I had an experience about ten years ago where i would chant that mantra for an hour daily. i was very angry at someone over a relationship that didn't work out. one day while i was chanting this rage toward the guy started coming up and wouldn't go away. i was thinking this was very bad to be feeling so angry while chanting a mantra but it kept coming and i was getting angrier and angrier. finally i decided to let it come thinking this was some kind of cleansing. I had thethought that if i saw the guy i would give him a black eye. Then i thought no i'll give him two black eyes!! And right when i thought that, even though i was seated, my body lurched forward and i banged my eye socket on the woodedn arm of a chair in front of me off to the side. my eye started turning purple and i had an audition the next day which i had to go to with a blck eye. I swear this is true. it was a very powerful lesson for me.

Namaste.

Tara Devi is one of my friends, teachers, and also my sponsor as a Buddhist guru.

No harm can come from this mantra. It is entirely benign. I could recite it 3 hours straight - or for that matter recite a huge stack of wrathful protector mantras for 8 hours and there would be no negative repercussion, just clarity and sharpness and a pure energetic field.

You have not given enough information to allow me to respond in detail. I do not know if you have Mahayana vows, or a full Tara empowerment, or something generic like a full Vajrasattva empowerment.

Vajrasattva / Hundred Syllable mantra is the primary deity/ recitation for purification and removal of obstacles. ( See the photo and text for Hundred Syllable mantra at my tribe listing under "K T" ). I realize that this may not seem too attractive to a lesbian, but there are Tara versions of the Hundred Syllable mantra.

There are many streams and variations of Tara practice. I received many of the principal Tara practices, such as the Gelugpa school Cittamani Tara, the Sakya School Ekajati Tara ( 4x ), Sakya White Tara, Atiyoga Ekajati Tara, different kinds of Tara Yeshe Tsogyel ( Dudjom, Longchen Nyingtik, Tagsham ), Tara Mandarava, Three Long Life Deity Tara, Three Streams Atiyoga White Tara, Atiyoga Red Tara / Hayagriva and so forth.

Tara is a key practice for many reasons, and it works well for Hindus, Western witches, Hindu Buddhists, Witchy Buddhists, and so forth. It is both a very simple practice and it can incorporate the highest levels of Buddhist yoga, if one has the appropriate empowerment.
It has many applications in outer magical workings.

I have never heard of anyone having any problem with this mantra, not in the last twenty seven years.

You will need to do acupuncture and some yoga or tai chi practices to work out problems related to your energy anatomy.

You can take Buddhist empowerments to cleanse obstacles to mantra practice. I continue to do so, even having sixty two full Vajrasattva class empowerments.

It is guaranteed that any "reaction" to Tara practice is the PURIFICATION, *not* the compounding, of karmic problems. Nevertheless, there are inner and physical obstacles to understand and work through.

Break up your mantra sessions to be shorter and more numerous. Try fifteen to twenty minute sessions twice a day, with yogic stretching beforehand.

You have to do other things right to support a spiritual practice, and that includes fresh healthy food, good rest, fresh air, and a harmonious environment ( where possible ).

The physical suffering you face could be a manifestation of an inner conflict, but you will have to decide that.

Please be sure to see a good acupuncture doctor soon. You may well need to take a Vajrasattva class empowerment, or several. The female aspect of Vajrsattva is Vajragarvi, so you can practice Vajragarvi as the central visualization, with or without the male aspect Vajrasattva.

Best,

K T, inner medical tantrika and dagger priest