Alright, so I work part time in a restaurant and I had a very frightening happening the other night. Most of the kids that come in are over privileged college kids who have some pretty intense entitlement issues and this one the other night was no exception, she had a funky ID, but I served her, it all added up, but something wasn't right, and when I told her I would serve her showed no sign of gratitude, even though all her friends were like "yeah, this is a norm for her and her ID". Either way, she just had this very spoiled air about her, was condescending and downright rude. I am a pretty fun server, nothing but fun and games when I work at this place. But I got really tight over this incident. A coworker asked me how my night was going and I spoke of this girl at my table, and I was like, "I hope something bad happens to her, like, I don't know, nothing crazy, like a broken heel and a twisted ankle, nothing serious, maybe a skinned knee, but nothing serious." We laughed, I felt a little better getting it off my chest and I went to check on the table...only to find out that not just a few seconds before i got to the table she had gotten a sudden nose bleed. WHOOPS! I kinda laughed about it, but then I was like, whoa, too much, too soon, too negative, too weird.
So, I am now working on keeping my mind clear of these negative thoughts, which is very hard when you are in an area that is heavily saturated with dark and negative energy. I have done very good things with intention and focus, but this is by far the most instant happening of ill advised energy I have ever seen unfold. The dark side is strong, need to keep away, stay positive, and for Pete's sake, carry some Kyanite!
Send Good Vibes,
Mathew
So, I am now working on keeping my mind clear of these negative thoughts, which is very hard when you are in an area that is heavily saturated with dark and negative energy. I have done very good things with intention and focus, but this is by far the most instant happening of ill advised energy I have ever seen unfold. The dark side is strong, need to keep away, stay positive, and for Pete's sake, carry some Kyanite!
Send Good Vibes,
Mathew
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Re: Very scarry happening - kicking it with Kyanite now!
Sat, May 3, 2008 - 1:46 PMperhaps it wasnt sucha negative thing...
maybe those thoughts you had were guided by something larger and just needed a lens ie you... to focus and direct what needed to happen to this woman...
in the larger skeem of things positive and negative seem to drown out in the ocean of oneness...
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Re: Very scarry happening - kicking it with Kyanite now!
Wed, May 14, 2008 - 7:02 PMDood - If Rottweilers start looking funny at you it may be time for an exorcism.
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Mon, May 26, 2008 - 10:00 AMI'll agree with that...ha ha!
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Sat, May 3, 2008 - 2:06 PMI am in a very dark and scary place too, and it's hard to keep from wanting karma to take it's due course. I've had several incidents in my past where people have been severely f-ed up, either done something horrible to me, or to someone close to me, and as soon as the thought traversed my brain, it seems that the person had something happen to them. I thought it was me but I think it was just the universe. At one point a friend of mine started noticing this, and bad things kept happening to him, and finally, his truck is like going up in flames in the middle of the road, and he looks at his friend and says, "I'd better go apologize to Amy" . It wasn't that I made it happen, just that being around light people and doing dark things makes it....worse? Better? If there are dark things in a person, and you shine a light on it, then I guess you have something of a karmic explosion. You can be a dark person, and continue on that path forever, or you can decide to start cleaning up the mess.
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Sat, May 3, 2008 - 4:09 PMHi, Mathew, I'm new here, so if I am overstepping, please let me know.
If one works with the public all day, some of the stickey stuff is gonna rub off. A person who works with the public constantly needs to cleanse, body, mind, soul, and spirit, OFTEN. One can cleanse the body easily, but cleansing the mind is sometimes more difficult. Many people are artists because art does cleanse the mind. Music can cleanse the soul, as well as many exercises such as chakra work or color healing. The spirit can be cleansed by bathing in water, light, earth (mud), or wind....the elements can be very cleansing if you just get out into them periodically.
I guess what I'm saying is that this happens from time to time when one works with the public. YOu must be in pretty good shape, because the "bloody nose" was a good warning. There must have been angels present.
This is a good example of "Instant Karma" and it is the sign of a soul who has progressed very far along the line.....you are doing well, keep asking for help from your true friends and keep on keepin'on. Use your inspiration and your passion. LIVE and LOVE. Love the world and love yourself....we all welcome you and we all need you and love!!!
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Sat, May 3, 2008 - 5:48 PMmost likely you had a mild premonition of something bad about to happen to her and you were connecting with those energies.
to put out a negative intention and have it realized so quickly and powerfully is far more rare.
So, most likely you sensed the vibe about her....and particularly that Karma was about to send her a lesson...and most likely, as you say, for being stuck up, indifferent, callous, etc.
You just probably picked up the vibes in the area.
If you are a good hearted person, your guardian angel will protect a bit of negative energy from manifesting in a way that would harm your own karma. So, I wouldn't worry about it.
If you are concerned, you can just do prayer work with it. Pray for her well being and for whatever bad feelings you had about what you did or thought or whatever...
I get angry at people sometimes. After my anger cools off, I pray for their well being. When I do, it is like a can feel the energy around me clearing. Repentance prayers are extremely purifying. I have gotten really serious depressions to lift by that kind of prayer work. Of course, it has to be perfectly sincere. You can't go into it mechanically, as if you are paying a coin in a vending machine. I have prayed before the anger fully cleared and while I still had resentment toward the person. Not the same thing.
The Buddhists do a nice thing before they meditate...they wish everyone well...
here is one form of what they chant:
May All Beings Be Happy
May All Beings Be Healthy
May All Beings Be Free From Suffering
May All Beings Be Liberated.
Just feels so right to throw out that kind of positive vibe for everyone.
