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Reconciliation process

2008-05-11T15:02:42Z

Here is an interesting bit from the Wolf Creek tribe history vaults.
A faerie elder had posted of his early experience at the Wolf Creek Sanctuary,
and a faerie who today is an active Nomenus member,
wrote a rather musical note of response.
I wonder,
did this current Nomenus member have to go through a reconciliation process also?

"20 some odd years ago, I attended my first Breitenbush Gathering
known as Northwest Men in the Woods - some of you were there.

It was announced at that gathering the effort we now know as
the Nomenus Sanctuary at Wolf Creek, Oregon was just getting
started ... as the purchase of the land was being negotiated.

It was announced at the time, the sanctuary space would be men
only.

Fast forward to August 14th, 2005 (last year) I visited the
land near Wolf Creek surprised to find females (gender) there.
I don't know the event, if there was one, but I felt completely
out of place.

That night I slept in my truck ... and quietly left mid morning
the next day ... thinking will I ever return? So far, I have not
made the effort to do so.

From Wolf Creek tribe:

Mon, August 14, 2006 - 6:32 PM
Old Mc Pussy had a farm
eee--- i --- eee ---- i ---- oh
and on this farm he had some pussy
eee--- i --- eee ---- i ---- oh
with a pussy pussy here
and a pussy pussy there
here a pussy there a pussy
everyewhere a pussy pussy
Old Mc Pussy had a farm
eee--- i --- eee ---- i ---- oh

But Nomenus said
There's no pussy here
and none of the girls
can live on the land
even if we do dishes
and suck a mean cock
and cook a good dinner
and our pussies (and hands) are clean
and we are a good spinner
eee--- i --- eee ---- i ---- oh

Old Mc Pussy had a farm
eee--- i --- eee ---- i ---- oh

*Written by a couple faeries that have pussies at Wolf Creek Naraya
WITH SO MUCH LOVE (and respect too...)"

Guess which current Nomenus member wrote that!
I also have a rather shocking curse which he also posted against the Church of Nomenus.

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Welcome

2008-04-01T00:31:39Z

to all of our recent visitors here, our hope is always for healing and growth. This site is creeping up the first page when you google "Nomenus," an indication of how many hits this site receives.

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Nomenus membership application # 4.

2008-03-10T15:06:49Z

I sent by special courier my Nomenus membership application # 4, two before were sent by mail, and One I delivered personally.
All rejected.
Oh what response, if any, will I receive?

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Another recent email sent to me by a current Nomenus member

2008-03-10T14:38:27Z

Again, I leave off the sender's name, to spare them the wrath ot the PNEs (Pissy Nomenus Elders).

"Well, I was curious what the situation was. Thanks for sending that,
it
clarifies the issue for me. Rest assured I'm not involved, other than
that
I love you and like to see you happy. You & I have been friends for a
long
time and frankly I don't really care beyond that, except that when
people
post vitriolic bits it harshes my joy. (YES, I'm can be a SELFISH,
hedonistic faerie like the rest!)

I resigned from Nomenus myself once-stating I wouldn't rejoin until
membership was open and non-discriminatory. Since, my perspective has
changed and I value certain exclusive interactions; they didn't blink
at a
renewal membership form from me. I'm surprised anyone even responded
to
yours. Beyond that I think "Nomenus" is dead, so who cares?

You know my number, and if you'd like a registration form to the "Other
Faerie Clan," the one that doesn't piss away everything anyone has ever
worked for, I'll send you a form; I'm pretty sure I could get it
through the
committee. Even though you're a cantankerous old cuss."

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Beast

2008-03-08T16:10:46Z

Another active Nomenus member who worked to block my membership is one that calls himself "Beast."
I first met Beast when we were organizing a gathering, when he returned to Nomenus after getting kicked out of a men's social club called the "Billies" for stirring up a lot of trouble, and flaming club members mercilessly on line.
Beast had many issues with how the gathering we worked on ran, and blamed me.
He stirred up trouble by telling people at the gathering that a then Sanctuary Caretaker was a secret government agent sent to spy on faeries.
Beast also came on to me, and I was not interested, and he took it very personally.
"petting" was what he called it, and it felt creepy, like I was being manipulated, so I said "no."
Beast said he felt wronged by me telling him "no,"
and insisted we do a "healing circle together."
It still felt like I was being manipulated for Beast's agenda,
as he seemed totally unconcerned over my feelings.
He started calling me up to rant about how much people have hurt him, then he would transfix this wound onto me, then yell at me, make threats, hang up phone, etc.
Damn hard to conduct Nomenus business,
as Beast kept inserting his personal agenda into any Nomenus business.
Beast was also having other very public fights with other Nomenus members and faeries at this time.
Here is an email Beast sent me, to shame me into action with another battle he was in online:

"I am Sorry I hung up on you...
>
> it was sounding like you were Hanging up on me when
> you said "Yeah I read every post"... (sounded like
> "I
> do not want to hear you"... I was Ready and willing
> to
> HEAR You.)
>
> I had listen to what you were having problems with
> on
> tribe and gave you the information you needed (that
> was written in the box I mailed it in)... Many
> People
> turn to me when they Need an Ear to Listen...
> (especialy when they do not have the nerve to speak
> what they are feeling publicly)... and rarely are
> there those who have the time to hear what i need to
> say... seems like a one way street ALOT of the
> time...
> and is all to familiar patern in MY Life...
>
> Yeah I get that you have done more listening than
> most... but did i hear you put fx in his place when
> he
> said "FUCK YOU" or "I Hate you" ... then disparaged
> the size of my dick because I had done the work to
> be
> THAT Vulnerable at gathering? it was the first time
> I
> had ever had the courage to go Naked at a
> gathering... and here is the little bitch getting
> away
> with the LOWEST Blow on a public forum.... Did You
> Put
> him in his Place? Defend Me? I DO NO THINK SO.
>
> NO ONE Called HIM on HIS Shit.
> how am i supposed to feel safe at gatherings after
> his
> Attacks on me? How would I think ANY one I bring
> would
> be safe?
>
> I am Trully Sorry to hear of how your Day went/is
> going... THAT I Feel compasion for... and Can Hear
> you. I can not help with $ I have None...
>
> I am Sorry I Hung up... I think of you as a Friend
> and
> would Not like it if a friend did the same to me...
>
> I Appologize...
> Only YOU can say if you are my friend... I will
> Understand if you say No. MOST Can NOT Understand
> where I am Comming from ... or Live up to the
> standard
> i Set for myself.
>
> Again I Appologize
> I Hope you have a great Trip...
> if the Raddish thing gets too out of hand ... Mail
> the
> printed stuff lables and Stamps (let me know when
> you
> send it) and I will do it...
>
> I want to support you...
> I want to be your friend
> I am Sorry... and Not above saying so.
> WillIAm
>

> was that an Acceptence of my appologee or NOT an
> Acceptence of my appologee? I do not want to Assume
> anything WRONG.
>
> when i read "I Hate you" and "i hope your (tiny)
> Dick
> shrivles into a vagina" and NO ONE says A THING on
> the
> same list where it happens.
> I am Real Sorry I 'Assumed' WRONGLY that Everyone
> must
> Agree with him, that I DESERVE IT.
> Pardon me for having the mistaken Idea that NO ONE
> Has
> the BALLS to Speak up on My behalf.
> One line that mentions me ... was a real Boost to my
> moral. but Hey ... I Know... whatever I am Feeling
> is
> None of your concern... I must have been thinking of
> another Subject/Subject church....
>
> I would have stood up for you... or Paradox or any
> other faggot being Hailed with "FUCK YOU" or "I hate
> YOU" etc... but again.. THAT IS ME... and NOT YOU...
> or ANYone else i know...
> excuse me.
>
> Damn! Why do I always get to be the bad guy No
> MATTER
> what I Try to do? Fuck Shit DAMN!
> think I will become a Nasty fucken Bitch too! it is
> WAY Easier than TRYING... or DEFENDING ANYONE. or
> Creating ANYTHING. i thought we were Allies...
>
> i guess that is All you read of my last message...
> (the FX shit)... Nothing else? or again am I
> Assuming
> WRONG? there was no responce to anything else...
> so...
> hey... I bet I am Wrong... and you were only setting
> me Straight on the part i got WRONG.
>
> "WRONG" william (Never right).
> unworthy of any other titel ... I assume.
> no wonder so many have given UP!
> Yeah I admit it... I have had a Shitty day too...
> but
> i will not BORE YOU with the details. you got enough
> on your plate."

Beast also posted in a public forum at this time that he was resigning from Nomenus, as he was feeling suicidal.
I wonder what reconciliation process Beast had to go through to again become a Nomenus member!
One of the main reasons I resigned from Nomenus out of frustration was daily emails from Beast such as:

"Ild like to say DROP DEAD.
> but what I realy mean is, I Pitty you your lack of
> compasion... I guess there is NOTHING in ME for you
> to
> relate to... You have Now made me realize there is
> NOTHING in you to relate to either.
>
> you are a JERK.
>
> William"

This was Beast's general theme, he would send me messages saying "eat shit, everyone hates you, etc..."
There ara a LOT of those to post from.
Well, when I tried to bring up these attacks against me in Nomenus meetings, I was blocked by Iz, yet Beast was allowed to rant on against me- till they ran me out of the organization.
Then they relegated all of Beast's Nomenus posts to a "special" category,
as Beast still in Nomenus today battles against his chosen enemies.
At this past Great Circle in Portland, Nomenus had to hire a special conflict resolution counselor because mostly of problems wrought by the Beast.

