Another active Nomenus member who worked to block my membership is one that calls himself "Beast."
I first met Beast when we were organizing a gathering, when he returned to Nomenus after getting kicked out of a men's social club called the "Billies" for stirring up a lot of trouble, and flaming club members mercilessly on line.
Beast had many issues with how the gathering we worked on ran, and blamed me.
He stirred up trouble by telling people at the gathering that a then Sanctuary Caretaker was a secret government agent sent to spy on faeries.
Beast also came on to me, and I was not interested, and he took it very personally.
"petting" was what he called it, and it felt creepy, like I was being manipulated, so I said "no."
Beast said he felt wronged by me telling him "no,"
and insisted we do a "healing circle together."
It still felt like I was being manipulated for Beast's agenda,
as he seemed totally unconcerned over my feelings.
He started calling me up to rant about how much people have hurt him, then he would transfix this wound onto me, then yell at me, make threats, hang up phone, etc.
Damn hard to conduct Nomenus business,
as Beast kept inserting his personal agenda into any Nomenus business.
Beast was also having other very public fights with other Nomenus members and faeries at this time.
Here is an email Beast sent me, to shame me into action with another battle he was in online:
"I am Sorry I hung up on you...
>
> it was sounding like you were Hanging up on me when
> you said "Yeah I read every post"... (sounded like
> "I
> do not want to hear you"... I was Ready and willing
> to
> HEAR You.)
>
> I had listen to what you were having problems with
> on
> tribe and gave you the information you needed (that
> was written in the box I mailed it in)... Many
> People
> turn to me when they Need an Ear to Listen...
> (especialy when they do not have the nerve to speak
> what they are feeling publicly)... and rarely are
> there those who have the time to hear what i need to
> say... seems like a one way street ALOT of the
> time...
> and is all to familiar patern in MY Life...
>
> Yeah I get that you have done more listening than
> most... but did i hear you put fx in his place when
> he
> said "FUCK YOU" or "I Hate you" ... then disparaged
> the size of my dick because I had done the work to
> be
> THAT Vulnerable at gathering? it was the first time
> I
> had ever had the courage to go Naked at a
> gathering... and here is the little bitch getting
> away
> with the LOWEST Blow on a public forum.... Did You
> Put
> him in his Place? Defend Me? I DO NO THINK SO.
>
> NO ONE Called HIM on HIS Shit.
> how am i supposed to feel safe at gatherings after
> his
> Attacks on me? How would I think ANY one I bring
> would
> be safe?
>
> I am Trully Sorry to hear of how your Day went/is
> going... THAT I Feel compasion for... and Can Hear
> you. I can not help with $ I have None...
>
> I am Sorry I Hung up... I think of you as a Friend
> and
> would Not like it if a friend did the same to me...
>
> I Appologize...
> Only YOU can say if you are my friend... I will
> Understand if you say No. MOST Can NOT Understand
> where I am Comming from ... or Live up to the
> standard
> i Set for myself.
>
> Again I Appologize
> I Hope you have a great Trip...
> if the Raddish thing gets too out of hand ... Mail
> the
> printed stuff lables and Stamps (let me know when
> you
> send it) and I will do it...
>
> I want to support you...
> I want to be your friend
> I am Sorry... and Not above saying so.
> WillIAm
>
> was that an Acceptence of my appologee or NOT an
> Acceptence of my appologee? I do not want to Assume
> anything WRONG.
>
> when i read "I Hate you" and "i hope your (tiny)
> Dick
> shrivles into a vagina" and NO ONE says A THING on
> the
> same list where it happens.
> I am Real Sorry I 'Assumed' WRONGLY that Everyone
> must
> Agree with him, that I DESERVE IT.
> Pardon me for having the mistaken Idea that NO ONE
> Has
> the BALLS to Speak up on My behalf.
> One line that mentions me ... was a real Boost to my
> moral. but Hey ... I Know... whatever I am Feeling
> is
> None of your concern... I must have been thinking of
> another Subject/Subject church....
>
> I would have stood up for you... or Paradox or any
> other faggot being Hailed with "FUCK YOU" or "I hate
> YOU" etc... but again.. THAT IS ME... and NOT YOU...
> or ANYone else i know...
> excuse me.
>
> Damn! Why do I always get to be the bad guy No
> MATTER
> what I Try to do? Fuck Shit DAMN!
> think I will become a Nasty fucken Bitch too! it is
> WAY Easier than TRYING... or DEFENDING ANYONE. or
> Creating ANYTHING. i thought we were Allies...
>
> i guess that is All you read of my last message...
> (the FX shit)... Nothing else? or again am I
> Assuming
> WRONG? there was no responce to anything else...
> so...
> hey... I bet I am Wrong... and you were only setting
> me Straight on the part i got WRONG.
>
> "WRONG" william (Never right).
> unworthy of any other titel ... I assume.
> no wonder so many have given UP!
> Yeah I admit it... I have had a Shitty day too...
> but
> i will not BORE YOU with the details. you got enough
> on your plate."
Beast also posted in a public forum at this time that he was resigning from Nomenus, as he was feeling suicidal.
I wonder what reconciliation process Beast had to go through to again become a Nomenus member!
One of the main reasons I resigned from Nomenus out of frustration was daily emails from Beast such as:
"Ild like to say DROP DEAD.
> but what I realy mean is, I Pitty you your lack of
> compasion... I guess there is NOTHING in ME for you
> to
> relate to... You have Now made me realize there is
> NOTHING in you to relate to either.
>
> you are a JERK.
>
> William"
This was Beast's general theme, he would send me messages saying "eat shit, everyone hates you, etc..."
There ara a LOT of those to post from.
Well, when I tried to bring up these attacks against me in Nomenus meetings, I was blocked by Iz, yet Beast was allowed to rant on against me- till they ran me out of the organization.
Then they relegated all of Beast's Nomenus posts to a "special" category,
as Beast still in Nomenus today battles against his chosen enemies.
At this past Great Circle in Portland, Nomenus had to hire a special conflict resolution counselor because mostly of problems wrought by the Beast.