Something I read today has triggered back an age long believe of mine & thats to do with finding another sense of value in the work we do or the things we do. Let me clarify:
Firstly regards my sexwork either now or in the past, I have always felt strongly that our own inner learning sex psychology should be in higher acclaim &/or awareness. When I was first a Dom back in the seventies, I just thought control, a damn good beating (if they asked for it)& get them (clients) out of the way as fast as possible, was the rules of sexwork in this area of work...how naive I was...& if only I had someone to tell me different may have helped..but..as the years & experience passed by, I began to actually understand my clients, their fears, their dilemma`s, their desires & where they could possibly originate from. I spent some time away from sex work & looked after badgers in a captive environment on Dartmoor..this was also another catalyst. I saw the behaviour of animals that are normally very social, change! & in some cases even become cannabalistic & aggressive. I began to make a conscious study of this. I saw the correlation to people who are forced to live homes with no space or any un-natural environment, even to those who are incarcerated in jails. How this affects the `nature` within was profound!
later on in my life for some years I then became a counseller...going back to the `street` from a different perspective..this affirmed my suspicions & also added to my sense of helplessness, tied as I was to `system`, during that time. I was asked to give talks about my amazing work with the street people of Plymouth (UK). I used this opportunity to `turn the mirror` on my audience (usually officiando`s). I told them about how valuable the work of sex workers is & could be even more potentially powerful in its affect on sexual issues of society...who else gets so close to the clients?...who else has full view of the `child within`, I said. I also used this opportunity to discuss my thoughts about drug users. Which is another bottomless pit of controversy..blaming this, blaming that.
I felt in all the love & hate for & against drugs in this world, that we were potentially missing vital opportunities & learning about ourselves. As I have always been open about my life in sex work, I have always been open about my views on drugs. I feel that drugs are not the problem..it is a mixture of what people feel about themselves & what they feel about others doing something they disapprove of.
Shamanically drugs have huge potential..done with reason in mind, in the right environment & with the right person/people...ritual is always important!
I have had a huge interest especially in psychology, mythology (not in a pagan sense though),sex & drugs/plants. So bearing this in mind I was given this link...(I have read PIKHAL by Shulgin..who this is about).
www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/lif...0302.ece
As a `promise on the horizon` I still think we as sexworkers will one day have a great right reinstated to us, as invaluable citizens of this world...once they give us the right to be heard in a positive & worthy manner.
Anyway feel much better for getting that off my chest..what do others think?
Firstly regards my sexwork either now or in the past, I have always felt strongly that our own inner learning sex psychology should be in higher acclaim &/or awareness. When I was first a Dom back in the seventies, I just thought control, a damn good beating (if they asked for it)& get them (clients) out of the way as fast as possible, was the rules of sexwork in this area of work...how naive I was...& if only I had someone to tell me different may have helped..but..as the years & experience passed by, I began to actually understand my clients, their fears, their dilemma`s, their desires & where they could possibly originate from. I spent some time away from sex work & looked after badgers in a captive environment on Dartmoor..this was also another catalyst. I saw the behaviour of animals that are normally very social, change! & in some cases even become cannabalistic & aggressive. I began to make a conscious study of this. I saw the correlation to people who are forced to live homes with no space or any un-natural environment, even to those who are incarcerated in jails. How this affects the `nature` within was profound!
later on in my life for some years I then became a counseller...going back to the `street` from a different perspective..this affirmed my suspicions & also added to my sense of helplessness, tied as I was to `system`, during that time. I was asked to give talks about my amazing work with the street people of Plymouth (UK). I used this opportunity to `turn the mirror` on my audience (usually officiando`s). I told them about how valuable the work of sex workers is & could be even more potentially powerful in its affect on sexual issues of society...who else gets so close to the clients?...who else has full view of the `child within`, I said. I also used this opportunity to discuss my thoughts about drug users. Which is another bottomless pit of controversy..blaming this, blaming that.
I felt in all the love & hate for & against drugs in this world, that we were potentially missing vital opportunities & learning about ourselves. As I have always been open about my life in sex work, I have always been open about my views on drugs. I feel that drugs are not the problem..it is a mixture of what people feel about themselves & what they feel about others doing something they disapprove of.
Shamanically drugs have huge potential..done with reason in mind, in the right environment & with the right person/people...ritual is always important!
I have had a huge interest especially in psychology, mythology (not in a pagan sense though),sex & drugs/plants. So bearing this in mind I was given this link...(I have read PIKHAL by Shulgin..who this is about).
www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/lif...0302.ece
As a `promise on the horizon` I still think we as sexworkers will one day have a great right reinstated to us, as invaluable citizens of this world...once they give us the right to be heard in a positive & worthy manner.
Anyway feel much better for getting that off my chest..what do others think?
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