The excluded

topic posted Wed, March 11, 2009 - 10:52 AM by  Widdershins 3
Share/Save/Bookmark
Advertisement
What happens when one is turned away from a Radical Faerie Sanctuary?
Where do those excluded Faeries go whom are turned away ?

Here is the story of five recent faeries known to have been excluded by executive fiat off the land of today's Wolf Creek Radical Faerie Sanctuary,first a little Faerie history lesson:

The 80 acres where today is established the Wolf Creek Radical Faerie Sanctuary was purchased back in 1975 by a Gay man with a vision to establish a rural commune as a safe space for Gay men in the wane of the Back to Land Movement of the 1970's. This area of Southern Oregon sprouted many radical communes of varied cultural stripes and political/spiritual persuasions. Rural land then sold cheap, and Wolf Creek's location was central to major population centers off the Interstate 5 Freeway from Washington to California.
During the height of the era of identity politics,many Gay men were involved in the effort to pass the Equal Rights Amendment for gender equality. An active area of the then Women's movement were many women-only communes and circles: communities called by women for empowerment, healing, spirituality, and history.
Naturally, Gay men asked the questions of how to manifest such parallel circles of focus and intent for Gay men.
At an age where played emphasis to tear down-male only organizations and institutions, the questions were asked by those living at the fringe of the Gay rights movement:
What is this cultural/historical/creative/spiritual same-sex energy often called Gay Spirit?
As Gay men, we worked to reclaim our history, suppressed and burned often by the dominate religion or society.
So, this leads into my personal story:

I first fell in with the Radical Faeries while living in early 1980's San Francisco. "The Faeries" for me was a good fit, as it was for many Gay men then who swam counter to the mainstreaming of Gay culture.
I became involved with an energizing circle of intent to fully document the role and legitimacy of same-sex oriented individuals as spiritually unique.
Regular "Vision circles" were held, Faerie gatherings were called, and fund raising events hosted towards the means of purchasing rural property
to establish as a West Coast Radical Faerie Sanctuary. Many Faeries living in San Francisco had personal connections with the early Radical Faerie community at Short Mountain, Tennessee.
The San Francisco Vision Circle lobbied the IRS successfully to incorporate as the Church of Nomenus, a tax exempt 501 C-3 California based church, created by Gay men to be a Gay men's spiritual circle.
These were also the dark early days of the HIV pandemic, so using mostly funds bequeathed to the Church of Nomenus for the intent to purchase a Sanctuary for Radical Faeries, the 80 acres at Wolf Creek were purchased from the original owner,who then himself was passing from HIV.
The Wolf Creek property had by then hosted several Faerie gatherings, and a history of mostly Gay male rural commune politic and cast of characters.
The Church of Nomenus has a vision statement " to create, preserve and manage places of spiritual and cultural sanctuary, for Radical Faeries and their friends to gather in harmony with nature, for renewal, growth and shared learning. "
The sticky widget in that paragraph is the "and friends" inclusion. Holding an all-male space was even controversial for the Gay men who called for an all Gay male space.
I first visited the Wolf Creek Sanctuary property in 1986 with my then partner Gidget, an early organizer for the Church of Nomenus, and Star,
a friend who later became one of the first Sanctuary Caretakers.
Gidget had moved to San Francisco from the Short Mountain Faerie community,and organized several caravans to bring San Franciscans to Short Mountain, so as to organize a similar Radical Faerie Sanctuary on the West Coast.
The Church of Nomenus structure was based upon the teachings of Harry Hay about a Subject-SUBJECT consciousness-based ethic.
Hay saw objectification as a barrier, emotionally separating an individual (subject) from another individual by dehumanizing them, (object.)
Hay believed a subject-SUBJECT way of viewing the world as the most valuable contribution to the greater society by a same-sex spiritual ethic; by empathizing with all people, relating to each other as equal to equal.
The decision and business policy was decided through a consensus process meant to keep power in the Church of Nomenus from becoming too centralized.
even visions most virtuous in an open decision making process can become compromised by those politically ambitious.
Through the 1990's debate flared over what a Gay male spirituality centered Church means.
Here let's go back to the part in the Nomenus vision statement which states:
" spiritual and cultural sanctuary, for Radical Faeries and their friends "
As those friends who did not identify as Gay men men came to what they were told was Sanctuary, where they developed their own relations and personal rituals, the concept of holding an all-Gay male spiritual circle
became controversial from within and without.
Faeries who did not identify as Gay, openly chastised Gay male identified Faeries as sexist and misogynistic.
Till 2000 whom could live on the property at Wolf Creek, organize events, and collect donations was decided through an at times lengthy participatory process open to all Church members. The problem for some was that the membership in the Church of Nomenus was limited to Gay men.
During a Nomenus membership semi-annual meeting in 2000, attended by under a dozen Church members, policy was changed to give the right to decide what events happen, and who lives at the Wolf Creek Sanctuary, to those Church members who live on Sanctuary land.
To put this more simply, from that point forward the Church of Nomenus became the rubber stamp for the needs of those who chose to live on Sanctuary land, in a role titled as " Caretaker."
Those of us who first organized this Gay male centered spiritual circle all had women friends involved in women-only spiritual circles. Holding a Gay male centered spiritual circle was intended as an act of empowerment for our community;
so many Gay men involved with the early Radical Faerie movement died during the burning times of the HIV/AIDS pandemic.
These were years of memorials, of rituals we created ourselves, because as Gay men it is still common practice to exclude us from organized churches.
Today this even includes Radical Faerie churches.
In the soil of Wolf Creek mix the blood, come, and funerary ash of many passed faeries, including Gidget who was there with me when i first set foot upon Sanctuary soil.
For many this would be the definition for sacred space.
As the vision for holding a Gay male Spiritual circle became a derisive topic point for more and more faeries now claiming Wolf Creek as Spiritual Sanctuary, power in the Church of Nomenus centralized to a few individuals.
The trick is, Nomenus is registered as a 501 C-3 tax exempt Church by Gay men for Gay men, complete with a set of corporate by-laws.
As the needs for a non-Gay identified community came into prominence,
those wanting to figure out what a Gay male spiritual circle is about drifted off to better promise.

