my parents do more than piss me off ... they make my life HELL.

and they wonder why i lived o/s for 8 years, and am moving to melbourne asap and wish to have nothing to do with them ever again?

Pah.

i wish i didn't get hurt, angry and disconsolate as much as i do ... i much prefer happy la la l'eury lollie bee spacegrrrl3 to this stae of mind.

makes it OH SO EASY to concentrate on my PhD research proposal and presentation due in less than 3 weeks now.

me not happy.

they are the major reason i will never ever marry, nor have children, and keep my heart as celibate as possible.

and yes, i'm fucking pissed off about that.

i don't wish to be all victim-y, but this is my venting tribe, i trust those of you i know in here ... and hopefully those of you who don't really know me yet will forgive my bluntness, but if you had read my 'friends only' blogs ... and taken a gander at some of the tribes i'm in (ie the bipolar tribe), this is something that has plagued me all my life, and im sick to fucking death of their negativity, their malicious and evil intent, their former physical abuse, and their ongoing psychological and emotional abuse.

it really pisses me off that they can't accept that THEIR behaviour impacts upon me, that it's not just that i have bipolar, but that they are fuckwits who have made my life shite since i was 3 years of age ... i can take responsibility for most of my actions and i'm 30. They're twice my age, as mentally fucked up as possible, an alcoholic father and a schizophrenic/borderline personality/bipolar mother (undiagnosed of course, because *I* am the only mental one in the family who causes ALL the probs ...) ...

I'm just sick of it.

Sorry for my rant. but that's what this tribe is here for right?

=(