Ok, folks...my first official low since, well, a really long time. Im spent...emotionally bankrupt. Today was a horribly frustrating day and it took everything I had and even some of my emotional savings to not fully break down. Today I feel like Ive had it. Every thing got to me, even my children, who I love more than anything. They are actually the only reason I can keep it together (on the outside). Finances are fucked which seemed to be the biggest facor...Until my Mom called. She told me my Dad has a tumor in his stomach. I didnt think too much about it. He came over to see the little ones and when I asked him how the doctor went he quickly changed the subject. He told my Mom not to "tell the girls."

I just kinda feel like everything all at once just came down on me. Money, health...what next?

There is so much more I need to vent about, but my mind is racing a million miles a second. I wish I could just go to sleep.