I tripped over my self-awareness, self-control the other day. There's a hate zone around here, so I try to stop feeding it and stay aloof from it. Been tripped into a while now by Nathan's particular ignorant hate-expressing. I didn't always participate in the hate zone or gap of it.
I'm saying, Daisy there IS a difference with Aux's silence and letting more hang out here. And you know drinking confounds all this even more.

So, just a reminder: there's a normal Nathan no matter what, and there's the idiot-dragon Nathan who thinks he knows this path-let alone knowing this path HERE. There's my mild anger in just fending him off-this is where the natural guideline of using the forum should have everyone back off and do homework- but there's regular rage when he whips out his dragon-self more in full-force. This dragon psychically hones in on just about everyone's denials. But RUoW? Nope.

Back to self-control.It's WONderful if you get it, maintain it 'cause it's the same as personal power and we all need that. Let what's happening move around inside awhile, see what comes later.Ideally: when you're SURE So, no, I'm not like any regular 'chatters' which i won't mind from someone close to the books. But me, I'm stuck until Nathan's crap-part is out of the way, gone or whatever. Nathan can't face stuff so he calls others bullying: TOTAL lack of awareness of having the info inside already-lack of control..HIS lack of control spreads it around, see, akin to entrapping stuff out here.


Additionally, it's like making bread here: Luana and Nathan are NOT vibrating this area themselves and they 'do it' here: put Themselves out here and meaning to bake it like bread or something. Or it can be pictured worse, like dried out ex-cocoons sitting on a shelf. It was temporary, it was an experiment. But did it hold up getting down to business anyway? Sure. And worse: the general bad intent: the mainstream. DEFinitely no self-control. Natural controls built-in and leading one to the books even. Areas that need no words, are traveled THEN come back here and speak. If not, 'the gap' inside takes over-where dragons specialize, where rage-polarized specialize: running over these non-word Places. Then we get stuck again 'cause we don't know which area in such two is not moving/healing, to have them act out it's pain or denial or conversion out here.

The extreme part is that displaced rage equaling our leadership at large. Back to why they pissed me off so much, to include GC 'guidelines she was supoosed to know all about. She bragged about GC, and she has this Wonderful Self, but what about 'all that'? Rage-trips, power-trips, pain-giving rages from them; attacks, positionings, setting no examples; all for denying stuff in themselves and 'letting go into rage'? No deal. Self-controls. I'm not here to just blindly share someone's rage. It's outward denial, and others can't let it win.