I wrote this for the Jewish holiday of Passover, which is celebrated this week. In Hebrew every holiday has several names and one of those for Passover is: "The holiday of freedom". It is set to celebrate the exodus of the Israelites at the time of the Egyptian Empire from slavery into freedom.
My wish for all of us is that we too will take the path from slavery to freedom in our own life.
I wish us:
Freedom from FEAR
Freedom from WORRY
Freedom from GREED AND DESIRE
Freedom from ANGER AND RESENTMENT
Freedom from our ADDICTIONS
Freedom from the chains of our PAST
Freedom from our INHIBITIONS
Freedom from social CONVENTIONS
Freedom from holding to our BELIEFS
Freedom from the slavery of the EGO
Freedom of knowing OUR TRUE SELF
Freedom of ACCEPTANCE
Freedom of ENJOYING
Freedom of LETTING GO
Freedom of DREAMING
Freedom of your IMAGINATION
Freedom of taking the UNCOVENTIONAL PATH
Freedom of the UNLIMITED POSSIBILITY
Freedom of OPENING OUR HEART
Freedom of LOVE
~Love~
My wish for all of us is that we too will take the path from slavery to freedom in our own life.
I wish us:
Freedom from FEAR
Freedom from WORRY
Freedom from GREED AND DESIRE
Freedom from ANGER AND RESENTMENT
Freedom from our ADDICTIONS
Freedom from the chains of our PAST
Freedom from our INHIBITIONS
Freedom from social CONVENTIONS
Freedom from holding to our BELIEFS
Freedom from the slavery of the EGO
Freedom of knowing OUR TRUE SELF
Freedom of ACCEPTANCE
Freedom of ENJOYING
Freedom of LETTING GO
Freedom of DREAMING
Freedom of your IMAGINATION
Freedom of taking the UNCOVENTIONAL PATH
Freedom of the UNLIMITED POSSIBILITY
Freedom of OPENING OUR HEART
Freedom of LOVE
~Love~
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Re: FREEDOM
Tue, April 22, 2008 - 10:21 PMBlessed be my dear friend, I talk and walk the same path as you, these are great statements and all feel it, I really do believe that...I am going through a major transistion in my life where I am saying goodbye to my mother, it is painful because all I feel is pain, sadness, fear, anger and frustration coming from her...she tries sooo hard to be happy. My anxiety has run high so I walk, do yoga and pray, mediate and visualize beauty and bliss and blessings...I feel it in my heart just by writing this right now.
I know when she does leave it will be like a great weight lifted out of my home and heart. At first I felt very guilty to want to be set free from this but this has been going on for a year, it has taken a toll on my health, my mental capacity in coping and in keeping a job, it has not been easy, but now on dwell on beauty, I look at my home and my surroundings and I am ever so grateful.
So I send out the freedom call with you, thankyou for posting this, it helps me through this transistion, today was a exceptionaly tough day and you sharing this has helped me to smile and feel the faith in my heart, mind and soul...love to you and all, it is good.
There is beauty in the eyes of the ones that hold on to the beauty of innocence like the smile of a baby or an elderly who smile with no thought or expectations, just pure lovelight of life......lakota -
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Wed, April 23, 2008 - 2:26 PMDear sis,
FREEDOM, I have no idea. I know how you feel because Mom is such a negative force and has been that way all my life. You poor thing after 2 or 3 weeks living with her you had a huge fight. Now you understand my doubts and fears. It is very difficult to change those ways when you deal with someone who has relied on me so much. While our Dad was disabled and Mike going through his anxiety attacks and Mom giving his medications all wrong I was stuck in the middle and being relied on and expected to do what ever she needed. Then the 4years I took care of her personally, was horrible. Yet, I never complained or spoke up for myself. Now she is coming back and I really do not believe she will leave me alone. Like I have stated many times, I do not want David to know she is back in El Paso. I do not want to be in the middle of more crap in my life!!!!!!! You did not even last a year with Mom and I really do understand but please pray for me, that God will give me the strength to say NO to her without feeling guilty all the time. At this point in my life, yes I am weak and I wish I could just get away from everything.
