I can't speak for anyone else ... it's hard enough to speak for myself. I do the best job I can in speaking for myself, but somehow, someway, things don't seem or don't always seem to get through. I interact with a lot of people on here ... to the joy of some and the chagrin of others. I leave it up to them to decide which it is ... or if it's a combination of both, depending on circumstances. I 'meet' relatively few people. When I say 'meet', I mean talk with both publicly and privately, get to know them beyond the posts they make, etc.

I find it interesting that a lot of people say I'm one of the more intelligent people they know ... I'm "so nice" ... I'm sweet ... I'm ... all sorts of things ... but the reality is that it's getting harder and harder for me to interact with people ... both online and off.

When I don't make myself available, people think I'm nice and whatnot, but they soon lose interest because I'm not around much. When I am around, they lose interest because (especially on here) they ask questions they don't want the answer to so when I give them an answer they don't like, they are mad at me. Someone deleted me from their friends list recently because I called someone they respect a 'lousy fucking cunt'. The reality is I didn't call her that. I said I'd say she was, but that post would likely be deleted (and probably for good reason), so I'd just suffice things to say that as much 'compassion' as this person says they have for me, it's not what I want, need or even feel coming from her. All I feel is selfishness and projection ... her trying to force her feelings, desires and way of life on me.

So I ask this other woman what the deal is ... she says she 'can't be friends with someone who calls someone she respects 'cunt''. That's fine ... I lose respect for people sometimes, too ... but my question is usually 'why did they say that?' I'm not here to tell anyone what they should or shouldn't do or how they should or shouldn't be ... but I don't feel that anyone should do that to me, either. If she wants to delete me because she doesn't like what I say or how I feel, that's fine. I wish them both well and hope to never cross paths with either of them again ... though I'm sure I will as we have at least one common tribe.