diagonality, a great term for the interface of the vertical and the horizontal

In this context the way I see it Circuit 5 represents the sort of body-mind yoking and its subsequent effects of somatic rapture that mark the beginning of significant vertical contact towards the journey of 'creating a soul' from the interface of spirit and body, head and gut, essence and personality. The basis of the entire process is in this yoking (C5), which if anchored in meeting survival needs (C1) then leads to the maturing and actualizing of autonomy (C6), if anchored by enough self-responsibility (C2). The journey then goes with cultivating enough attention and receptivity (C3) to be able to anchor being influenced and shaped by the currents and forces of the genetic code and its geometric, harmonic unfolding (C7), so that one may begin harmonizing to horizontal forces enough to integrate and crystallize the whole of one's personality (C4), so as to become a creative expression of that deepest vertical pool (hah!) that we call the void and that we experience as the true origins of our Essence (C8).

The question is, is what we call Chapel Perilous just the consequences of core disconnect as the result of novelty, the mundane or shock - or is it actually the nature of (to quote Reich) homo normalis and the schizms of the 'emotional plague'.

For me this has always been the question - when I feel disconnected and go through a process of 'retrieving a part of my soul' and then feel like i'm back to normal again, is it that I am returning back to a level of connection I had lived and enjoyed months or years previous - or is it the case that I had simply always been that way - part of the fragmented mess of Great Nature - and an increase of Vertical absorbtion had caused me to suddenly become aware of the state of my slumber and paralysis and thus feel the terror of not being whole, and then feel naturally drawn towards yearning a greater sense of connection. Have we ever been awake; are the memories of something greater and higher and deeper in ourselves merely memories, or are they they glimpses of something from the future - the whisper of the Source leading us on?

Such speculation without commitment, focus and a sense of devotion can more often than not wind one back in the Chapel again. woot !


Since I started smoking pot since I was 13 and since a lot (but certainly not all) of my early vertical experiences were unlocked with this miraculous herb, it has taken me a long time to find a way to access those parts of my brain without it. And the work goes on. One teacher I have here said to me, a few years ago upon peering into my being, in broken english, 'you don't need pot! You're on a divine trip !'. Reflecting back on it and wondering why he had said that even though I had not smoked for 6 months at the time, I took it that he was still seeing, clairvoyantly or what not, that there was some part of me that still relied on cannabis for a sense of vertical connection - that I was unconsciously or not, locked into a cycle of Deifying the Herb.

Every now and then, to be metaphorical here, I have C5-C6-C7 like openings where I find aspects of 'the Cannabis spirit' still clouding and hanging over the gateways of my perception (or doors, rather). This only takes focusing, breathing, and releasing - to clear it out and, in essence, 'reclaim my brain' from its dependance on THC.

My early experiences with Cannabis were simply moments when I was Listening and Feeling whilst High - new vistas would open up, sounds were more textural, colours were richer - the feelings were as deep and ancient as the universe itself. These days I get the same thing from just Sitting, Listening and Feeling. Little by little, my self-aware nervous system is becoming the key to changing my mind, and simple meditative practices in resonance with the flow of daily life are becoming the keys to regaining perspective, feeling engagement and the rememberance of self that is the hallmark of what is called vertical access.

You are the herb ! haha

"hedonic upgrade" - huzzah !