Sorry for such a negative message but I cannot help it any longer.
Love,
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Re: FREEDOM
Wed, April 23, 2008 - 9:45 PMYou are not being negative, you are being honest and do not feel guilty, she wants us to feel guilty...oh I know Sonia, it is never going to change with her. Eric's mom came and visited and she tried to play games with that, on Autumns birthday she tried to play games with that too, I did not react, I had soooo much fun with Autumn's birthday, me and penne had Strawberry margiritas and BBQ some fish and listened to music and hung out in the backyard....I let the kids run around, have fun. Mom said she was going to go in her bedroom during the party because she could not handle all these kids in the living room and going in and out of the house....but she stayed in the living room and watched me to see if I would tell the kids to settle down or be quiet.
Of course I did not, I let them have fun, they had a great time and so did I, it was my daughters birthday and I was not going to let her interfere, she kept watching me to see if I would tell them to settle down, I just enjoyed myself with them and so did daddy and Penne.
I do not let her get to me as much as she use to, I just listen and look and not say a word, she tried sooo hard to create conflict, I just stared at her, did not say a word, 2 more weeks, and then I see my son and my grand daughter, and Sonia, say no, live your life for you, do do not feel guilty or afraid, live you life, me and Berta understand, I love you lots, I will always be there for you..... -
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Thu, April 24, 2008 - 6:17 AMThank you dear sister. Don't tell Mom but last week Mom went so far to complain to Mike that last year during Autumn's birthday that you all excluded her out of the fun and went out and just left her at home. I immediately told Mike that Mom was playing her self pity game and that was not true and he should never believe the crap she has to say. I told him that Mom never wants to participate. She expects you to praticaly pull teeth to get her motivated and most of the time she just does not want to go. Mike agreed and I then said to him just think back when she depended on you while Dad was disabled and how you really should not have because of your own illness and that is where it then switched to me because poor Mike was getting ready to have another nervous break down. She always took out her frustration and bitterness out on me. The sad thing is that it really hurts me. Well, you will be free of her very soon. Enjoy your beautiful grandchild and I am so sorry that I forgot Autumn's birthday. I love you so very much!!
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Re: FREEDOM
Thu, April 24, 2008 - 7:47 AMYou two are absolutely beautiful and amazing.
As an outside observer, I feel you need to hear it is ok to say no to your Mom when it interferes with your life in a negative way. You are growing from where you were as children and have taken a different path with your persepctives than she has. It is ok to grow apart. Everyone is on their own journey. You can have strength Sonia and tell her No, I am not ok with that. And when she asks for a reason why not - I am not comfortable with (fill in the blank) and you will need to make different plans, Mom. You aren't 12 anymore. It is ok to have your own life and do your own thing. It is obvious you guys are on different paths than your Mom. Something I think you need to keep in mind is if she were a childhood friend it wouldn't be as difficult to journey on different paths :)
I wish you both the best.
Be well,
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Re: FREEDOM
Thu, April 24, 2008 - 8:23 AMThank you Dina. It gives me hope your words of encouragement.
Blessings to you,
Sonia
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Re: FREEDOM
Thu, April 24, 2008 - 9:38 PMSonia, mom was not here for Autumn's birthday last year, she arrived here in may, Autumns birhday we celebrate in april, you know what I think she was complaining about was my going out with Eric, and Autumn for my birthday, well we had just gotten into a big argument, again and I needed the time away from her with my family, and also we did not have the finances to do much and we did not expect her to take us out, my goodness. She could not have done what we went and did anyway, it would have been tooo hard for her and it was my birthday, this year I finaly had Eric and Autumn both off with me...
She is pretty calm now, she has not said anything negative lately, she has been going back into the past about some good times we had, and that is good. I try to just feel her with good memories and not think of sad things or bad things. If you have not noticed, but I am sure you have, she dwells only in the negative aspect of things, all the horrible memories of her life, her childhood, problems with daddy....so now I just cange the subject and sidetrack her with good thoughts and memories, it works, she is older now and it is easier to steer her away from being too hard on herself and us...love you Sonia, it is going to work out, ok, take care, big hug...lakota
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