEAST ONE MOMENT OF HAPINESS IN YOUR HEART?
DO YOU SECRETLY HOARD HAT MEMORY SO DEEP IN THE CAVERNS OF YOUR SHADOW THAT YOU FORGOT HAPPINESS WAS MORE THAN A DREAM?
WELL THERE'S HOPE! JOIN THE NO-FAIL PROGRAM FOR HEALING YOUR PAST AND LIVING IN AWARENESS. 12 EASY STEPS FOR HOW TO GET OUT OF THE PARADIGM OF THE MUNDANE AND INTO ECSTATIC BLISS.
IT'S GUARANTEED TO WORK FOLKS! AND IT'S FREE, ALL INSTRUCTION MATERIALS WILL BE PROVIDED BY THE FIELD OF PLENTY AND YOUR OWN INTUITION.
THE ONLY THING YOU HAVE TO DO IS THROW OUT YOUR "INTERGRITY" AND TAKE "RESPONSIBILITY"
<<<<<AND NOW BACK TO YOUR REGURLARLY SCHEDULED PROGRAM>>>>>
SO...
I put my method into action in everything I do and... Happy to report....It's afforded me a way to stay in the flow and gracefully accept the changes of life.
Then I met you....and you know the story of that so far...
And then...
....we got to last night...
And the AnTiCiPaTiOn was too much to take...
So I Asked:
"(Inhale)...Before I go home tomorrow, Can I kiss you?...(Exhale)"
You smiled that flash of grinning lips that sends me spinning....hoping...soaring...excited.
But then you said:
"HA!....NO...Kissing is something I save for someone special..."
....And then you laugh....
...And then there's that smile again...
....Only NOW it hangs off your face swollen with poison words....
Then FIrst I react.......DON'T FLINCH! DON'T CRY! Every nerve ending in my being screams this to me as my heart throws up walls and my spirit tries to tear them down. BrEaThE bReAtHe BrEaThE!
HIDE YOUR EYES!
...and I think...
"...Huh, This is funny..."
<<<<<AND NOW A WORD FROM OUR SPONSOR>>>>>
CALL GOD NOW TO GET YOUR FREE COPY OF THIS 12 STEP PROGRAM....HOW TO REACH PSYCHEDELIC ENLIGHTMENT IN TODAY'S FUCKED UP WORLD.
Psssst! DON'T FORGET THE FINE PRINT!!!! THIS IS AMERICA, AFTER ALL! Please see below...
(While this 12-step method will work for all humans, it may take longer to master for some than for others. The Universe takes no responsibility for any karma attached to each individual AND/OR how that karma causes them to interact with you. Remember, enlightenment and awareness does bring your natural state of bliss, but in this elevated state there is no judgement of right or wrong. Everything just is, and every being has free will.)
<<<<<AND NOW THE CONCLUSION OF YOUR REGULARLY SCHEDULED PROGRAM>>>>>
So...............Yea...!
That's when I learned even an open heart can break.
THey go in order. The 1st two were written on Monday and the last one I wrote today...it has indeed been a rollercoaster....thanks for receiving my art.
Love You,
Laura
#1-- DO I WANT TOO MUCH FOR TODAY?
I love the first big poop in the morning. Why is it that we never talk about poop very much? Oh it's so taboo....huh?
Well I'm waiting for mine...I've smoked a lot already this morning....But it hasn't...moved...down there....yet. I'll try some coffee and breakfast.
I'm hungry.
I feel soooooo high maintenance right now...do I want too much for today?
Coffee
Breakfast
Stretching
Talking
Smoking
Laughing
A Kiss
Lots of Hugs
Dancing
The Pleasure of Waking You
Finding Common Grounds
Bus Rides
Reading
Sharing
Mantra
Reiki
Massage
Caresses
Visions
Blogging
Learning
Drawing
Qi Gong
~*~ A Full Moon Mushroom Journey ~*~
Grounding
Healing
Fire
Water
Air
Earth
Spirit
Health
Abundance
AND SwEeT sWeEt SuNsHiNe.........ahhhhhhhhhh........Bliss Filled,
Soaking into my skin with the smell of morning and the sounds of city stirred into me.....
Well at least the garbage truck is always on time, and the sun is coming *so* soon.
#2 Pre Dawn Ramblings
First I had to take a break and drop the kids off at the pool...but it was just gas. Sometimes, I don't wash my hands after I pee...is that gross? :)~ I am *such* a dork. :)
I want to draw soon
I want to visit my best friends
I want some hugs
I want a kiss.
shhhhhhhhhhh-----I really need to give this a rest for a minute, time for a stretch and a spliff....
But I snuggled up to you for a minute instead.......and I realized....
....Waiting for a kiss is easier to bear after writing about it....
......AND I *love* anticipation......
......I feel so beautiful lately, inside me and outside.....
.......And I wonder.....
.....Do you really like me?....
...Because I feel *so* beautiful around you, and compassionate.
And in this weird vulnerable space- where I feel so open...