It was common practice for those of us involved with Nomenus process to be able to step back and take a break. A consensus-based decision making process is akin at times to slogging through a bog.
2005 I was active in the Church. I helped organize the summer men's gathering,the " Spiritual Gathering of Radical Faeries." This one gathering, usually now only a week, is the only time of the year when Gay male only space is held at the Wolf Creek sanctuary.
I also was elected as Nomenus Corporate Secretary that year, one of the required positions of the corporate by-laws.
A regular event called the Wolf Creek "Naraya' rents out the Sanctuary property once a year for exclusive use. The Naraya is based on revised interpretations of Native American religions, operates from a top-down hierarchy of "elders," and is closed to all who have not first had their spiritual intent interviewed and judged by a ring of "Gatekeepers" who operate on a model of enforcing the Narayan orthodoxy.
Many who now claim Wolf Creek today as their spiritual sanctuary are active members in the Naraya, which operates as a secret society.
In 2005 I was asked to participate in a Naraya event at Wolf Creek.
At the start of that Naraya, my friend Star who was there when I first visited Wolf Creek in 1986 showed up asking for Sanctuary from what he thought was his community.
Star's partner had recently died, Star then took care of burying him,
packing up what was left of their life together into one car, and drove to Wolf Creek, believing there he would find Sanctuary.
The Narayan Gatekeepers judged him as lacking, and turned Star away that night, off of Sanctuary, into a rainstorm, alone.
I withdrew my participation in the Naraya, and wrote of my experience in a blog. I asked questions, which marked me.
I learned at that same Naraya, closed to Nomenus members not cleared first by a " Gatekeeper," the Nomenus bank account was used to clear a donation made to a French Faerie community in the planning stages.
This was done in the shadow of the hysteria after 9/11, when domestic non-profits were under scrutiny by Homeland Security.
As Nomenus Corporate Secretary, when I asked about this transaction made by Narayans using the Nomenus bank account at an event closed to the general Nomenus membership, I was told to "not worry," and everything was "o.k."
By asking this question, and writing of my experience with the Naraya,
the process of banishing me out of Wolf Creek began.
The Narayans operate an in-group network they call the "Prayer Warriors."
Over the next few months I experienced an escalating level of threats posted on-line in chat rooms and the Nomenus email board.
I had been given cash to produce the Nomenus newsletter, which had been months behind publication. I rented production space, paid for software to be able to produce the Nomenus newsletter named the "RadDish."
Without notice or meeting, I had the editorship of the RadDish taken from me, I got a phone call from a Wolf Creek "Caretaker" threatening legal action against me if I did not pay back the Money I used in producing the Nomenus newsletter, which I did. I was blocked from putting this action on the agenda at the next Nomenus meeting.
I was also threatened with legal action if I did not pay for materials I used when I helped renovate a drag closet at Wolf Creek earlier that season.
Out of frustration I resigned as Nomenus Corporate Secretary. The Caretaker named I.C., who had taken the most active role in using the Church of Nomenus as a weapon of his intent against me, recited a banishment ritual against me in the Nomenus general meeting.
Harry Hay's dream of a Gay orientated SUBJECT/subject consciousness based church be damned.
For the last three years, I've had my membership applications to Nomenus refused. Here-say about me is published in the Nomenus newsletter, which is mailed out to the larger faerie community, research libraries, and other institutions.
I've even had my full legal name and address published and posted by Nomenus "Caretakers," who block me from refuting their charges against me in Nomenus forums. The Church of Nomenus is now a grown-up church, complete with a heretics list,
because I'm not the only one.
I heard of the suicide of a faerie named Ortus from a friend who lived in Eugene, a friend who's bed Ortus took his life in while my friend was out of his apartment. Ortus had gone to the Wolf Creek Sanctuary for sanctuary, and instead found a political process that turned him away at a time when he was most vulnerable.
Those who turned Ortus away posted a rosy story, peppered with assumptions such as that Ortus was suicidal anyway, and left on his own.
Yet my friend in whose bed Ortus killed himself was the last to speak with Ortus alive, and Ortus told a story of being viciously turned away.

