Daisy and Luana,

I sooo vibrate to Charcoal Mother. Yes I have read it before, but it’s been a long time and honestly I did not make the connection to my handle here and that message on Godchannel. It’s appropriate though. I am Charcoal Mother in so many ways, but I did not channel the post on GodChannel.

I decided to come here and create my CharredHeart so I could express a part of myself that has been long denied and silent. Its not all of me, actually I am more whole in other places but I needed a place to give just my Charred Heart a voice - without the rest of me for a time.
No I am not drunk. Though I wish I was because then maybe I would not feel all of this pain. Lucky for me no substance takes my pain away, it all makes the feelings more intense. Figures even something like liquor the worlds #1 choice to check-out with does not give me any relief!

Well I hate the baited question, “how many years have you been reading RUOW?” cause I know it’s used by some elders to determine if they will take a voice seriously or not. I think that is complete bullshit!!!

Do the years when I lived unconscious of loving light where all I had was my Will to guide me, the years I cried and cried because I was sure God did NOT love me or my kind. Do those years count for anything?

Reading RUOW was not the consciousness that opened me to my Will. It was the information that finally validated what I had felt all along! That happened about 8 years ago. WHAT THE FUCK TOOK YOU SO LONG GOD? Of course….I was holding things in the way of him reaching me….WHATEVER!!!!

Though I understand now that those fucking White Lighters and New Age folks who all got this information right away were the ones who needed it most. So I can let it go, but I swear if you want to judge the validity of my voice based on how many years it’s been since I first discovered these books I am going to seem like a really annoying bitch who says FUCK THAT! You get the books when you need them, maybe for some it takes 20-30 years to move along with the information. I was already moving long before I even knew what the fuck moving meant or even knew of a woman who was channeling this information.

So anyhow, that’s me…for now….I have babies, some living, some that I killed before they could jump out of me. So far I have not killed the ones I have but some days I want to.

Luana said:
“I think because of the Light that is now being generated by Our newly re-united, original Parents that is now reaching out this far from the God Head that some of Us will be activateing a fourth dna strand soon.....Well, at least those of Us who have opped to stay here, but, many will be leaveing too ya know”

I know what you are explaining here… I want to SCREAM at GOD around this one. I mean first I am trapped here in Hell and now I am being threatened with “I better get moving where God wants me to or else I am going off the planet” I can hardly even take that shit in. I am just trying to be who I am so that I can survive; fuck all this dooms day bullshit. Dooms day is here folks….most the planet has been living in it….again…this is where the information that is meant for those White Lighters really pisses me off!

What else do you want to know?