I ran across this piece tonight, channelled by a ruow'er in fall 2006 (identity confidential), and I thought I would share it, with permission.

"Q: I am not sure what to ask you about, but perhaps we could start with what I was moving deeply with the other day regarding ownership…control…my hatred of rules and controlling things even as I do it, and feel a victim of control as well. Control seems to be a central theme in my life…how controlled my movements are regarding lack of money and ability to travel freely, control around relationships and moving freely within those, losing relationships because of others’ control trips reflecting my own control. I am reading a book called Possession; I feel like a slave and a slaver. I want this pattern to shift and evolve, change and grow, become more balanced, something I can live with instead of tolerate or be subject to my own patterns.

I shall pause a few moments to allow myself to connect more deeply with you.

A: You are facing the core of your current problems on Earth, my child. Freedom from control has to be balanced with the terror of loss of control, which needs to move enough to become trusting that you can follow your will and allow everybody around you to follow theirs without feeling as though you will lose control of yourself or your life. Fear of loss of control is the main reason why ownership patterns are what they are on Earth today, and you see them all around you because everyone is immersed in the same problem. How to resolve this situation is not easy and there is no easy answer.

Those who fear they have the most to lose by releasing control are the ones who it is necessary for to move these patterns into a place where they can shift beyond the midpoint inside themselves, where more than half of themselves are controlled or controlling in gapped ways: dominant, kneejerk control that is. Control has a right place but most people don’t know yet where that right place is.

Control goes all the way into ownership and possession when the patterns are at their darkest and least evolving or moving. Some of you know are moving on these patterns and it is high time, as many of you are so invested in controlling yet denying that you are doing so through ignorance or avoidance that your fragmentation is out there dominating the planet and in a rage too – a rage that is acting out - because it is rage protecting the terror of loss of control that is part of the problem.

You all , in your gaps, want to control everything within and around you but you hate being controlled and have rage at feeling controlled and, at the extreme pole, enslaved. This has come about in large part because free will is not yet trusted and never really has been from the beginning. When there is no trust for the will or the ability of the will to be attuned or appropriate, the spirit or body attempt to control both within and without, and we end up with the mess that exists on the planet today, where virtually nothing or nobody is free to move and be the way they would like to move and be.

The process of freeing the will within is a slow and arduous process that will highlight the current problems outside you and in your own lives and bring them to a head, as it were, before they can be released and free will can move past the midpoint, where it can begin to magnetize more of itself more freely. What is happening is that a pressure is building up as humanity nears the midpoint where half the essence is being given a chance to “prove itself worthy and capable of being free” and half the essence is still completely trapped. Once the midpoint gets crossed within any one individual, it becomes possible for others to follow down that track via essence entrainment.

The controlled-controller monad as you have called it is reflected in all manner of scenarios and will continue until more individuals are able to begin to move past their midpoints and gain freedom in a majority of themselves. As more parental essence is able to do this, the outer reflection coming to a head will continue to heighten in intensity until it too follows the individual essence down the track of free will. It is only at this point that all essence can become safely within love and all that is not yet love or will never be love can be separated out once and for all.

We have no particular advice to give you regarding how to accomplish this, other than to cultivate opportunities for following what you feel like doing in the moment, while allowing everything and everybody around you to do the same, even if it pushes on your terror that you won’t like it and you will suffer from allowing freedom to exist around you. As you allow this, you will continue to feel pushed on in these ways – if you are getting triggered by others’ control of you or they are getting triggered by yours or you are getting guilt reflections while trying to become free, you can know the process is working and you are moving closer to that midpoint in yourself.

It is of course helpful to move as much rage as you can at those whom you deem irresponsible or selfish, for it is this reflection which must move back so that loving essence can find true balance between giving to self and giving to other purely from desire and not obligation or guilt. The more terror and rage you can move about loss of control or feeling controlled, the more responsibility you can take for controlling anything around you or your own will’s inner urgings, the better chance you and everyone else will have to bring this pattern to an end.

It is not wrong to want to “use” things around you, for some essence does not mind being used, as that is its current function. Technological “toys”, household objects, and the like have a right place, which is subject to change as humanity evolves, but for now it is not wrong to utilize their gifts while intending to become conscious enough to thank them, and Us, for their service in helping you live your life. Rage needs to move around “having to” be grateful for anyhing at all, and underneath that is rage, grief and terror at feeling like a victim of your life and where and how you reside in it. These are all large and weighty issues that take some time to evolve to the point where you can see a difference in your outer reflection.

Patience is a problem for many of you, and it is a conundrum, for you all want things to shift now, as you have been at this and at this for so long now, living so many broken lives in denied despair at how little is changing, starting to move yet nothing seems to be truly evolving the way you’d like. Yet patience is necessary within the process in order to accept enough that things are happening as they need to be, to the point where the process is trusted enough to finally and organically change your life for the better and for good. Rage and hurt around how long it’s all taking is a crucial key to move feelings about along the way if you are feeling at all antsy about the pace of healing. Judgments must begin to release and soften around “we will never get there, it’s not working, it’s never shifting, it’s taking too long”, etc.

Freeing everything around you, including inanimate objects, to be what they truly are can have a transformative effect on the essence trapped within as well as what this so called inert essence is reflecting inside yourself. There is essence in and around you that is yours that you are currently unconscious of as having anything to do with the conscious part of yourself, and yet it is you or reflecting the you in a state of denial. Much of this is lost will, lost light, lost body especially, trapped in a jail cell of unacceptance and judged as unreal and “not you” . Releasing judgments about what is you and what is not can go a long way toward allowing things their right place within and around you. For example, your new computer could be essence that is coming home to you, perhaps not in its right form, but yet an essence unrecognized as having anything to do with you the spirit. Question these assumptions, and that is a start in doing your part in releasing all “possessions” and things to be what they are and to be free to become what they are, even if they don’t yet have the consciousness to know that.

Becoming truly parental means fully recognizing that every reflection around you is a part of you at some level. Truly feeling that beyond a mental abstraction is going to be a process and you are not wrong to not be there yet. With time and process, this truth will become your truth as you move enough held emotion and judgments to recognize and own its reality."