I am so glad that I found this group that I can share my condition with

I have been limerent with a co-worker for the past two years. We worked very closely on several projects together and she is a very beautiful, clever , strong and competent lady. I first got to know her when she was going through a difficult divorce and seeing her in pain made me want to comfort her and I developed very strong admiration for her. She has since developed a new relationship and is now expecting a baby (wonderful news but a bit of a body blow for me). She does not know how I feel about her and I would never tell her as it would hurt her (she told me that she had a stalker in her twenties) and i obviously want her to be happy.

I feel intense anxiety when I am anywhere near her, my heart starts pounding, stomach clenches, I throat goes dry and I start being agitated. I have fortunately been promoted to another department and no longer share an office with my LO

What I really want to do is move on. Replace how I feel for my LO with the basic warm friendship I feel for several of my married women friends and find somebody who can reciprocate all the warmth That I can give. Sounds easy but it is rally painfull and tough

Thanks for your help

Aslan