Bennett for decades was a known personality at many Faerie Gatherings and Sanctuaries. Bennett was a drifter, a vagabond gypsy who could both inspire and infuriate those around him. A housemate of mine was on the Wolf Creek Sanctuary when Bennett also got forced off the property by a " Caretaker."
From Wolf Creek, Bennett went to a homeless camp which he had set up in the Ashland watershed. A record December freeze hit the area; Bennett died in the woods, alone, while trying to keep warm. His partially burned corpse was discovered about a month and a half later. He was identified by hand-puppets found with his body, which he had used to beg for money on the streets of Ashland.

William and Rick are the two latest faeries to be voted out of the Church of Nomenus,by a secret ballot manipulated by a few "Caretakers," in a hastily-called meeting illegal by the Church of Nomenus's own by-laws.
Same pattern as was done to me: Here-say published as fact in the official Church of Nomenus newsletter which is mailed out to individuals and institutions. Those heretic faeries who have the here-say published about them are blocked from participation, or to be able to defend themselves to the membership against the charges and allegations published about them by often un-named sources.
Most people go to Wolf Creek for a few days a year, and have a lovely outing away from the city, and thank those who hold the keys to the property,often by donating money to the church. When a caretaker in charge,speaking for a church, starts drawing up heretic lists and outrageous allegations, there is no conventional forum for checking this ambition and abuse of authority over a vulnerable population.
Caretaker I.C. boasted in the Wolf Creek chat room of "Sweeping out the trash" when he worked to exclude and banish me.
This was the same Caretaker present when Ortus and Bennett were treated as I was, to be "trash that gets swept out."
Today Caretaker I.C. lives off the Wolf Creek property, but still is active within the Church of Nomenus.
In the Wolf Creek chat-rooms, when Gay men post about Gay male space, the common response is to slap them down with posts such as this one which singled out one of the founders of the Church of Nomenus:
" I pray to the Goddess that she comes down from her web and sucks the tiny bits of soul left in your bodies, so that you will leave the earth and allow the real revolutionary faggots to take there rightful place in the prophacy, til then shame on you suffer suffer suffer, you have cursed yourselves. "
It is too common in these forums for Gay men to be called spiritually un-evolved, or locked into "identity politics."
As would be worked today against Gay men by any number of Christian-identified denominations.
Yet today, Gay men are denied over an estimated 1100 Federal and State rights and privileges in our personal relationships.
Rights and privileges our Heterosexual family and friends take for granted.

In the planning notes for Beltane 2009 at Wolf Creek, the heterosexual privilege which now is practiced by the "Gay men's Church" sets the tone for the Maypole ritual as:
" this holiday is all about penis-in-vagina sex...dress it up, psychodrama
play with that edge by holding a sacred wedding!
May King and Queen
symbolic union of a female butch and male queen "
This planned "penis in vagina" sex show will play out with many varied intoxicants, and a special Mayday "punch."
Children are now also brought to this event by those who do not identify as Gay men.
So today, in a Sanctuary intended as safe space for Gay men, where Gay men could ask the questions about our spiritual connections; heterosexual privilege and sexuality is openly practiced.
Once again, Gay men have to ask permission from heterosexuals, now to participate in Radical Faerie Sanctuary space.
Gay men are tarred as heretics in a Church created by and for Gay men.
I'm sure by writing this, there will be more curses recited against me, more pagan rituals posted by "Caretakers" and "Prayer Warriors" with my name included in the Church of Nomenus's heretics list, except when the Church of Nomenus goes fund-raising in the Radical Faerie community.
Churches tend to act that way.
Advertisement
Advertisement

Recent topics in "Church of Nomenus confidential report"