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Bennett remembered for puppets and humor

2008-03-08T15:16:52Z

I was very sad to hear about Bennett leaving this wold. I have many fond memories of him. Here is one from 1986.
There was a big faerie party at Golden Gate House, a huge flat in San Francisco where David Kerlick, Jim, the late Leo Ayrs (sp?) and the late Gary Compton and at various times other faeries, lived. Harry & John were there, visiting from LA.
About 10 PM, and it's a cold foggy night, Bennett, naked at the party, walked out the door in the buff. It was an African-American neighborhood at the rime, and myself and others were worried what might happen to Bennett wandering the streets buck naked!
About 1 AM Bennett returns with a big smile on his face, naturally prompting several of us to inquire about his adventures.
Bennett, said," I walked to the park (Alamo Square) a few blocks away and laid down face down on a bench. Then I waited a long, long time.
It was cold, but the colder it got , the hotter I got! Then I saw there was something there. It was a man! "
Bennett did not have to tell the rest of the story. We, like Bennett, now all had smiles on our faces.
xxoo,
Jerry the Faerie

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Bennett remembered for puppets and humor

2008-03-07T05:15:57Z

I was very sad to hear about Bennett leaving this wold. I have many fond memories of him. Here is one from 1986.
There was a big faerie party at Golden Gate House, a huge flat in San Francisco where David Kerlick, Jim, the late Leo Ayrs (sp?) and the late Gary Compton and at various times other faeries, lived. Harry & John were there, visiting from LA.
About 10 PM, and it's a cold foggy night, Bennett, naked at the party, walked out the door in the buff. It was an African-American neighborhood at the rime, and myself and others were worried what might happen to Bennett wandering the streets buck naked!
About 1 AM Bennett returns with a big smile on his face, naturally prompting several of us to inquire about his adventures.
Bennett, said," I walked to the park (Alamo Square) a few blocks away and laid face down on a bench. Then I waited a long, long time.
It was cold, but the colder it got , the hotter I got! Then I saw there was something there. It was a man! "
Bennett did not have to tell the rest of the story. We, like Bennett, now all had smiles on our faces.
xxoo,
Jerry the Faerie

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Caretaker training

2008-03-06T14:46:54Z

Caretaker training. - 2006/08/22 09:07 This next cumbersome bit is an interesting thread started by Iz, a Sanctuary resident soon to be Sanctuary Caretaker.
This thread was from the tribe "Wolf Creek faeries" tribe, and was deleted there. I saved it, understanding then the nature of the hit and run tactics used by Iz.
The context was in another tribe thread a faerie named Daisy posted about her concerns over alcohol abuse seen at the Sanctuary. I posted about a recent Sanctuary visit after an event where there were a lot of empty beer cans and bottles. I also had money stolen out of my wallet while there.
Iz then started a thread titled "Tossing shitballs-faerie style" which I archived and now re-post here for the record.

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While it's encouraging to see that anyone can say anything at anytime, here; I find myself smeared by a faerie. And, while it's a faerie, it's not "very Faerie."

I could spend hours typing in specific examples of how a particular person has, over and over, abused our process, treated others with a shoddiness that he wouldn't stand for, and cast aspersions far and wide about people he sees twice or thrice a year.
But, it wouldn't change anyone's perspective...

This movement is supposed to be about disempowering outmoded behaviors; it's about planting new modes of relating, based around subject-subject consciousness.

If we hear someone talking smack, we need to ask ourselves why they're saying what they're saying; and, what's the reality beyond their meta-messaging?

To be specific, how can someone I don't live with, or associate with, throw out the kind of schmear I've read about myself, and my community, this week? And, what kind of duty, or right, do I have to defend my actions and reputation?

I know what my issues are. I know my own vices and shortcomings. I don't know what gives some broken-spirited, consistently mean, trash talker the right to indict my lifestyle in the middle of a sister's open heartshare about dealing with sobriety inside of the Faerie culture.

The Sanctuary is not a brothel or bar, no matter what anyone says. It's not OK to be a mess, make a mess, or leave a mess. Pass it on. It is not Shangri-La-la, so many of our sisters bring their baggage with them. And, I don't know if anyone else noticed, but drugs and alchohol are serious issues for Gay culture, and many of us are engaging our issues around them. I'd rather talk about creative approaches to those issues, than whether or not some tired queen is right in her vitriolic attack on her sisters.

No one is running a still on our Sanctuary, no one has turned into a thief by being there, and no one is guaranteed healing just by drinking the tea (as much as I wish it were so).

I have met so much family through the Land, and have had so many opportunities to touch and be touched, spiritually. I'm not at all surprised that someone would try to steal that joy, or sour my love for ALL OF US. I'm not surprised that someone like that would still be coming to the Land; there's lots of love there, and maybe the disruptor needs to see what Love really looks like. I need the lesson. I need to learn to love self-haters and abusers. Love them enough to let them go, enough to trust that the Process will change them, just by the nature of being exposed to it. I also need to love them enough to call them out, to shine while they name their demon. And, to not confuse their issues with my own.

I took extreme care in how I called out our sister, only to have him act out my expectations of him. Was I wrong to name them? Was it in poor taste to refute gross misstatements about OUR SANCTUARY? Have I gone out of my way to sting or hurt? I must've spent an hour trying to focus on issues, instead of insulting or badgering. To be upbraided again, by some hurting soul, still looking for someone else to fault for not feeling connected or potentiated.

I'm sorry I responded to Angie's vituperative. Most of us know him well enough to take his stories with rolaids. I can only ask that each of us examine our lives, our works, our words, our attitudes, and act accordingly. No one has to take abuse, especially not around the subject of SANCTUARY.
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Vaughn
Vaughn
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Crows in the corn
Wed, February 8, 2006 - 11:26 AM
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This is just sad that you are using this forum for your character assasination of me.
Daisy posted her recent experience seeing substance abuse at the Sanctuary, I shared mine,
and in your own words you chose to call me out, and lied here about such as my involvement with Nomenus or an outing into town with my boyfriend.
For the record, the contentious day at Great Circle to let Fritz in as a member I was not even a part of. I also understand there were fireworks at the last COTL about Beast and Rabbit, no involvement from me there either.
How sad you have chosen me for your enemy.
Is that what you go to Sanctuary for?
And how are your concerns about substance abuse on the Sanctuary different than others?
My friend Star is recovering from a brain injury, his lover had recently died, and you chased him off the Sanctuary, claiming he was using heroin, when none was ever found, and he had never been seen using it.
Your concern about this substance abuse was so important to you that you changed the rules targeting certain substances.
I've spoken up in defense of friends who have been banned from the Sanctuary, often based on rumor or gossip, or who certain people wish to see living at the Sanctuary.
Why do you keep insisting on "calling me out" and using this public forum for your revenge?
Stop this madness now.
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Sqwe...
Sqweegle Wink Dinkie
online 51
Re: Crows in the corn
Wed, February 8, 2006 - 11:36 AM
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P-YEW......
As tha Crow flies................
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Saki
Saki C
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whatup
Wed, February 8, 2006 - 9:37 PM
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miss izzt crow are you still in oakland? lets get together just tell me when your in the city of sin and we shall sin together!!!!!!!!! love you much much much!!!!!
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Sqwe...
Sqweegle Wink Dinkie
online 51
Re: whatup
Wed, February 8, 2006 - 10:13 PM
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Ya can have some sin throwin' Iz's shitballs at faeries!
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Vaughn
Vaughn
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Stop the shitballs, Iz
Yesterday, 3:34 PM
in response to: Re: whatup
I am still troubled by this character assassination on this forum here against me by Iz.
I had shared by recent experience on Daisy's thread about alcohol abuse on the land. I am not alone in saying this.
From Zeus in a recent Nomenus Co-Co email:
"Why did he(Rabbit) (and others) allow the druken
madness to continue thru out last summers mens
gathering. No ONE person is responsible for dealing
with that issue but seeing as how such an issue can
and should be addressed within the paarameters of his
caretaker proposal I feel it is important and
reasonable to question his reslove on this issue. THAT
IS WHAT I SAID,,, Hugs, Zeus

and there were other posts I've read about concerns over alcohol use,There were several on the Samhain tribe that were deleted. yet Iz is singling me out just for sharing my opinion.
As Iz at great Circle kept talking over me, and trying to shut me up just for sharing my opinion.
I did not block any proposals.
I resigned as Corporate Secretary because I could not face the hate and judgment Iz was throwing at me. I was not involved with Nomenus for that, so I left.
There has been a pattern of abuse against certain individuals at Wolf Creek over the years.
The faerie who was hand-cuffed in heart circle by the sheriff during a gathering.
The police being called onto the land by a hysterical faerie two summers back, police officers walking into the circle at the fire pit during a new moon ritual.
I've had friends banished from the land based on gossip and community politics of those privileged to live at Sanctuary.
Part of the banishment process is to objectify the individual with some filthy term like "psychic vampire" to justify this action of exclusion to the group.
I've worked to heal these rifts, to find a better way, believing as faeries we are capable of creating incredible magic as solutions to what life gives us.
As we all do I've made miss takes, and I've tried to make the best of them.
Last summer Iz decided a friend of mine then at the Sanctuary was using heroin. None was found, none was seen, but this campaign of character assassination drove my friend Star off the Sanctuary. Star was with me when I first set foot on the Sanctuary at Wolf Creek way back in 1986, at the start of Nomenus. Star has had serious head injuries so he talks a little slow or has trouble walking. His lover, Peanut, had died a few months before, and after cleaning up their estate he went to Wolf Creek for Sanctuary. Star had been one of the first residents after Nomenus purchased Wolf Creek.
My lover at the time, Gidget, had moved to San Fransisco from Short Mountain in 1981. Ted organized several "field trips" from San Fransisco to Short Mountain, which fired the desire to form n
Nomenus and create Sanctuary here on the West Coast.This was the time Sis Mish moved from san fransisco to Short Mountain.
Faeries wanted a safe space to hold gatherings at a land owned by faeries, so we would not have to ask permission and give money to the non-faerie world we must exist in.
So, Iz, after seeing this pattern of you singling me out to "call me out",I ask you to stop.
Nomenus will survive me.
Wolf Creek will survive me.
So stop your vendetta now.
In honored tradition with all respects paid, what you put out against me will come back at you threefold.
Ted's ashes are at Wolf Creek, as are the cum, blood, ash, and bone of many a beloved brother and lover.
There is an odd history at Wolf Creek of playing "survivor" singling out one who's absence would make the land a "better community."
I told Iz his character assassination of my friend was wrong, he did not like hearing it, so today he still feels the need to "call me out" in forums such as this.
So, Iz, after seeing this pattern of you singling me out to "call me out",I ask you to stop.
Nomenus will survive me.
Wolf Creek will survive me.
So stop your vendetta now.

