So get this ... there is a woman I met on tribe when she commented on a picture that I posted. I responded by saying thank you or something to that effect. The messages continued, several times a day. I felt comfortable talking to her .... I thought she was great. I wasn't in love, though, because I had/have no idea what she looks like (not that her looks are important to being in love, but what happens if she's really a guy or was a guy at one time or ... all sorts of things ... we can be friends, anyway ... just not marriage material for me), she lives on the opposite coast and I have no idea what kind of relationship(s) she's currently in or how she feels about them.

Time goes on and the messages continue but looking back, they were getting fewer and fewer in number. Eventually there is a big blow up with her putting me on her ignore list (I didn't know a person could put someone on ignore and have them stay on their friends list) and wouldn't talk to me at all... all she had to say is "I'd like it if ... " or "I'm angry because .... " or otherwise express her feelings and it would've been over. Not the relationship, mind you .... but the blow up.

Instead, seeing no other way to get her attention, I deleted her from my friends list (not that I didn't or don't want to be friends but because she obviously didn't want anything to do with me). Suddenly she woke up and spoke to me again .. but if she was angry before, now she's angry on steroids. The drama turned public. It ended when she kicked me out of her tribe and made it private. I don't know that I'm back on her ignore list or not but it really doesn't matter as she asked me not to send her any more PM's.

I've had only one other argument with someone on tribe in the past. It was a misunderstanding that I started without meaning to ... but I'll take full responsibility for it. She didn't give me a chance to explain what happened or why, but that's okay, too ... I'm sure she's doing well and she's more than welcome to contact me whenever she likes.

The point of all this is that as time goes on, I find myself being more and more out of sync with people ... different people .. all sorts of people. Some of them say I'm "creepy" ... others say I'm "sick" (no one came right out and said it, but that's what they meant when they suggested I go to therapy or alternative therapy in another tribe). They're free to think what they like ... I just don't know that I'll ever really be understood by people. I'm okay with this ... I just don't like public drama.