Nu...
thanks ..
wow..

I would also like to add that its VERY difficult to get inside this part of HeartMothers gapped Will Essence that was originally so disbanded from the rest of the Essence of The Original MOTHERS' Essence.
To me, Luana IS that position of 'that which We do not know' and is barely alive, trying to stay here so We can all see and Know what We are that's lost. I am a fragmented part too of what was lost Originally. and fed back to every single day by this Divine Mothers Lost and Most Beautiful Light. I am free of what I own as darkness to a large degree here, because Ive a) not gotten off the mattress since '91 (I had a day job up until then) and b) listened with fond Desire and massive and loving intent to take back within myself Every little and large despotic, cruel, mad, crazy blaming, brilliant, Heartfelt, longing, dispising, humiliated, notorious, passive, lost, dissenfranchised MOTHERGOD HERSELF IN THE FINEST, thing that MotherGod Luana has EVER said. She is the bottom most rung. She is the sparrow and the Divinest Light we have here. She is it. The encycleopedic missile of Our WILLS most trecherous, lost , Hated, hideous, brilliant, massive torential torment known to mankind in the Soul of One. She will not lie, cannot lie, until She is facing Your lies. Then its on!
And I have been allowed into Her inner Sanctum for nigh on 8 years or so now, and it has rankled me to hideous depths, to find a way to be at peace with what She quietly and with massive patience, does beseech to me in My Mothers Parts, that She is ... and beseeches Me to find. To unloathe, to LISTEN TO, and (it's been hard every single day) to find a way to redeem inside of the Who, of the Who that I am.

Lu and I have never spoken of this. I am isolated too, as She is, though She is surrounded by her children and grandkids .. and her lover, and the homeless and musos that she finds time to feed ... But Our Hearts remain on fire for those of you who work here Every damn day, to find a way out of these hellfires that our Souls are plummented to..

It's true, 'time is up'. Its being said to me and the other girls and boys, men and women that I work with here ( I work within a group of 20 healers, all scared shitless, (ie the more you know) and courageous skilled ROUWers) daily. We are at an end of sorts. A time where we shall need to now get our reflections NOT from the other, but from within the cataclysm that will savage and ravage our souls, because enough time has been given. What is out will stay out. The lines have been drawn in the sand. Whichever place we find ourselves to be, will from this day forward, create the external reflections that now need to come forward. Meaning Globally. On mass. It may take a year or so to begin fully, for those of us here who have been sorting through the damage of Our hearts, and Minds, so that Our WILLS may heal, but it will come forward now to bear as a gifted reality to sink ,and be risen from. No more time left. Dont fight the WILL here any longer. Ort try not to anyhow as best you can. I know the reflex is to shift blame and re-position against. Its been that way forever. You REALLY do need to have you wits about you, to give yourself a chance to surrender and not draw and fire, ... going on old impulses set up in the WILL as yet unfrozen (that is if youre a fairly new reader and processor of this work..say less than 15 years). These parts that you see in yourselves that are against still, in judgement of - still, are the very parts of Our Mothers Light that will give you a reflection as a catastrophic World View, in the times ahead.
Luana has it right. She IS the catastrophe that will be be upon our heads in the ravages that spring forward now Globally, to sustain the Mothers' Presence here on Earth. She IS the harrowing of which We disown in Ourselves because to those Spirit Polar defenses of those of US with Ronoloka Hearts, Angelic Imprints from before the crushing blows of the lairs and what came later,..just CANNOT CONCEDE to this hatred as being apart of the Original WILL's Essence.
But it is. You and Me. Us All. What happened to me has been found within Her Lovely Folds. And if You all want a way out quickly, look for a way to own back and Love EVERY LITTLE THING, EVERY IOTA OF DISBANDED ABUSE, hierachical unfathomable (to us, those of Us that call it wrong, that is) incalculable damage, that She's so desperately holding up from the swamps and quagmires of Our refuse, ...that She is holding for Us until We can Own it all back.

Believe me I understand the resistance of the mind coming from these parts that say..'she's a witch, she's mad, she's hypocritical, shes uncooth, shes not to be trusted, shes manipulative, shes contemptively abusive, and cruel and anihilatively venomous, and withering, ... and pandering and effusive and loving to those that will kneel.....' (dont think that MotherLuana doesnt know for a minute, how you see and feel her.) Before you all, I say without a skerrick of a doubt, that SHE IS THE MOTHER, and I have followed Her Home. And within Her Heart, She knows the way, and is merely fathoming us forward in the only way left to Her. Shoving us back our refuse. Our deliberately ousted parts that we could find no use for at the befinning of this all, that we disbanded from, to try to live a way back from the Heartlessness of the Original Causes that Our True Mothers Essence has been soaked in for all time.

'Times up" I hear again and write down here as told to Me. If its possible to Stop fighting Her Will and to take back within Yourselves what it is to be ugly, unfit, manipulative, cantankerous, hatefilled, vengeful, licentious, gapped and horror bound, your reflections will get easier (those Earthly ones that are fuelled with the most dynamic Of Mothers Rage Lost HeartWill parts, that are Aiming Right At Us Right Now.) If its possible to suspend disbelief and swallow what is being reflected and demonstrated here, then I know it will be an easier ride for us all. It's hard. I know. And seemingly heretical in it's obtuseness against. But it IS the Most HOLY parts of the unfrozen WILL that were lost from Us All and to deny it now will definitely bring death. You cannot stay here on Earth unless You say, "Im ready and Willing to hear Hearts point of view in this all, that was gapped from rage, and hosted by the most evil."
My love to you here. I pray for us all
My Love
U

Hi Nu,
yes, it has been that long, but that's beside the point. Some people can do things for a long time and not get it.

Wish you were around to judge judgement in a balanced way.

How about Luana in another thread telling Nathan about the person she says is his parental part, how he is like Nathan, but better.

Love to see you get in there.

Luana is fragment of Mother. But she does some stuff that is mean and she spreads misinformation about ru. So she gets to get called on that. I don't know where you got the idea that someone simply being Mother means that they must be treated all nicey nice while they stomp on other people. Look around in your life...are all the mothers more willish than all the sons, daughters, fathers, manifest spirits you know?

This is guilt Nu, which you are now passing on. And you know, it ain't gonna help Luana. It's enabling.