In honored tradition with all respects paid, what you put out against me will come back at you threefold.
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Aster
Aster
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Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Yesterday, 6:38 PM
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Hey Iz,
No matter what the whiner whines, you've got me in your corner, Lady!
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daisy
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Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Yesterday, 7:01 PM
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Are people really taking sides over this?
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Sqwe...
Sqweegle Wink Dinkie
online 51
Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Yesterday, 7:24 PM
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I don't feel much love comin' from the faeries here.
Who knew a flower could fart!
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Sqwe...
Sqweegle Wink Dinkie
online 51
Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Yesterday, 7:25 PM
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OOOPS, I did not mean Daisy!
Tha flower before_
See what these stinky threads make ya do?
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Dona...
Donatella S
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Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Yesterday, 7:33 PM
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all of those events compressed together actually sound very entertaining, were this a reality TV show. just think of it. there'd certaintly be an interesting cast of characters.
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Aster
Aster
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Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Yesterday, 7:33 PM
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I'm not "taking sides" just reaffirming my loyalties to a friend who just got trashed here.
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Sqwe...
Sqweegle Wink Dinkie
online 51
Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Yesterday, 8:04 PM
in response to: Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Who started this thread talkin" trash?
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Dona...
Donatella S
offline 119
Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Yesterday, 9:14 PM
in response to: Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
who knows, let's just blame you, Sqweegle. who wants to be a sacrificial scapegoat? you do, don't you sweetheart?
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Sqwe...
Sqweegle Wink Dinkie
online 51
Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Yesterday, 9:19 PM
in response to: Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Lets jus' sacrifice Miss Linah ta that big monkey on tha back that lives at Wolf Creek!
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Dona...
Donatella S
offline 119
Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Yesterday, 10:02 PM
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why would the gods want Linah Cocaine, sqweegle? THINK! she's like a sacrificial fruitcake, they'd wrap her up and regift her
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Sqwe...
Sqweegle Wink Dinkie
online 51
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Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Yesterday, 11:01 PM
in response to: Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Tha funny part a this thread is earlier tonight fer real in tha "pretty pixie paradise" tribe we was talkin' about tha shitballs in Donatella's closet!
And here he is in Iz's shitball thread - friend ta pixie.
But no sides, please.
That is such grotesque behavior!
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Dona...
Donatella S
offline 119
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Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Today, 2:31 AM
in response to: Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
i EAT shitballs, Sqweegle. there's a price for everything and everyone, and even though my price for scat is high, you could still afford a go at it with your tax returns. mmmmm, dirty, corn-chunky, shit-smeared lipstick kisses
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Sqwe...
Sqweegle Wink Dinkie
online 51
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Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
Today, 5:44 AM
in response to: Re: Stop the shitballs, Iz
OOO down an' dirty daddie a delight Donatella!
Oh please keep talkin' that delicious smack ta me!
Yeah!
Call me out an' talk real,real dirty ta me!
Yeah-
#uhn#
#uhhhhhhhhhhhh#
UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
OH-
Yeah-
OH_
YEAH!
BABY!
YE-AH!!!

This is why our dear Donatello is such a talented professional
that richly deserves ta be amply compensated by tha big bucks.

This is so much more fun than shit-balls, faeries.
'Cause at tha end a tha day what are ya left wit?
Shit on yer balls!

Stop tha shitballs, Iz

Gary
Re:Caretaker training. - 2006/08/22 16:32 One really depressing aspect of this is that the same people who habitually trash and slander other faeries are the ones who become caretakers or officers of the organization. I wonder if this is the cause of the problems or a symptom of something else? I hope we can get more faeries involved in this discussion because here we can say pretty much anything we want and not be deleted or censored. Back when the Raddish was the sole venue they had control over what got into the Raddish and what did not. I get the feeling these folks are accustomed to operating without accounability.
X Re:Caretaker training. - 2006/08/22 17:29 Here's the problem, as I see it......

WC is a fucking high school. You've got the popular kids, you've got the clowns, and yu've got the outcasts. You've got cliques, you've got gossip whores, and then yu've just got whores.

I hear a lot of talk about subject subject conciousness, but just because you're looking me in the eye, doesn't mean you're treating me with the same respect you feel you deserve.
A certain casretaker. on that land, used to look me in the eye ALL THE TIME, and tell me how much he loved me............... come to find out later, that the only reason he did this, was so he could have a place to crash in PDX.

Is THAT what subject subject is all about? Apparently so. As a matter of fact, I was the one who called WC a bathouse/nightclub. I just call it like I see it. The only complaints I EVER heard about were that certain people wouldn't fuck other certain people, and that meant they were discriminating. No, it means I don't want to fuck you for WHATEVER reason, usually it's the skeezy approach that turns people off.

I see a LOT of fey there using sex magic as an excuse just to fuck. What energy exchange is there? Are you meditaing on an intention while telling me to take it? Are you doing any healing work with this? The answers are an emphatic HELL NO!

I decided, after seeing the TRUE nature of a LOT of those people, to take my energy elsewhere. I got tired of being lied to, being talked about behind my back, and just the general shit judgemental attitudes of the ones who claim to be so enlightened.

I've said it before and I'll say it again........

That place might as well be a Catholic church. It's got enough candles and hypocrisy to be one.

Gary
Re:Caretaker training. - 2006/08/28 09:23 You are right about the high school like atmosphere and popularity. A few years past I saw a clear examlpe of how popularity effects faeries. None of the current caretakers were there at the time. In 1997 a long time faerie, Earl came to the sanctuary to spend his last days on earth. Earl lived in a trailer near the pumphouse. One of his interests was the language of Esperanto in which he was fluent. He had a goal that before he died he wanted to translate and put on line queer writings in Esperanto. To accomplish this he requested a temporary phone line to ascess the internet. One of the caretakers at the time, Sterling (Mike?) was adament that no phone line would be allowed because of environmental concerns and how "ugly" a phone line looks.

At about the same time a young faerie named Chango was visiting the land. Chango was about 20 years old, a model and a had a "sought after" body.
He was allowed to build three large sculptures without consensus, sculptures that could be easily seen from most points on the land.

If one is young and desireable you can do just about anything. If you are older and not on a caretaker's agenda then even a nonintrusive phone line is out of the question.

I am happy to report that another faeire and me measured out the distance and ran a temporary phone line from Garden House to Earl's trailer for 3 days and Earl did get some of his wirttings on line because of the phone line. Up until this post nobody even knew the line had ever been there. (the other faerie and I reached a consensus decision to take action) The remainder of Earl's work was put on disks and later placed on the net.

I guess playing favorites is a human tendency, but at a sanctuary we should be more aware of how these tendencys affect people who need sanctuary.

Vaughn
Re:Caretaker training. - 2006/08/28 10:28 The term I've heard being used a lot for the Wolf Creek Radical Faerie Sanctuary now is "Faerie farm"
Farms are fabulous, but there are so many of them, yet only one Sanctuary called as safe space where Gay men as Gay men can explore and develop our unique history and culture.
The barn sits today unfinished as is the kitchen, no new work there in near a year. A soon to be caretaker is using one of the hot tubs to raise guinee fowl in in back of the unfinished section.
People's personal living spaces they have claimed at "Sanctuary" are mostly kept neat, while such common spaces as the gardens mostly are going fallow.
X Re:Caretaker training. - 2006/08/28 14:17 Everyone thought that someone would do it. Someone figured that anyone would do it. When in fact, nobody did it.

Widdershins3
Re:Caretaker training. - 2006/08/28 19:41 Thank you for your input here.
We have not yet started to actively publicise this Association.
There will be several interesting posts here the coming weeks, and this work will grow as the roots are established.
The growth here so far has been steady, and as we reach critical mass we will start posting links for this Association to other faerie sites.
we have recieved many positive responses to this privately, so far.
Yes, we do take this seriously. Earlier this year a faerie calling himself "dirty" went to the Wolf Creek Sanctuary asking for Sanctuary. His need for Sanctuary got in the way of the resident's homesteading efforts,
he was told to leave, and shortly afterwords he committed suicide in a friend's bed in Eugene.
What was "dirty's" story?
X Re:Caretaker training. - 2006/08/28 19:45 Can we also talk about the fairy, who last year, got busted on for touching a child? Can we also talk about how this was kept on the downlow and that I STILL see this fey around once in a while? Nothing was done, no report made, nothing at all. Sanctuary indeed!
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Click here to send a Private Message to this userClick here to see the profile of this user Re:Caretaker training. - 2006/08/29 09:10 a friendly sugestion;

some of us cast ourselves out some were cast out

but

the name "outcasts of nomenus" might make some hesitate to join this association for fear that doing so will cause them to be cast out by the current crew of caretakers.

this may be why some faeries contact you privatly.

X Re:Caretaker training. - 2006/08/29 14:51 The fact that people are afraid of to speak up, is exactly why this place needs to be here.

Vaughn
Re:Caretaker training. - 2006/08/30 01:10 The "Outcasts of Nomenus" name will change on the six month anniversary of the founding of this Association,
when we plan to take this from out of the wilderness.
On the three month anniversary we plan another surprise here.

