When I am "rejected" , I remember a little thing I learned in Biology. Our bodies are some ridiculous percentage of unhuman cells - that is beneficial bacteria and microorganisms, and all the other things that call us home - the room in our bodies for these things is great, and the room in our hearts for accepting them is also great.

I believe strongly that for every "rejection" these days, there are many more "acceptances". While it may not always be a sexual acceptance, people profoundly love us for our strength/or other equally awesome gifts we have to share --- just like any other human being. If we share them... The light in us, if we choose it, is WAY brighter than any dis-ease could ever be.
Through this recognition, we become genuine connection -- connecting as we are, with all we have... and the connections that no longer serve our highest paths will fall away, like all things in time.

I also remember our stories are not written by others. Rather, these Peoples are characters providing depth of meaning and adventure for our own story line. What good story does not have these trials and tribulations? Very few....

Please do not reject yourself right now. It really will not help, not even a bit --- but I invite you, and all herpes "sufferers" to feel how we do, by letting the suffering ache in us with healthy acceptance... the beauty is how its moves right through, unless we cling to it. For me it comes in waves, but for the most part it subsides. Sure it would be nice to just forget about my "careful trodden footsteps", for one more day even, but who else would remind all others to tread lightly with such conviction?

I feel perceptions of normalcy are false comforts to cling to. What is considered "normal" is subject to the great fluxes that nature is and always will be, and for that reason "normal" can never exist. Rather, we have momentary stability before another great transformation occurs in our lives. Remember, the way we live greatly dictates the nature and speed of these transformations.... our openness, and willingness to work with the tools we have greatly facilitates the ease of our "reorganization".


Though... personally, I have REALLY begun to love masturbating -- breathing through all my "chakras", and orgasming on how beautiful it can be to feel alive....

In this time of suffering Sprout remember, you aren't alone - herpes is all our lovers. Mine especially....


Bless

-Zzz