I think I have to leave this tribe, sadly

topic posted Fri, November 6, 2009 - 8:26 PM by  Rachel
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You are all pretty wonderful, but I think it's now helping more than hurting, just by the nature of obsession itself. Obsessively reading about limerence is not any better than the limerence for me right now.

I can't bear to read or think more about it.

I'm trying to get over/forgive my past love, and hope that we can each be free to journey to our best places in life.

Thanks so much for everyone's support! Best of luck!
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Rachel
Virginia
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    Re: I think I have to leave this tribe, sadly

    Sat, November 7, 2009 - 3:22 AM
    I'm sorry to hear that you're leaving, Rachel. Limerence's character is such that until you stumble on the fact that you have it (or perhaps, it has you), you are unaware of it--you think that it is simply a way of thinking about the world that many others possess as well.

    We have not interacted much, but from your comment it sounds like you are not in a place where you can reflect without pain on your situation.

    I hope you reach that place.

    Doug
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    Sat, November 7, 2009 - 4:02 AM
    Hello Rachel. If being free from limerence is your sincere wish, then I wish with my all heart you achieve your goal...soon...and find the peace you seek. If you find your struggle continues and you need support, you know where we are.

    Mir. (peace)
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    Sat, November 7, 2009 - 6:58 AM
    Rachel

    I totally understand how difficult it must feel, when torn between obsessing about a therapy for one's disease versus the disease itself.

    On a personal level, this forum has helped a huge amount in a very short period, I've made real inroads into understanding what my limerence is, what processes reinforce it and what I may be able to do to quell some of the intensity of it. My journey is helped by having empathy from people who know exactly what I'm going through and can often express, far better than I can, that roller-coaster of behaviour and pain associated to it. For me it's cognitive, when I read other people's posts as an observer, it crystallises my comprehension of what has happened, probably through resonance. But in all honesty, for my battle I'm not sure I could do it alone.

    We all have to decide on our own path to a cure, and perhaps for you, the group forum is not your pathway, there's nothing wrong with that whatsoever; in fact I admire you because you are thinking of making a change - and it seems change is always the key ingredient of what cures limerence.

    Rachel, I wish you all the very best on your journey.

    With love,
    Graeme.
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      Sat, November 7, 2009 - 12:00 PM
      I understand your decision to leave because all his hand-wringing can get depressing. That said, you do not have to unsub, just don’t come here for awhile. You may find yourself changing your mind, then you have the trouble of signing up again and so forth. I have come and gone a few times and I realized if I don’t feel good about this place, then I just don’t have to visit. I’ll say this though, you are unlikely to find a board with the caliber of people find here, even though, gee, everyone is so focused on their troubles. Maybe just take a break and see how you feel. Go with your gut. Cheers.
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    Sat, November 7, 2009 - 1:43 PM
    Rachel, this is a healthy decision, and one that lots of us have had to consider here and there on their journey towards recovery. It's one of the biting ironies of recovery forums that excessively talking about the problem can sometimes feel as bad as the problem itself. Eventually, you just need a break - I've felt the same way in the past, both here and in the depression forum I used to be in.

    Feel free to come and go as much as you need.
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      Sat, November 7, 2009 - 10:16 PM
      Good for you, Rachel. I never posted about this but have been very close to the same point (in my case, life circumstances meant I had an enforced break rather than making the choice myself).

      Although I moved through it, there was a period where I strongly believed that this tribe was "worsening" my limerence dramatically. There was a very strong parallel between my reactions to this tribe and to my limerence. Yes, I became obsessed with reading posts and visiting the tribe multiple times per day. But I also experienced other mind flips, including posts feeling like "disclosures" and other poster responses feeling like some form of "reciprocation"; even getting jealous of other posters who expressed better ideas than I did. I have spoken in other threads about my attempts to go NC with this tribe and with posting!!

      I initially had multiple occasions where I became paranoid that my LO was also a tribe member here. I find this hugely embarrassing to disclose, but I more than once I have scrutinised other member's profiles/posts in a panic until I found some comment or info that proved to me that they were not my LO.

      I would be interested to hear if other people have had similar experiences?
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        Re: I think I have to leave this tribe, sadly

        Sun, November 8, 2009 - 3:32 AM
        Rachel--

        I have not had the experience you describe. But I have been trying to reconcile the fact that this site's effectiveness depends on participants disclosing candidly about themselves with the fact that it is a public medium that can be Googled.

        (New Name) Leaf

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