Post edited by: Vaughn, at: 2006/08/30 01:12

Gary
Re:Caretaker training. - 2006/08/30 09:52 Thanks for starting this association. I think we are all describing what we see as the problems. I would like talk about what our intentions are. Do we have any hope of causing any real change? Right now I think that if the caretakers and leaders respond at all it will be to dig in their heels and reaffirm the current regime.

I hear what Rodney and Masked are saying about putting the gender wars aside for awhile. The problems listed here go right to what used to be the heart of the organization.

It looks like caretakers are now chosen for their narrow "homesteading" vision rather than for taking care of the land, providing sanctuary and preparing for gatherings. I have no general objection to caretakers involvement in other projects, but those projects have now become the raison d'tre of the organization.

How can we get the focus back to the original intent of providing sanctuary?

Post edited by: Gary, at: 2006/08/30 09:53

Vaughn
Re:Caretaker training. - 2006/08/30 11:07 Thank you for your input here, and we have been pleased with the growth and intent of this Association. We have been talking with those who were there when the Church of Nomenus was first called as a safe space for Gay men to come as Gay men, to learn from our unique spiritual and cultural positions. There has been much support for this Association, which is growing as the church of Nomenus in excile.
X Re:Caretaker training. - 2006/08/30 11:34 My intent, is to do whatever it takes to call out those who are on soap boxes, with a mouth full of shit, and bring them back to reality. I'd like to see all my fairy friends happy again.

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Fan mail from a non-Nomenus member about Nomenus policy

2008-03-06T14:23:09Z

I also have a lot of support from faeries outside of Nomenus, here I post another recent email sent to me, concerning the distortion of Nomenus Church law worked by about two PCEs, (Pissy Church Elders) to vilify me to the community. Again, I leave off the sender's name, out of concern of actions executed by PCEs.

"Vaughn, I appreciate your post and find your words and intention profound. I can think of no one better or more honored to be labeled with a scarlet H.

You GO!"

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Rula on the go

2008-03-05T05:20:44Z

Since Rula, Nomenus's current Corporate Secretary re-assumed his position (between Great Circles without involvement of the Nomenus Membership) after resigning in a huff several years back, he has actively blocked my membership.
I had withdrawn my membership to Nomenus to take a breather after coming under some rather vicious personal attacks and threats.
( note-my resignation letter as Corporate Secretary was refused publication in the official record, and my posts censored by Rula. I will post the relevant ones here.)

From the Nomenus Co-Co meetings, where I'm blocked from defending myself against Rula's lies against me, by Rula.
From last summer:

"The Bylaws, as written, I don't find the least unclear. I'm sorry that the annoyance I'm feeling led me to express myself in a way you find offensive. These dramas just seem to go on and on and I must learn to take them as an opportunity to practice patience & just say, "Well bite my tongue, here comes another bruhaha about nothing much."

Thank you for your response and I hope that all of this, legal opinions and whatnot, succeed in making the Bylaws clear to you.

the Buzzard

On Jul 4, 2006, at 2:05 PM, Chip Hair wrote:

> Buzzard-
>
> My agenda, in case it wasn't clear, is to have
> the Bylaws clearly understood in a consensual
> way, and to have them followed equitably.
>
> The fact that Angie/Vaughn resigned without
> realizing the consequences of his action, and the
> fact that I don't like him personally are not
> stopping me from making this a consensual
> discussion and decision. In fact I have been
> transparent about the whole process from the
> beginning.
>
> As soon as I read the section in the Bylaws, I
> contacted Paradox, Free Daddy, and others to get
> their "read" on it. I had the Bylaws read aloud
> at Great Circle so that all participants would
> know exactly what the language it contained is.
> You yourself supply a definition of cessation
> where it can mean "stopping forever".
>
> This is not a "biased interpretation of
> language", it is seeking consensual clarity. The
> fact you can't see beyond personal agendas says
> more about you than it does about me.
>
> Rula
>
> --- Jack McDonough <thebuzzard1@mac.com> wrote:
>
>> Oh, really! I will not be available for the
>> next Coco as I will be
>> visiting NE & NY between July 11 & August 22
>> but I will be extremely
>> disappointed in the Coco if the promotion of a
>> personal agenda by a
>> biased interpretation of language finds any
>> support. Cessation means
>> "a ceasing or stopping, either forever or for
>> some time" (Webster's
>> New World Dictionary). Let's be real about
>> this; we do know why it
>> is being made an issue. I hope we are a
>> tolerant people and will
>> always try our best to find a way to allow
>> anyone who has in the past
>> ceased being a member to rejoin our Faery
>> Family.
>>
>> I would much appreciate it if someone would
>> read my brief statement
>> at the appropriate time during the Coco
>> meeting.
>>
>> Blessings,
>>
>> the Buzzard
>
>
> __________________________________________________
>

Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, worn or consumed.
Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love,
grace, and gratitude.

Jack McDonough"

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More recent fan mail sent to me by current Nomenus members

2008-03-05T04:22:18Z

Here is another email sent to me by another friend who is currently involved with Nomenus, shortly before this past Nomenus Great Circle in Portland, from which I was barred, where at any stranger could discuss my membership in Nomenus: Everyone except me.
I again edited out the senders name,
to spare them the wrath of those two PNEs, (Pissy Nomenus Elders).

"You're such an eloquent wordsmith Vaughn. So-what's stopping you from
filing the membership form, & going to G.C.? Is anyone specifically
rejecting your form at this time? Last time I went to G.C. I filled
one out
at the door; I'm hearing on the list that it would be accepted without
opposition. I'm just wondering if it could possibly be put to bed, for
what
it's worth, although I'm not sure what that would be."

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Your private information and Nomenus

2008-03-04T17:30:15Z

One very shocking tactic used by those in Nomenus is to print one's private information onto public forums. On another tribe last summer, Rula acting as Nomenus Corporate Secretary, started an attack thread against me in which he posted my home address, very against tribe rules. When I posted that Rula had broken tribe TOU rules, Rula re-posted the same thread without my home address.
In the letters Nomenus members post about me they freely post my home address today, and I'm blocked from having my personal information made public, by mostly two very bad faeries doing very bad things behind the alter of the Church of Nomenus.

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For the record

2008-03-04T17:10:42Z

In the latest issue of "The RadDish," the official newsletter of Nomenus,
which the issue of my membership fills the whole issue,
everyone there can speak their opinion about my membership to Nomenus,
everyone except me, as I am barred from all Nomenus meetings about me,
as I am blocked from responding to the official Nomenus printed minutes about me,
which go into a lot of public archives.

When I last approached Nomenus Great Circle,
after being given the call-in number from a current Nomenus member ,
when I called in, Rula forced a motion for me to "Shut up," which Iz seconded.
The whole motion was designed to shame me publicly in front of the Nomenus membership.
I was blocked from saying one word, as Rula and Iz put on record their VULs (Vaughn Urban Legends).
Of course,
later in the printed Nomenus minutes
it was written that I called up
"To disrupt the circle."
Rula and Iz's "Shut-up" motion was conveniently glossed over.

That is why it is called dark-mirror craft, people.
Charlatans showing in smoke that which they wish you to see.
Very bad stuff for a subject/subject 501 C-3 based Church.

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Fan mail from Nomenus members

2008-03-04T16:25:55Z

During Rula and Iz's holy Church war against me, I have received a lot of supportive mail from current and former Nomenus members. Always, I ask people not to take sides, that I am capable of speaking for myself, and I believe that creating warring factions works against our greater assets of creative non-violence. Rula and Iz, using dark-mirror craft, have used their position in the Church of Nomenus to damn me in the face of community, using the reactions of this community to their elaborate fictions, or VULs. ( Vaughn Urban Legends).

Here is one such recent letter of support which I received from a Nomenus member, I won't include their name because of concern of reprisals by Pissy Church Elders (PCE)s.
"I just wanted you to know, you so have my vote if needed. I think the whole deal is flawed and needs a fresh new looking. I think a great deal of you Vaughn and you really helped me out in one of the most difficult times of my life and I thank you.."

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Hiding behind the Nomenus flag

2008-03-04T16:09:43Z

Rula, Iz, and Mugwort
in official Nomenus business
post that I am "At war against Nomenus,"
which is one of their Vaughn Urban Legends (VULS).
Poppycock!
I today have several friends actively involved in Nomenus,
I was a founder of Nomenus,
helped organize the first Nomenus Great Circle in Seattle, then two in Portland, where for about seven years, each month I hosted regular Nomenus meetings at my home.
I was once even Nomenus Corporate Secretary.
what I do speak out against is
the malicious actions a small gang,
cloaking their personal vendettas behind Church policy,
using a Church to damn heretics in the time-honored traditions of scoundrels and self-appointed moral udges.
Look at Rula's tribe profile- he bills himself as "The Den Mother of Wolf Creek...assigned to keeping it real."
Rula sees this as his role in the church,
to route out heretics,
try them,
judge them,
then damn them.
Iz justs sees me as a threat because I dared question Iz when he bannished a friend of mine from off Sanctuary. Iz said someone saw him "shooting up" in the Garden House bathroom, yet this person who saw the alleged action was never revealed, or spoke up themselves. Trial by rumor. This friend of mine which Iz chased off was also one of the first Sanctuary caretakers, who had established several alters still enjoyed at Wolf Creek today. He suffered from a stroke, had recently watched his lover die, and simply went to Wolf Creek for Sanctuary.
Iz targeted him for his own reasons, and used his position at the Sanctuary to first libel, then act against this honored faerie elder of the Sanctuary.
I said this was wrong, so Iz chose to go to war against me,
using a Church of which I helped found,
with my friend of whom Iz works against.

Bad subject/subject interpretation, Church Elder Iz.