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Sat, May 3, 2008 - 6:26 PM"some thing bad happening to me"
its interesting in buddhism they have what they call dharma protectors... who are wrathful beings who are often then not responsible for somthing bad happening to you.. like you get your hand slammed in a door or your arm broken... this is seen as the dharma protectors at work telling you to pay attention to your practice.
if you look at the universe as wrathfull and benevolent compassion in action... it changes your perception of good and bad things happening to you.
not to mention the idea that there is no inherint self... but a oneness "one mind many bodies" as they say in buddhism.
so keeping that in mind... a supposed bad thing which happens to you or another is an interwoven event that spans over time which can be and i like to think is an act of compassionate action which benifits the whole and perhaps not just the individual. what happens to the individual is inconseqental and the universe knows this thus why it has compassion and we have compassion and sympathy for the indivdual who the event happens to.
take your sense of self out of the situation and look at all events that happen to you or another from a non-self or alturistic point of view... the good and bad events then just become their non-dual nature quite clearly and the world just appears to be a dance of whirling transforming energy... where neither good nor bad occures...
i would say that for some one that is dealing with supposedly bad or negative energy or experinces, that any stone used for developing nondual awareness would be a key aid in thier development.
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Sat, May 3, 2008 - 9:29 PMoh its ok... thats just a reading from her thought impulses.. you picked up her signals cause you were so involved with how weird or rude she was acting.. so you channeled in and got a glimpse through words of the energy that will accompany her.. and so her energy got her a nose bleed right before you picked up the signals that she was being to negative on her own health. I mean, a bar... come on... ofcourse ya know... fake id, rudeness... at a bar... yeah, she is running from something, and so her running nose bleed.
Its a signal psychic pick up thingy... your emotions were free flowing.. it happens a lot.. the more aware you become.. the more Aware you Are.
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Sat, May 3, 2008 - 9:50 PMalot of healing and wonderfull experinces can be had at bars...
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Sat, May 3, 2008 - 10:50 PMThank you all so much for the positive energy, I feel it and appreciate it! It was yet another sub-par evening and it was lame from time to time, but whatever, its all good, its just that the high times are what makes the low times so low, you know? Beyond that, I really want to thank all of you for your input on the situation, it was very intense, whatever it was. I feel that not fully understanding such a situation is alright, I feel that acknowledging is much more intense then not, so a lack of complete understanding is not too much of a big deal to me. Again, thank you everyone! And yes, very powerful things can happen at bars and places alike, I think its because everyone brings their attachments and since it is not fully a "like-minded" space, many of those attachments/feelings/energies often clash and create some interesting beauty.
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Sun, May 4, 2008 - 1:50 AMthe other thing Matthew, that in addition to being psychically sensitive, that kind of experience can happen through over-stimulation...by being drained, tired, stressed, etc..
and in a crowd, all kinds of energies coming at ya, bombarding ya, etc.
so, maybe a time for centering, rest, getting grounded, etc. Building up your strength and resources so that you are more immune to the flows of the energies around you.
when I was in the ashram we were strongly cautioned about the vibes of various places...how the energies just take you out of yourself...
and, ya know, bars are certainly one of those places. Traditionally, in India, monks are basically not allowed to interact in large public places with tons of people. Just a standard caution of spiritual protection.
So, if you are very spiritually sensitive, you might want to consider how you place yourself in society and what the future holds for you in that context. You might need a more stable spiritual environment to work in than the one you currently find yourself.
Of course, life can throw us many challenges and we often find ourselves in places we would rather not be. But, if we put forward the intention of that change, our life can start to move in that kind of direction.
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Re: Very scarry happening - kicking it with Kyanite now!
Mon, May 5, 2008 - 3:11 PMyou're probably not shielding yourself enough there - I used to not even be able to go into bars (I'd walk in and then go sorry, can't stay, and turn around and flee!) -- too much bombardment of energy literally richocheting all over the place, and the thoughts: very much me me me me me with a sort of franticness about it, and the interaction with others just a variation on that: how is that other treating *me*?? is that other going to get me what I want? and then later in the evening when people get really drunk . . . well, I'm sure you know.
But after learning to shield I was even able to work as a cocktail waitress. Then my only problem was a dislike for working at all, lol! -
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Tue, May 6, 2008 - 7:35 AMI totally feel you on that, its a service industry, and when service is said a particular way, it can be understood as "serve us", wisdom I learned from a movie. Also, funny thing with me and my job, I feel working at this place helps my art like whoa. So check it, I worked as a massage therapist for about a year, it was awesome, but my jewelry was not really getting any better, as far as design aspects are concerned. When the place I was working closed I ended up back at the restaurant I once worked at. Within a month my jewelry skills started to improve. Its funny, and this is what I have been able to chalk it all up to: When I was massaging my brain worked at a very low level, meaning I was very relaxed and very calm all the time, which is good, you need that as a massage therapist, and I am a very hyper-active person, I wouldn't have been able to pull off massage without some serious help from close energy working colleagues. But when I started at this restaurant again, the vibe is so crazy and all over the place that it inspired me creatively. I don't know, I always have a sketch book on hand while I am working, so whenever I get a second IO am sketching out new designs amidst the mayhem. Realizing that was pretty fascinating, and when I try to explain it to people at work they look at me like I am crazy. I work with alot of young souls, and it drove me mad until I realized that they were young souls, I don't know, I am getting off topic right here. Anyway, I def credit this job to my creative inspiration, without a doubt! Ahhhh, I feel so much better, I seriously wish every day was Cinco de Mayo, work was awesome last night!
Sending love and light to you all!
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Tue, May 6, 2008 - 3:08 PMwhatever your path, best wishes...
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