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When I was a child I suffered from nightmare. Every night without fail my night nares would be so bad that I would refuse to fall asleep. Its been almost 12 year sense I had a night mare as intense as the two I had last night.
The first nightmare: I got up out of bed dressed myself in my oldest clothing (UFO’s and a tattered black sweater, all black) I then put on all the necklaces I own ( which are many). The next thing I know im watching myself stand up in a row boat floating in the middle of round lake, I shackled cinder blocks to my ankles and my wrists and threw myself in. The chains on my feet were shorter then the ones on my wrists and this left me floating at an angle close to the surface but not close enough to breath. The last thing I thought was “ I look so pretty like this, I wish someone could take a picture” I awoke and walked out to my kitchen for water (I think) when I reached the kitchen I heard voices I didn’t recognize and could not tell the origin of and the light switch wouldn’t work. Staring in to the black I became over come with fear, I turned to go back to my room, as soon as I did I felt a powerful sensation as if some one had pinched the back of my neck and it moved through my body, steadily slowing me down. I made it to the hall way before I was almost completely immobile. With the last pit of freedom I had I reached for the hall light switch convinced that if I could just turn the light on this would stop. I just made it to the light switch and as you may have guessed the damn thing wouldn’t work. I tried to scream for help but I now found myself unable to breath. Then my feet slowly lifted off the ground until I was at that same angle as before. I awoke (for really this time) Gasping for air.
The second night mare I had last night effected me so badly that I cant really type it without feeling sick. The highlight were as follows. I found my girl with another man. She told me that she was screwing him at the same time as me and that he probable wasn’t the father of my child but she wanted him to adopt her because he was going to be a doctor and I was worth nothing. When I asked her how she could do this to me she said that she changed as a person and the new person she was fell in love with me and now she changed again and I don’t fit in her new life.
I awoke from this dream sobbing and could not bring myself to stop for 40 minutes.
Im desperate my only hope is that your thoughts can save me. You see im praying for many responses before I sleep again because as I said before I haven’t had a night mare that powerful sense I was a child, if the past has taught me anything about powerful night mares they will come back for me and really dont think i can fight back against nightmares this strong. im not fucking kidding when I say im very scared to fall back to sleep.
The first nightmare: I got up out of bed dressed myself in my oldest clothing (UFO’s and a tattered black sweater, all black) I then put on all the necklaces I own ( which are many). The next thing I know im watching myself stand up in a row boat floating in the middle of round lake, I shackled cinder blocks to my ankles and my wrists and threw myself in. The chains on my feet were shorter then the ones on my wrists and this left me floating at an angle close to the surface but not close enough to breath. The last thing I thought was “ I look so pretty like this, I wish someone could take a picture” I awoke and walked out to my kitchen for water (I think) when I reached the kitchen I heard voices I didn’t recognize and could not tell the origin of and the light switch wouldn’t work. Staring in to the black I became over come with fear, I turned to go back to my room, as soon as I did I felt a powerful sensation as if some one had pinched the back of my neck and it moved through my body, steadily slowing me down. I made it to the hall way before I was almost completely immobile. With the last pit of freedom I had I reached for the hall light switch convinced that if I could just turn the light on this would stop. I just made it to the light switch and as you may have guessed the damn thing wouldn’t work. I tried to scream for help but I now found myself unable to breath. Then my feet slowly lifted off the ground until I was at that same angle as before. I awoke (for really this time) Gasping for air.
The second night mare I had last night effected me so badly that I cant really type it without feeling sick. The highlight were as follows. I found my girl with another man. She told me that she was screwing him at the same time as me and that he probable wasn’t the father of my child but she wanted him to adopt her because he was going to be a doctor and I was worth nothing. When I asked her how she could do this to me she said that she changed as a person and the new person she was fell in love with me and now she changed again and I don’t fit in her new life.
I awoke from this dream sobbing and could not bring myself to stop for 40 minutes.
Im desperate my only hope is that your thoughts can save me. You see im praying for many responses before I sleep again because as I said before I haven’t had a night mare that powerful sense I was a child, if the past has taught me anything about powerful night mares they will come back for me and really dont think i can fight back against nightmares this strong. im not fucking kidding when I say im very scared to fall back to sleep.
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Re: dream readers please read
Tue, March 4, 2008 - 3:03 PMWhen I was a child I suffered a series of terribly frightening nightmares. I finally found a way to stop them. When I awoke afraid, I would go into the dream and find a good solution to the problem presented. I would complete the dream not as a horror movie, but as a problem-solving feel-good flick. Hope this helps.
Peace,
libramoon
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nightmares as compensatory dreams
Tue, March 4, 2008 - 3:54 PMNightmares, like dreams, are like unopened letters from The Self to the waking ego. I have noticed with reoccuring nightmares, a certain urgency for me to ask myself "what am I not hearing ?" For example, some years ago I suffered the reoccuring nightmare of being incarcerated. Some nights I was afraid to go to sleep for the dread of going to prison in my dreams.
I decided to visit a local Jungian psychotherapist who specialized in dreamwork. His name was Strephon Kaplan Williams (this was also back in the seventies in Berkeley CA). During our session, he asked me what I made more important than anything else in my life. Without hesitation I said, "freedom." He suggested that I was making my independence too important and that The Self sent me prison dreams in an attempt to restore balance in my psyche; a compensatory dream, he called it.
I gave this some thought and decided to relax my freedom urge. After some practice doing this, the prison dreams completely disappeared. Now when I have these nightmares, I ask myself if I am making freedom too important and I relax the freedom urge. These nightmares act as an important warning and a teaching for me to live a more balanced life.
On a side note, as a filmmaker I recently finished a feature called "The Invisible Forest" which deals specifically with this very topic. In this story, a man visits a hypnotherapist in the hopes of stopping a recoccuring nightmare. The therapist tells the man that stopping his dreams would not be a healthy goal but that perhaps hypnosis could help him return to the dream and face whatever the "unbearable thing" was that kept returning. As the man undergoes hypnotic regression, he eventually faces a "nemesis entity", a frightening encounter that turns into a meeting with an important spiritual guide.
In the hopes it doesn't come off too self-promotional, here is a clip from this film:
www.fractalvideo.com/HTML/IFFV2.html