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Love letters from Nomenus not sent

2008-03-04T01:38:38Z

Leaked to me by a friend in Nomenus,
a letter which was supposed to be sent to me,
which was not,
which was supposed to be sent to me months ago,
which it was not,
because the then Corresponding Secretary for Nomenus
suddenly resigned. (?)

This letter was written by faeries
who did not first speak to me,
in a committee from which I was blocked
from speaking to, dealing with Rula's and Iz's gross allegations against me.
According to Nomenus minutes, for over two years now,
Nomenus members ( mostly Iz and Rula) regularly in meetings from which I am blocked,
repeat gossip against me as if it is truth.
Of course, using consensus process to ban my membership, from defending myself to the Nomenus general membership against the vicious lies posted in Nomenus minutes against me by Rula and Iz,
is not subject/subject consciousness, or heart space.

The Church of Nomenus today is a hate-group
in ugly faerie-drag.
Nomenus members were still arguing over this letter at last Nomenus Great Circle.
Nomenus had to pay for a conflict mediator to counsel this past Nomenus Great Circle, from which I was blocked from attending.
And-
The Nomenus newsletter this month is full of more lies in print about me- nearly the full issue!
And about by-law violations, there have been a LOT of Nomenus by-law violations. All officer positions have been unfilled at various points these past few years, usually when an elected officer splits or resigns-as Rula himself resigned mid-stream a few years back in a huff as Nomenus Corporate Secretary.
Now-
That damn poison- pen letter which Nomenus has yet to send to me:

A few months ago, CoCo asked Atomic to write a letter to Vaughn.
Enclosed is the draft Random and I have come up with. We'd like to send it
soon, since GC is approaching.
Any feedback?

A public letter about the Vaughn situation was also requested. We're waiting
to see what response Vaughn makes, before drafting that one. It'll also be
sent to this list for comment.

(As usual, copy/pasting Word into email doesn't look as nice as the attached
Word file.)

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Vaughn Frick (Angie O'Sperm)

Dear Vaughn,

Coordinating Council asked us to write you about your Nomenus membership
applications.

We see that the first reply was sent to you in June '06. We're sorry this
follow-up has taken a while.

As you know, the wheels of our organization turn slowly, especially when
Great Circle is involved; it took some discussion to arrive at an agreement
on how to proceed. So far as we know, this is the first time in 20 years
that somebody has resigned and re-applied for membership; usually, they
write their poison-pen letter and are never heard from again.

We regret to inform you that the Bylaws, as agreed-to long ago, prohibit you
from rejoining. Having resigned, the only way you could become a member
again would be for us to amend them. The relevant portion states (IV.1.D):

Any of the following events may cause the cessation of membership: 1) by
resignation of that member, 2) exclusion of a member by consensus of the
other members at a semi-annual meeting or at a special meeting called for
that purpose...

Note that resignation is in the same category as consensus-minus- one
removal, so the "cessation" here is clearly intended to be permanent —
resignation is treated differently than a membership that's lapsed.

Three Great Circles discussed your application and the broader question it
raises. There is widespread agreement that we want some way for a former
member to apply to rejoin: he'd talk with our representatives, who would
then make a recommendation to Great Circle. Who he would meet with, and what
level of agreement would be required within GC, remain open questions, and
no formal decision has been reached.

There was, however, widespread sentiment against granting approval in your
case. Given the bitterness with which you left, and the public attacks
you've thrown against Nomenus in the years since, this should be no great
surprise. You haven't been "banned" – the membership has thus far declined
to change the long-standing rules in order to bring you back.

If you want to communicate with Great Circle, you're welcome to send a
letter, which will be brought to the whole group. (Had your applications
been accompanied by a letter, it would have been discussed by GC.)

Given that GC will be in your hometown this month, this seems like a natural
time for you to meet with the assembled members to discuss this situation.
Whether that meeting takes place at GC will be a decision made by GC, based
on whatever letter you send us. (Correspondence that might not arrive in
Wolf Creek in time for the trip to Portland may be emailed, to
mugwort@pobox. com) If you wish, we'll phone you (at what #?) as soon as it's
known whether GC would like to meet with you and when.

The Sanctuary isn't a members-only club; you're still as welcome as anybody
to visit the Land for retreats or Gatherings.

In closing, we should point out that about one-third of the active core of
Nomenus members are Faeries who've been around since before the first Wolf
Creek gathering. So it hardly seems fair to accuse the group of blithely
disregarding our founding principles and history, based on rumors. The
Radical Faeries, like the larger Gay community, have changed over time, but
our Gatherings would be instantly recognizable to any who were there in the
early years. If you hear wild accusations about what's taking place at the
Sanctuary or in meetings, please consider whether the source is reliable.

We wish you harmony in your life's journey.

On behalf of Great Circle and Nomenus,

Mugwort, President
Random Chance, Secretary

MW: Nomenus/Vaughn letter.doc

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Naraya

2008-01-24T02:39:28Z

By Angie O'Sperm

Speaking freely from the heart to my brothers.
Representing noboby but himself and a family gaggle of pixies.

I had gone to the Wolf creek Radical Faerie Sanctuary to be with my boyfriend Randerella and help the land prepare for a truly busy gathering season. My stay began with the official business of Great Circle where the operations of the church of Nomenus meet the needs of maintaining this cultural/spiritual sanctuary for radical faeries and their friends to gather in harmony with nature, for renewal, growth, and shared learning. That is from the Nomenus mission statement, which was adapted years past to include others in this vision of of a gay male Sanctuary, as the vision of the church of Nomenus was to create a sacred and safe space for gay men to explore the history and potential of gay male spirituality.
Oh, as we know, the debate about this has at times been most lively and spirited over the years. Many compromises have been reached. Many have been disheartened by the radical process of consensus that is at the core of the decision making process of both the church of Nomenus and the Sanctuary that it created and manages.
And there is a lot of physical work needed to maintain the Sanctuary infrastructure, such as pulling poison ivy and hauling out garbage and recycling, as people do tend to bring and leave a lot of garbage at the Sanctuary.
I offered to help facilitate the special needs aspect of Garden house, an interior space set aside for those with health or mobility concerns that inhibit them from roughing it in the wilds of the woods. As a lot of the Sanctuary founders have died from the ravages of AIDS, keeping Garden house access able for those in our community journying the rivers of life and death has been an important practice of maintaining the aspect of Sanctuary.
Recently Garden House was beautifully expanded to better the stay of the beloved sick and aged members of our community, whom it is important to include as often they are our living history.
For several years a group of individuals including many closely associated with the Sanctuary and it's history have hosted an event called the "Naraya".
This has been an Ernest attempt to adopt native American Spirituality into the Radical Faerie vision, as the two spirit and third sex, the berdache, the shamans, many of these native traditions included and embraced those who walk the different paths in this life we all must travel. Harry Hay and others heavily borrowed from many native traditions in helping organize the Radical faeries many years back, a vision that bore the fruit we today call the Wolf creek Radical Faerie Sanctuary.
As it should be the hosts of this event prepare and present it most seriously with respect. A circle of gatekeepers have been established to quiz each participant thoroughly about their spiritual intent and focus, and if the gatekeeper determines that you are not spiritually focused enough, or that is not the place for you, you are excluded from the event. These decisions are not to be questioned, as the gatekeepers are given ultimate authority to decide who can stay at the Sanctuary during the time that they rent it for their private event. The word is a lot of people get turned away by this seeding out process. It all feels pretty safe, as most everyone knows each other, sorta like a faerie gathering with the crusts cut off.
I volunteered to help with the kitchen and cutting the firewood for the main ceremony and the needs of the elders who were set up in Garden House. My boyfriend Randerella was involved with Naraya, and I wanted to stay with him, and as I'd been at the land living and helping the community there, helping out in the kitchen for the Nayraya felt natural.
I had to go through the process of being interviewed by a gatekeeper to question my intent, my spirituality, and if I met the unstated standards expected of those included in this private event.
The night before the first day of Nayraya cold showers pelted the Sanctuary and those setting up the event. The electrical circuits kept getting tripped by too many people plugging into the pump house in the parking lot, and through the grapevine I heard a person with advanced AIDS was staying in the parking lot. I wanted to know why he was not in Garden House, and was told Garden House space was filled up with the elders brought in for this event, and that this individual was set up o.k. in his vehicle for the night. Since special needs is an important commitment to me in creating sanctuary, and as I've much personal experience dealing with the needs and concerns of those affected by H.I.V., I decided to Gage the situation about this individual with a life threatening illness who was forced to stay out in the parking lot.
The next morning in the back of the Barn sitting in a section of funked-out couches I started speaking across to someone whom I'd seen about and recognized, but could not quite remember the context of how we had met before. I knew those eyes, those beautiful, deep eyes that showed right to his heart.
I asked him his name and he said of course I knew him, that years back we had sex upon a shear cliff face in the Columbia river gorge during a hike, as the winds howled about our bodies clinging and moving on the rock that dropped hundreds of feet below us, at one point almost falling backwards into the great expanse of sky. For this story I'll call him "Star", a shortened version of one of his many names.
My jaw dropped in utter shock as several friends had told me Star had passed years back, and I had believed him to be dead.
Back when I had first moved to Portland in the late 80's Star had been close to both me and my partner Gidget. Gidget and I had been together for close to eight years before he had died in 1994. Gidget and I first made love in the back seat of Star's black 1969 Cadillac as we drove north late summer 1987 as wildfires burned in the hills beyond the freeway, after looking to create a faerie artist colony near Wolf creek. The Sanctuary then was fresh and newly minted, Gidget and Star both were there at the creation of Nomenus to ensure the Wolf creek Sanctuary's survival and future as faggot sacred space, as the land itself had a long history of faerie events, inhabitants, and gatherings.
This was when a lot of faeries were dieing of AIDS, and many left their estates with the intent of preserving the Wolf creek Sanctuary as a place for their brothers to safely hold ritual and space in a world openly hostile to the needs and history of our community.
And Star had lived there at the beginning, and helped lay the foundation that has grown into the community that tends the Sanctuary and the needs of it's visitors today.
The poor thing was even President of Nomenus once.
At the point my partner Gidget first became sick with a series of high fevers we faced homelessness, and in my circle of friends then it was Star who made sure there was a roof over our heads till we were able to find an apartment. That is the sort of kindness that saves lives, and forever will I love Star for how he was there for Gidget and I in our dire hour of need.
Star is a free spirit who shines upon many pathways, and I had lost track of him, then heard that he had died.
Imagine my elation at finding him back home, as back when I was a boy and first set foot in the parking lot by the sweep of the meadow, he was there.
Then he told me why he was there. Two months past his lover Peanut had died in his arms. A grotesque misplacement of breathing tubes led to Peanut filling up with black mold, and my brother Star held his lover as he passed from this world.
Star cleared out their things, saw that Peanut was buried in the grove of trees where he had wished to be buried, (ironically across from Charles Shultz's tombstone, with "Peanuts" characters inscribed upon it)
and had a vision that he needed to be with his community at Wolf creek, as Star also comes from a Native American tradition, and knew many of the Naraya participants. Star had left several messages with the Naraya organizers, and was prepared to meet with a gatekeeper that would decide if he could participate.
We shared some history, then I had to be off to facilitate the gathering of firewood for the opening ritual.
I found Star later, crying. He had been told to leave, told that this was "not the place for him to be".
In his time of need.
With his friends and family.
In sacred faerie space he helped create.

