Out and about
Par for the course for me
exhaustion doesn't play into it
when the moon comes up
my spirit take control
and sleep is nowhere nearby
so I drive and I wander the city
a bar a club a party passed by
one I'll choose
and present myself to the unknown
Tonight I chose wrong
the choice was probably wrong when I closed the car door
"Bedways is rigthways now"
I should have taken Dim's words to heart
But I found myself there with you
A dark room in a darker bar in a dark section of town
Maybe I knew
Maybe I just guessed that you'd be there
You always did show up where I least expected
so I ordered bourbon
which is my signal flag for all to keep away
and I turned
and I saw you
and I laughed to myself at the irony
Turned to the bar with my back to the room
I felt you behind me
before the ice of your fingers touched my skin
I felt your presence as a chill to my fire
nails down my neck
lips against my cheek
hoarse voice in my ear as you whispered
pleasantries forgotten
turning and pulling your mouth to mine
pulling you against me as you stumbled in surprise
that, I thought then, would be the highlight of the night
ten minutes later and in the car
dry flesh on flesh growing more damp with each breath
the motions we've passed through time and time again
arms pulled under your back
my weight driving your breath free
as it always has been
and the minutes tick by
and the climax comes and goes
for you
and I'm there wondering
as your body shivers and writhes
why I'm here
in this car with you
with you
and as I look at your face
your serene quiet face
I wonder why I'm here
and I know
I can never do this again
never again
buckling back my belt
opening the door to the cool night air
I can never do this again
looking back at you stretched across the seat
drunken
drugged
as you've always been
I simply know
that I will do this again
because you will be there
and I will be there
in some random dingy bar
i some random dingy town
and your face may change every time
but this will never end.