>> google "lust for result"

OK, but I'm not lusting after any results.

I am after a exact methodology and indicators of success.

That's it.

Well, considering string theory it would be conceivable that it's all happening at once so you aren't seeing the future but all of it. It's like suddenly being able to see through the membrane so you get a flash. In a similar sense you could say that's the noise of the other conversations. From a physics perspective it has no point it simply is. Just because I can't make enough sense out of it to prevent it doesn't mean that the possibility doesn't exist if you can see enough. Then again, if you altered it what would that mean to everything else? But Hawking says you start out with all these possibilities that weed out over time. So I guess it would be fine.

The more I know about physics, the more the psychic realm makes sense. I know most people separate the two but I think it all fits together. It's all coming to the same truth on different routes. Just because the drivers don't know they are converging, doesn't mean it isn't happening.

>>Mary Summer Rain<<

gotta love when white people perpetrate the fraud of having been appointed
"mediums" of (totally invented) in'dn culture.

and for profit too


sick.

Timothy,

I don't think I have that much control of them. :o) I think I'm doing well just to come back to it later. If I couldn't do that, I'd go completely crazy trying to write it all down (which is where I used to be when I was young until I was about 8 yrs old).

Anyway, I don't think I'm going to magically lose them if I talk about them but I probably could get locked in a rubber room if I talked about it too much to a Psychiatrist. I'm sure they'd wonder if I was schizophrenic, but I've never thought they were "real" or at least part of the "real" world (this physical world I'm in). And I never thought they were talking to me. (That always reminds me of Robert DiNero in Taxi Driver. "You talking to me?")

As for never kicking them off, no I don't try that. They are always there. I just tune in and filter out what I'm not very interested in at the time. Yes, they are always all playing all the time so you can imagine how distracting it was when I was very young and didn't know how to filter anything out. (From a natal chart perspective you'd say this is because I have Mars conj Neptune, Scorpio on the Ascendant at 0 00 and Neptune in the first house conj my Ascendant. In other words, I'm not firmly grounded to this world so I'm way tuned in to everything else.) It is indeed like being in a room full of televisions running all at once. But now I can decide what I want to focus in on and tune out the rest. Or I can choose to block them all and focus on this world and everyone in it. This is much better, trust me.

If I relax and let my guard down then the images and sound flood me. It's not exactly like a television. It's more like seeing it right in front of you. The way you would see the room in front of you. It isn't like I can shrink it, but I can shift my focus to one of them and concentrate on that. That's kind of like tuning out kids playing soccer outside the patio doors while your trying to pay attention to their mom and dad inside. You choose to focus on the mom and dad and deliberately block out the kids outside. They are still there, but you focus yourself in on what you want. It's like that. Does that make more sense?

There really aren't any I don't want. I'm a writer so they are all very interesting to me. One very interesting thing that does happen is that when I'm in my writing groove where I'm recording it as I watch it - if something happens in the background like someone calls me or I smell food or the television goes on or the door closes - that becomes woven into what's happening in what I'm seeing. It's very seamless. I really like that aspect because it makes what would be a distraction a part of it instead.

I really don't know that I think they are psychic events. My dreams tend to be more like that. My dreams often happen later especially if they are repetitive dreams. The only psychic things that happen to me when I'm awake is suddenly looking at people and seeing them dead (and then having them die). Or suddenly hearing them say they are gone and they are. Or having the feeling I need to call them but they are already calling me. Or suddenly thinking, I wonder if my employee heard from that rodeo guy then finding out she did at the same time I thought that. Those I would say are psychic events. And when I hear something and it's psychic, that I would say is Clairaudience. But, with those I'm not controlling them because I've never had any interest in developing it. Those haven't been very pleasant experiences for me so I've no desire to repeat them intentionally.

The best psychic I've ever been to see was without any doubt Albert Bowes. He's in Casadaga, FL. I didn't even go to see him because I wanted to go. I went because my friend wanted to go and she liked "the look of this guy." I didn't do half the things I was supposed to do because I wasn't invested. I took some pictures but they were kind of random and mostly group pictures where one of my relatives might appear. I took some "things" along as well - a teddy bear, a ring, a shell and a scarf. You don't tell Albert anything. You are told not to before you go. You can't record, but you can write things down. He comes in, tells you a bit about himself then he tells you when he leaves the room you are to put your things on the table face down. He leaves the room for awhile then comes back when you've put everything face down. You say nothing. He procedes to turn them randomly over and tells you about your life. I have to tell you that it is extraordinarily creepy and I'm not easily creeped out. The things he knew about my life there is no way he could tell from those pictures. There is no association between those events and what's going on in the pictures. He knew things in general and in detail. Very specific things that are highly unusual and pertain only to me. The teddy bear is the perfect example. He picked it up and held it for a moment. I thought he would think a parent or grandparent gave it to me. I really thought that would throw him. It's not remarkable. It's not frilly. It looks like any child's teddy bear. But, he picked it up and held it for awhile then said, "The man who gave you this thinks you are adorable. He loved you as soon as he saw you. He'd do anything for you even now. He's very religious in a strict, conservative kind of way but he doesn't hold you to that." Then he kind of blinked in surprise. "He said he believes he's been with you before. He calls you his Lilith and sometimes Lily. But you won't have anything to do with him because of his children." Then he stares me in the eyes and says, "You really are his Lilith and you know it." I just kept staring at him. He shook his head and said, "He's never going to give up on you. I hope you know that." He went on to tell me things about that guy that only I know. Very private things about his career and his family. It was unreal. All that from a teddy bear. And that's not even getting into what he told me about my mother. A shudder went through him when he saw her picture and he turned it right back over. Then he started to talk about her. I'm telling you, it was creepy. Here's an article about him. I think this guy had a similar experience to me. www.observernews.net/artman/...97.shtml

If you want to meet someone who is clairvoyant, I would say he's the one to see. I didn't ask him if he heard things as well. He did tell me at the end, "Why are you here?" He was almost angry. He said, "I dont mind talking to you. You're a pretty girl so I don't mind looking at you, but why are you here? You don't need anything from me. You know everything already." He also asked me why I didn't bother to develop that knowledge. I told him I wasn't interested. He didn't seem to get that at all. But, even that whole conversation weirded me out.

I've been to some good readers and psychics but no one else on his level. I can believe the police would use him.

Interesting inquiry here regarding motivation and developing psychic abilities. I agree with Katrina. I think it's wise to know why you are seeking to become more psychic as that will help inform you and everyone else what kind of psychic energy you will be attracting to yourself once the ball gets rolling.

Some people do it for power, some do it for self-knowledge, some do it to fatten their self-image, some do it out of curiosity, some do it to satisy their voyeuristic impulses, some do it to get high, some do it to make money, some do it to prove that it exists, and on and on...so many different motives for pursuing and doing psychic stuff.

Whatever the motive, I think it's good to know what it is to assist and anchor your C-6 avigational stragegies and experiences. An integrated C-2 anchors C-6 activity and motivation expresses a circuit two force -- knowing what you want is a step towards C-2 integration.