"Not the place for him to be."

He was told to leave and come back later. I found a Sanctuary caretaker and told him what had happened, and he said the decision was totally that of the gatekeepers, then he through his hands up in the air and walked away real fast.
I went to one of the honored elders, an individual whom I had shared many giggling ecstatic rolling-off-the-bed sexual trysts back in the heart of the eighties, and told him. Star had also been intimate with this individual, who had given him his spirit name. Star had given him the first drum that he made.
Well, about the most that he said was that the decision of the gatekeepers is final and not to be questioned.
I went to the gatekeeper who was over me in the kitchen crew and told him my concerns. If this gatekeeper thinks you are in the wrong spirit in the kitchen, you will be asked to leave. He was prickly to me asking questions, but did offer to speak with this particular gatekeeper who had told Star to leave. I said that I had conflicts preparing food for people who would turn away our brother, a beloved member of our community, in his great time of need. I could tell from the gatekeepers body language that I had clearly crossed the line, and I felt marked for daring to ask about how my friend was treated. I was again reminded that this was a "private event"
I found Star, and we spent a lovely afternoon next to the spring on the hillside, picking through the spring-smoothed rocks as the years fell away.
Close to dusk we parted and I went to talk with the gatekeepers, but first was reminded that I had offered to chop the firewood for the elders in garden House, as several people who had promised to bring firewood did not deliver the goods.
Chop chop chop.
I found the Kitchen gatekeeper, who said the decision that Star must leave was final. I told him the conflict that this created with me, and he shot back"Do not bring conflict into the kitchen!"
I told him I would leave.
Walking back to the parking lot the evening ritual was beginning down at the bridge memorial. Back in 1996 when the current bridge was constructed, faeries pledged money for this work to include the names of our deceased brothers and lovers that had been taken from us during the bad days of the AIDS pandemic upon a memorial. My friend Judy Jetson designed the alter, and I made the tiles and scribed into them the names of the dead. My deceased lover Gidget had made the many tiny porcelain vases that decorate this memorial that has become the focus of many a ritual upon the land. Star also knows many of the names intimately that are inscribed upon this memorial, those of his brothers and lovers, people we still share stories about. Myself I believe that a person is not truly dead till the living memory of all they have touched has also passed. Writing my lovers and brothers names upon this memorial involved an obligation from the rituals to create this memorial to honor their memory, for a while to keep their memory in spoken history, and to look after those whom they had also personally loved. Their brother and lover Star was there, and had been told to leave.
The ritual was a blend of Native American and voodoo traditions, the dead were called out into a little boat fashioned of twigs, and led in a candled procession towards the North star, to the firepit where the main ritual commenced.
It was heart rending for me to watch, to watch my dead lover Gidget called out as his close brother Star was told to leave alone in the night by the callers of these dead.
I found Star, shaken, crying, trying to pull himself together, unsure where to go to stay.
I helped ground him as best I could, to clean up the psychic garbage dumped upon him by this "gatekeeper".
I went to the Barn, fixed Star some coffee, and helped him prepare to leave. we were alone there, as the Narayans drummed and sang into the night in a ritual involving our dead brothers.
Oh, I forgot, "private event".
I held Star as he sobbed, I wonder how long it had been since anyone had held him, maybe this was the first time somebody had truly held him since his lover, his star, had died in his arms.
Star composed himself, and drove off the land in the middle of the night to sleep alone in a battered down car at a rest stop on the side of I-5.
Alone.
"This is not the place for you to be."
Alone at a rest stop.
Sick.
Crying.
Cold.
Denied Sanctuary at faggot sacred space in his great time of need.
I know a lot of good people are involved in Naraya with the best of heart, but where is the heart, the compassion, in this cold dead machine that turned away my brother in his great time of need from faerie sanctuary?
What the hell is the good of your little dance if those gatekeepers are so dead in their hearts that they would turn away our brother to shiver alone sick in a rest stop in the cold of the night?
An interesting historical first is that the gatekeeper who told Star to leave is a woman, the first time in the history of a gay male radical faerie Sanctuary, of creating a safe space for our brothers for Sanctuary, that a woman ordered a gay brother to leave in his greatest need for community,
to leave crying,
in the night.

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Pixie Great Circle

2008-01-03T17:54:23Z

I received this to post from Dinkle Tinkle Do,
who is Food and Style Advocate General for the Portland Faeries,
and in the past acted as a pixie ambassador to the faeries.

PIXIE GREAT CIRCLE IN PORTLAND
January 18 till about the 21st

As the organization of Nomenus today suffers from a cancer of exclusion of which it is in denial about,
As the organization of Nomenus today has strayed far from it's original vision of creating a Sanctuary that is safe space for Gay men,
As the organization of Nomenus today is controlled by the hostile personal agendas of a few "radical" faeries who steer the organization of Nomenus for their personal benefit and advancement:
We of the perpetual twilight league of pixie arts and crafts
host our very own "Great Circle"
to giggle at such buggeries,
and to color outside of the lines.
We ask Nomenus to:
Stop being a tin man and find a heart.
Heart Circles are wise things that should not have been tossed aside as inconvenient.
Stop using the organization of Nomenus as a vehicle for some faeries in Nomenus roles of authority to spread gossip, rumors, and other psychic garbage against individuals in the faerie community which these officers choose to victimize.
Stop using the structure of the organization of Nomenus to exclude applicants to membership based on how a few individuals who are in power positions of Nomenus choose to judge said applicants.

Remember the truth and wisdom of subject/subject consciousness

We are currently working up flyers to leaflet the neighborhood with,
mail to the Great Circle neighbors,
and a press release version with contact information to submit to the local media.

For the love that dare not speak it's name:
dinkle tinkle do
pixie ambassador to the faeries.

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Opening circle

2007-12-06T15:10:15Z

This was a project originally started over at Free Association, a tribe alternative that has slumped recently in activity as most of Free Association's founding members have returned here to tribe. Many people wrote me wanting to see this material over at a more visible site. By popular request, we are moving the most popular threads from there to here to start.
Welcome.

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How was the men's gathering 2007?

2007-07-07T21:58:52Z

I was in Alaska, psending the summer solstice aove the Artcic Circle, thinking of men that may have
assembled at Wolf Creek.

I think the future of W.C. as a gay men's site, as envisioned by itse founders, depends on
the abvility of mens gatherings to sustain themselves and attract a following and grow.

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One year

2007-05-18T04:43:38Z

It has been close to a year since we called open this circle as safe space from the politics of Nomenus.
Do we keep this circle open?

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Visions and Dreams

2007-01-30T16:40:10Z

My vision is that we are always in heart circle wherever we go. Having the vulnerability to be ourselves in every moment, no matter who we are with. I wish for us all that we can find acceptance for our true selves with eachother, even for expressions of emotion that we judge to be wrong, bad, or misplaced. I hope that we can root out the places within each of us that we hate within ourselves and project onto eachother. I ask that we can bring healing and loving acceptance to these parts, for after all, these parts are still small children, and need alot of love, kindness, and compassion to grow up and take responsibility for their actions.

Many blessings,
Daisy

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When I left Nomenus

2006-11-26T17:20:28Z

This was what I wrote,
after coming under heated attack by several Nomenus members,
as there is a tradition in Nomenus,
on ganging up on fearies.
In the past when things got hot,
it was tradition to step back and take a breather.

Now I'm blocked from rejoining,
by Rula,
who also had resigned,
as Corporate Secretary,
a position he walked back into,
between Great Circle,
AGAINST the Nomenus by-laws.

This is what I wrote,
which was censored.

"This is my resignation from Nomenus and Wolf creek.
After a tense three days at Great Circle where I was
made to feel in the way,was singled out by Rabbit
again as a problem(Rabbit published in the RadDish
that I am a physical threat to people's safety, and
had me banished from the Sanctuary for several years.)
Beast, who has been posting such things here to me as
"drop dead, kiss my big, fat ass, eat crap, your on
drugs, everybody hates you,...etc." is allowed to post
these attacks without mention.
I get jumped on for talking about women on the land
and too many empty beer bottles.
President Dave follows me about feeling he must
"correct" me and call me a liar whenever he disagrees
with me.
Was one kind word said to me for all the sickened
faeries I looked after last summer? The faeries that I
speak up for when the torch and pitchfork brigade
singles out a new charge? The poison oak I pull from
the paths because other's won't? I feel instead I'm
blamed for people being upset about SGRF.
I'm not phsically safe on the Sanctuary, as when I
last went there to finish the drag coup I was robbed
of fifty dollars.
So, I choose to be with my friends."

