PEOPLE. It's been a while. Things have changed. With my last birthday came a sense of authority I hadn't known before. With my last movie viewing came the desire to begin a sexy new chapter of my life in which I will be liberated of my authority, and my dignity, once in a while, in a personal circumstance.
Is anyone even on this site anymore? Am I writing to myself?
If a tree posts a racist, sexually explicit message in a vacated social site, is the text offensive?
I'm not really looking for white women, btw. It's a line from Blazing Saddles, and it reminds me of Eddy, who apparently basically has almost no time at all to say anything departing from the topic of his being black. I'm not saying it's not important, and I'm definitely not saying it's important in any situation where it shouldn't be important, I'm just saying, he says a lot of stuff like "oh listen to me, i'm so black!" and "(the n word) doesn't bother me! I'll say it all the time.
it turns out that although the n word doesn't bother some people who may have been called it in the past, if i say it to that same sort of person who just was talking about how they love the word, that same sort of person may look at me like they either want to fuck me or punch me in the face, and they also look like they can tell i don't know which is predominant, and they like that i'm confused and sort of scared.
Honestly, though, I caught myself being a little racist on Friday, when I told some friends about the 'Mexican painter" who recently watched me shower, through the window, for god knows how long before I saw him and screamed. Why not refer to the painter? Or, better yet, the individual?
I'm trying to be a better person, growing, maturing. Reading through relatively recent tribe posts was, perhaps, a surprisingly charming walk down memory lane, and I may be newly inspired to let my inner rebel shine. As things have been pretty quiet and nice in my immediate hood I occasionally have felt like something was missing.