...I want to share...
....Everything about myself, I want to know you inside and out. I come into contact with you and there is an activation that is beyond most I've felt. It's electric intensity is overwhelming but I am not afraid....
....But you are....
Of Me? Your Self? Stepping into Your Power? The Future?
......You and Me......It's a We of Unlimited Energy....we are are so safe in each other.
What are you afraid of....? It's hard to tell why?
And Really.....
Who Really Really Really cares anyway....Your Safe.....and now your waking up.
HOORAY!!!
So this is new work was Wednesday morning, the night after I had read the two previous poems at an open-mic and then went to hang out with my muse to celebrate.....my how the wheels of life shift:
#3 SATURN IN RETURN MAKES US ASK WHY.
I really didn't believe you when you told me all it would be was a disappointment because...
...I took my time...
...I walked with care...
...I made sure to show you my whole truth...all the time...
...I thought you were just scared...and scarred...
So I asked my heart over and over and over and over...
Are you Safe?
Should you be here?
Are you living in the moment?
Responsibly?
Are you doing your dharma?
So you see I've got my own 12-steps worked out, it took me a long time to hone, but it's my way and it works for me.
Step1: Breathe
Step2: Ground
Step3: Stretch
Step4: Be Grateful
Step5: Hug As Many People As Possible
Step6: Plan Your Day with Intention....but loosely...
Step7: Soak in The Sunshine...Recalibrate to the Earth.
Step8: Be Fully In Your Body
Step9: Release The Past, Keep Yourself Watchful and in The NOW.
Step10: Open Your Heart
Step11: Clear Your Mind
Step12: Put Aside The EGO and be VuLnErAbLe!
So I meditate and act on this program dail for the final release of the state of fear and ego domination.
<<<<AND NOW A WORD FROM OUR SPONSORS>>>>
DO YOU LIVE IN FEAR OF CHANGE?
ARE YOU STUCK IN THE PAST. DOOMED TO REPEAT PATTERNS OF FAILURE?
DO YOU REMEMBER AT LEAST ONE MOMENT OF HAPINESS IN YOUR HEART?
DO YOU SECRETLY HOARD HAT MEMORY SO DEEP IN THE CAVERNS OF YOUR SHADOW THAT YOU FORGOT HAPPINESS WAS MORE THAN A DREAM?
WELL THERE'S HOPE! JOIN THE NO-FAIL PROGRAM FOR HEALING YOUR PAST AND LIVING IN AWARENESS. 12 EASY STEPS FOR HOW TO GET OUT OF THE PARADIGM OF THE MUNDANE AND INTO ECSTATIC BLISS.
IT'S GUARANTEED TO WORK FOLKS! AND IT'S FREE, ALL INSTRUCTION MATERIALS WILL BE PROVIDED BY THE FIELD OF PLENTY AND YOUR OWN INTUITION.
THE ONLY THING YOU HAVE TO DO IS THROW OUT YOUR "INTERGRITY" AND TAKE "RESPONSIBILITY"
<<<<<AND NOW BACK TO YOUR REGURLARLY SCHEDULED PROGRAM>>>>>
SO...
I put my method into action in everything I do and... Happy to report....It's afforded me a way to stay in the flow and gracefully accept the changes of life.
Then I met you....and you know the story of that so far...
And then...
....we got to last night...
And the AnTiCiPaTiOn was too much to take...
So I Asked:
"(Inhale)...Before I go home tomorrow, Can I kiss you?...(Exhale)"
You smiled that flash of grinning lips that sends me spinning....hoping...soaring...excited.
But then you said:
"HA!....NO...Kissing is something I save for someone special..."
....And then you laugh....
...And then there's that smile again...
....Only NOW it hangs off your face swollen with poison words....
Then FIrst I react.......DON'T FLINCH! DON'T CRY! Every nerve ending in my being screams this to me as my heart throws up walls and my spirit tries to tear them down. BrEaThE bReAtHe BrEaThE!
HIDE YOUR EYES!
...and I think...
"...Huh, This is funny..."
<<<<<AND NOW A WORD FROM OUR SPONSOR>>>>>
CALL GOD NOW TO GET YOUR FREE COPY OF THIS 12 STEP PROGRAM....HOW TO REACH PSYCHEDELIC ENLIGHTMENT IN TODAY'S FUCKED UP WORLD.
Psssst! DON'T FORGET THE FINE PRINT!!!! THIS IS AMERICA, AFTER ALL! Please see below...
(While this 12-step method will work for all humans, it may take longer to master for some than for others. The Universe takes no responsibility for any karma attached to each individual AND/OR how that karma causes them to interact with you. Remember, enlightenment and awareness does bring your natural state of bliss, but in this elevated state there is no judgement of right or wrong. Everything just is, and every being has free will.)
<<<<<AND NOW THE CONCLUSION OF YOUR REGULARLY SCHEDULED PROGRAM>>>>>
So...............Yea...!
That's when I learned even an open heart can break.
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