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Nomenus today

2006-11-09T17:22:04Z

Nomenus is host to far more problems beyond the eternal gender-a-round. Last year I dropped out after an active Nomenus member kept sending me email threats such as "drop dead." My concerns about such treatment was ignored, so I withdrew for a breather. Now My membership back is blocked, meetings are held about accusations against me I'm not allowed to respond to or be participant to, accusations are printed against me in Nomenus minutes I am blocked from responding too. One individual in Nomenus is using his power of position to enact his personal vendetta against me. Hardly in keeping with Harry Hay's vision of a circle of loving companions.
When I was a member, every month I would check in to see if we got any notices from the State board of forestry over impending logging actions on the state lands backing the Sanctuary, which by law must be sent out. Once I was pushed out, my concerns over logging were ignored, and we missed the comment period, which is the best time to block potential logging. If enough complaints are sent in, the sale gets shelved as too costly, and the state then moves on to the next parcel, as the goal is to raise revenues from state lands.
I was pushed out, blocked from posting information how to block this logging, and now we are facing chain logging on the hillside above our meadow. Chain logging is of the worst kind, all lesser trees in the way are removed, the money trees cut, fitted with chains, then dragged up the hillside, ripping open the earth to future erosion.
It seems when men do take control, beautiful things get raped and cut apart for booty.
Nomenus has failed,
both me,
as a Gay man and organization founder,
and now the Sanctuary....
Nomenus today is about power,
and exercise of male position.
As a Nomenus founder,
now experiencing the treatment given my sisters,
I am seeing this through their eyes.

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We have started a new tribe...for the Pangenderist Homeland Search...

2006-11-07T01:19:20Z

This is exactly what it says it is. And yes, we are serious. After Jerry's post (in the CA trbe), I find I no longer have the stomach to debate the issue any further. Let's get our own land... The one rule of the New Tribe is *NO* mudslinging. That is the one thing that will get your post deleted. The link is :
tribes.tribe.net/panhome

Peace and Love, and complete Seriousness..
AAOO (Sean)

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The download lowdown

2006-10-11T14:26:07Z

To fire this tribe up I've reposted several threads from the Free Ass Outcasts of Nomenus site.
http://free-association.net/index.php?option=com_associations&task=displayAssociation&id=670

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Questions and discussion points

2006-10-11T14:23:36Z

Questions and discussion points - 2006/08/22 10:20 I would be interested in seeing when in Nomenus history these bannishings of faeries became so commonplace. I am not convinced yet that just one person is responsible for this atmosphere where exclusions become routine. I see that some blame Rabbit, but I think it goes beyond one personality. It is true that Rabbit has built a little fiefdom and wields some influnce, but the problem is more systematic. One solution might be to put a time limit on how long any caretaker can remain, perhaps 2-3 years.
Another symptom occured last year in a discussion over on Tribe. During one heated exchange the president of Nomenus (Paradox at the time) unleashed a tirade of "fuck you" when he disagreed with my posting.
Besides it being unplesant for me and other readers, I was suprised that others failed to call hiim on his rude behavior- not just on my behalf, but how ot looks for the president of an organization to be treating someome in a public forum.
I think it is aslo time to renegotiate the deal with Naraya. Perhaps Naraya should be limited to a portion of the land so that faeries in need of sanctuary cannot be turned away. Or maybe Clyde could be persuaded to loosen up and agree to restrict his gatekeeping only to those who are participating in Naraya. The need for Naraya to hold their ritual should not interfere with faeries ascess to the land

I'll post more later, I'd like some discussion of what can be done to affect some change.

Vaughn
Re:Questions and discussion points - 2006/08/22 14:28 That post Paradox fired at you was soon deleted, as a lot of these personal attacks soon get deleted, as the point of such posts is the act of firing off a salvo.
I learned to save such for future record, so this is that post from August 15 of last year I edited out your name -V)

"Fuck you ---- fuck you for your continuing twisted interpretation. Fuck you for your willingness to bitch on this Tribe and NEVER do anything constructive to make the changes you want. Fuck you for alleging something about a majority that doesn't exist. You haven't been on the Land or at a gathering since when? How the hell would you know what any large number of people associated with Wolf Creek would want"

The President was on a bad roll that day, as this was from another post he made:

"Of course, I doubt if you have the balls (or the boobs, depending on your gender) to say any of this to me face-to-face. "

The act of bannishing faeries from off Sanctuary was practiced by such as Nomenus's current Corporate Secretary, Rula, who word has it wishes to return living at the Wolf Creek Sanctuary.
Senior Sanctuary Caretaker Rabbit exploited an existing bad trend for his personal benefit, as Nomenus pays his room and board, and he collects a "Stipend" from each dollar donated.
And with such focus now on paid events such as Naraya, money is to be made there.
The moderator of the tribe Radical Faerie tribe posted this on June 28:

"so the past few times when i've gone to Wolf Creek and given my money to the caretaker, i've said explicitly: "This money is for Wolf Creek Sanctuary and the community on the Land. It is NOT intended for Nomenus.""

X Re:Questions and discussion points - 2006/08/22 17:57 As for their financial situation.................

Last I was there I saw an extreme amount of wastefulness in the kitchen, food is not cheap. When you over order and it rots before cooking it, that's waste. When you make 100 lbs. of coleslaw, and it rots in the fridge, that is waste. When there are leftovers out the ass from dinner and someone goes and cooks up a huge lunch and doesn't incorporate any left overs and they rot in the fridge, it's waste. I witness 100's of lbs of produce getting chucked in the bin. THAT'S WASTE!

I have no sympathy for people who are so wasteful, when they bitch about being broke.

btw, what's up with the styrofoam containers I saw all over the land? Are these fey such hypocrites that they'll bitch about pollution and saving mother earth, yet pollute their own land with styrofoam? I guess that's a yes.

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A brief history of bannishing faeries from off Sanctuary.

2006-10-11T14:20:54Z

A brief history of banishing faeries off the Sanct - 2006/08/27 07:14 From Wolf Creek Confidential
An underground novel from the Wolf Creek pixie campaigns.

Chapter two: A brief history of banishing faeries off the Sanctuary.
“There be trouble in Union city!”
From “The Music Man.”
From “Gingers briefs” in vol.2, issue 1 of the Faerie Home Companion: “…Creekland Sanctuary seems to be going through some labor pains in this birthing process. There are accounts of various Radical Faeries being tossed off the land…”
“That’s a capital “T”, and a capital “R”, and that spells trouble!”
From a Faerie Home Companion article about the Nomenus Great Circle held in Seattle in 1988:” The great undealt with issue of what authority does Wolf Creek resident Assunta really have in deciding to throw faerie brothers off sanctuary land kept getting put off. Part of the deal when the sanctuary was purchased was that Assunta, because of her years of association with the land, would always have a place on it.”
Assunta, whom Nomenus sort of inherited with the land when the purchase was made, was the first to cast faeries from off the land after the summer 1986 gathering. After the summer gathering was over a collection of the party faerie contingent stayed on the land and shacked up in the cabin called “Theresa” where they continued the Gathering spirit.
During the heat of the afternoon this faerie party moved down the creek to the swimming holes known as the “tea-cups” where they met up with several local boys. The locals were wearing rainbow beads so the faeries there assumed them to be cool, and drugs were discussed, and later these same boys showed up to the land uninvited and looking to score some acid. Assunta intercepted them, escorted them from off the land, then Assunta flew into Theresa in a rage and chased the remaining faeries off of the Sanctuary. Gidget/Ted was one of those hapless faeries. During the prior year’s summer gathering Gidget had gotten bitten by a brown recluse spider in the drag tent, and Assunta was the one with the knowledge to get Gidget to the hospital for the needed anti-venom. Feelings were hurt and sides were taken about the newly banished faeries who formed “The wayward order of the Sisters of Theresa “ as a support network that spun legends and rankled the newly formed Nomenus corporate authority. Ardhan/Len was established as the first “caretaker” to facilitate faeries visiting the Sanctuary while Assunta and the San Francisco Nomenus clique fought bitterly about Assunta’s right to live at the Sanctuary as his “home”. Threats were made, opinions solidified into stone, and after many heated exchanges Assunta moved off the property. Several years after Assunta moved off the Sanctuary he attended a circle in the Barn where the then Corporate Secretary of Nomenus, Joey Cain, flew into a shouting rage and cast Assunta off the Land. Joey held a tumorous grudge against Assunta from some alledged threats made during Nomenus’s negotiations with him about living on the Land. Assunta was the first faerie to be banished out of the Nomenus circle, Assuta who had just a few years earlier cast out “the wayward order of
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the sisters of Theresa” out of Theresa. Oskarr moved into Theresa from San Francisco, bringing his healing skills and open heart, and slowly a community on the land began to grow.
From Ardhan/ Len’s “Wolf Creek report” published in the Faerie Home Companion of March, 1988: “Faeries have their own land to do what they want. It is here in Wolf Creek awaiting them in love. The land needs more hands. Hands to plant trees and seeds. Hands to remove debris so mother can reclaim. Hands to build a swimming hole in safety on the property. Hands to unite in a purpose of unity for our future and trust. Circles of words are so useless when lovers part and hearts break and feelings, like memories, bring about awkwardness and discomfort. Building anew all the time and the action is NOW. Hands on for whatever energy you have which goes into a collective work. That is not forgotten. Letting the mother be is nice, but our loving hands and minds also can work with the mother to give us; a protective sanctuary of trust and comraderie for the rest of our lives.”
From the first, who was welcome and who was not grew as a feculent blight hidden in our lovely faerie garden that Harry Hay dreamed of for our beloved Creekland. A malevolent schoolyard bully mentality of prejudice and preconception crept into faerie circles, smoking circles, hen parties; gossip guised as incontrovertible evidence against faerie brothers who were either not popular or were acting out in strange ways. Part of Creekland’s mythos is that being there can unexpectedly pull out strong emotions. Some faeries showed up on our Sanctuary doorstep wounded, or needy, or on a bad drug trip. I had always believed that we had the healers necessary within the diversity, comity, and strength of our circle to deal with our problems without calling in the police to take away our brothers in handcuffs. A lot of faeries just wanted a place that they could show up, have sex and party without being bothered by anybody exhibiting a spiritual crises. The torch and pitchfork brigade were waiting in the shadows ready to run any monster out of paradise.
A friend of mine came under attack, here’s my letter about this published in the November/December 1985 edition of the RadDish
November 19,1995
“ I have never been threatened by Todd Bales. Quite the contrary, I’ve been inspired.
I’ve sat upon the upstairs porch of Garden House visiting with friends or contemplating the beauty and magic of our Sanctuary.
Todd built much of that porch.
Other times I’ve looked through books to read from the bookcases he built for Garden House. On Samhain a group of revelers fired up the rocks for the sweat lodge that Todd built back below the Barn.
Maxxine’s altar that Todd made inspired me to build something similar when I returned from this summer’s gathering.
Todd can build and play intricate musical instruments with his hands. I go to gatherings partly to meet creative people like him. I don’t know why Todd got so upset. When I spoke with him I felt he was processing a lot of pain and loss as we have all experienced at our Sanctuary. There the blood, come, piss, and ash lie of so many dear brothers and lovers ripped away from us by this damned holocaust. Our only connection left with these brothers are the memories that ride the winds through our Sanctuary. What would it
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feel like to get banned from this place? To be told “if you’re not happy, just leave!”
Why was Todd so upset? Could it be…judgement?
From the RadDish Vol. 4, #9, page #3: “emotionally disturbed and violent faerie.”
And page #4: “The faeries long term problem about being dysfunctional about refusing to set limits for people who abuse us… The few people who can’t deal with the vast majority who want to set limits on “fucked-up” behavior just hold the rest of us hostage.”
Are we talking about our faerie brothers, or Newt’s Republican Congress? From page #7: “When a faerie who was having severe emotional problems violently attacked the gathering for the remainder of the night…so faerie brothers, if you are violently insane please refrain from coming to our gatherings, or at least take your medication.”
RadDish Vol. 4, #10, page #3: “If someone becomes insane or violent… who is responsible for having a plan to deal with and dealing with the situation.” From page #4: TODD BALES has his own headline and section now and is accused of “spraying people in the smoking lounge with a garden hose and making death threats.” I was there when Todd threatened our lives with a garden hose. There was a severe fire danger for the land’s dryness, and Todd was damping down the area for safety. I think if Todd intentionally wanted to spray anyone, we’d still be picking their drag out of the creek.
The rest of the section is about banning him and setting limits, three day passes, and if Todd could be “trusted” back on the land. From #12 of the 11-95 Great Circle Agend-a-matic: The terms used to describe Todd are “two day long manic psychotic episode, violent and abusive to nearly everyone there.” I had a good experience visiting with Todd,and did not see him attack anyone. And also from # 12: “The reality is that the vast majority of faeries who cannot and should not have to deal with violent, psychotic, abusive behavior and are held hostage at gatherings by the small number of faeries exhibiting incredibly fucked up out of control behavior and those who support their presence at gatherings.”
Well, I’m one of “those who support their presence at gatherings.” I have always been able to talk with Todd, he is a friend. Please, dear brothers, don’t use psychobabble terminology to label him for being his friend. Please don’t ban me, set limits on me, or issue me a day pass to visit our Sanctuary.
Also, does the “violent, psychotic, abusive behavior tag apply to a certain Corporate Secretary who earlier this year screamed, swore, and threatened one of his nemesis out of a circle at the Sanctuary?
When I first became involved with the faeries, a big turn on for me was Harry Hay’s concept of “subject-subject” relating to our brothers, instead of the “subject- object” objectification imposed upon us too often by general society. Labeling hurts. Maybe Todd was scared to talk and open up to people who so casually would label and dismiss him.
Can we as individuals who have valid concerns please talk to people who concern us instead of talking about them? Could we not cast judgments and pop psychology labels against our brothers? And never use again any group process to malign or ban any of our brothers in need during this cold season of death.”
Brrrrrrrrrrrr! The stark prophesy of that letter sends chills to my spine! Already the
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Torch and Pitchfork brigade began to draw up their lists of who is naughty or nice: a
purge of faerie undesirables to forge a new faerie master race to party in paradise. The unpopular children are not invited.
Todd was eventually chased of the Sanctuary. The community on the land began tweaking the Nomenus by-laws to grant them more and more authority of when to execute the ultimate faerie judgment of banishing bad brothers out of the faerie community. The community on the land also gave themselves the power to decide who can live at the Sanctuary, a decision that originally had been decided by the membership at Great Circle. Now one individual with an agenda that they don’t have to disclose can block anyone from entering our Sanctuary. One person can now decide through the Nomenus process who must leave our Sanctuary under threat of arrest by the outside law enforcement machine. Deciding Sanctuary residency at Great Circle was said to be cumbersome , uncertain, and open to problems. This was when the community on the land began to grow autonomously apart from the original Nomenus vision of a sacred faggot space. Nomenus became all about community. THEIR community.
Oskarr who had been such a skilled and loving peacemaker on the Sanctuary passed. Gary Reagan/ Aunt Dottie moved into Theresa and continued manifesting many of Oskarr’s gentle ways. The “pixie chronicles” said this about Gary “One of the best lies of all time was when the President Emeritus (now in exile), with a nail through his nose and hair full of sardine oil, greeted the law while a big old scrotum burning ritual was taking place at the fire pit. Dozens of male virgins with hymens intact, intoxicated elders, disembodied spirits, and the like were nakedly displaying their genitalia and drumming hedonistically. Contraband was strewn about and openly displayed. Really incriminating contraband, not just misdemeanor stuff.
The President Emeritus stopped the law in their tracks as they drove up lights flashing. As they approached the garden, the President stares them down with a gentle smile and shook their hands. A few nods later they drove off. The president later confided that he lied through his teeth to move them along so quickly… Without the President Emeritus lying boldly and courageously, the Land would have been lost to developers and many of us would still be in jail. Thank you for lying Mr. President!” This is my remembrance of Gary that was published in Vol.13, #5 of the RadDish: “I still keep Aunt Dottie’s business card in my address book, it reads: Gary J. Reagan (Retired) No Phone No Address No Service No Complaints No Business No Worries No Money No Prospects
I remember Gary in the spring methodically pulling the young burr plants by hand from under the Maple tree so faeries at later summer gatherings would not get their drag snagged. He also removed the poison oak from areas like the smoking lounges so no unwary city faeries would get a bad rash from their gathering experience. He practiced many such considerations to better the magic of faerie space, Quietly seeking no credit. When Gary lived in Theresa he maintained a open door policy where anyone anytime could go and chill if the gatherings overwhelmed them. If somebody was going through a bad trip Aunt Dottie was there for them. Hr always kept a stash of cold sodas in the fridge of Theresa for visitors. It was like visiting a favorite eccentric aunt , he generated what is best about family and community. When he would crawl up into his loft to sleep often there would still be a party of friends underway in Theresa. Aunt Dottie never asked
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anyone to leave.
I can still see myself sitting on the steps of Theresa with Gary, my arm around his shoulder, watching the first bats of the evening flip and swoop after insects attracted to the light from the porch. Hearing the laughter of faeries drifting up across the meadow from the barn. Hearing the droning song of crickets living in his garden. The smell of sage on warm summer breezes turning autumnal. Aunt Dottie………….”
Once in a circle on the land a stupefying faerie stood and stated that he did not want to be in circle with anyone who is H.I.V. positive, to make some stupefying point. At the time my lover Ted was back home slowly dying, and I fled the circle in tears. Aunt Dottie came and found me crying on the upstairs porch of Garden house, and he held and rocked me. Gary knew and cared. Gary touched people that way. Another fond memory of Gary: when he came, his body was so hypersensitive and he would vibrate so much I was afraid he would fall off the bed if not outright fly through the ceiling when he orgasmed.
Certain interests began to push to get Gary to leave the Sanctuary. Voices were raised about his health. To date he was the only caretaker to be charged rent for living in Theresa. Voices said that no faerie should ever expect to live long term at the Sanctuary. Finally one day Gary packed up his truck and drove of Creekland, never to return or be involved with the faeries again.
The whorls and swirls of red dust kicked up by Gary’s truck as he drove across the bridge for the last time birthed the big bang of the pixie campaigns. The flutter of a butterfly’s wings that culminates in hurricanes.

A brief history of banishing faeries off the Sa - 2006/08/27 07:40 Gary, aka Aunt Dottie, passed a few years back, having never returned to the Wolf Creek Radical Faerie Sanctuary.
I included this because back then one of the key movers against him was now senior Caretaker Rabbit. One of the arguments used against Gary was no one should expect to live long term on the Sanctuary. Living on disability, Rabbit and others moved to have Gary pay rent.
Today Rabbit has lived on the Sanctuary going on nine years, Nomenus pays for his room and board living in a lovely cabin on Sanctuary. Rabbit also collects a stipend from money donated to Nomenus and the Sanctuary, while working full time for the ---- ----- ---. Rabbit also sells herbs and extracts, often harvested from the land itself.
Surely Rabbit can afford to pay rent.

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