i had two. well they were as hope hand fear... 8feet plus one in elegant white one in secretive black... my self was falling apart first time at the burn.yet i was dealing with the new world .living one step by one step.. i had set up my art next to my friend Esatva he told me it would be right... well just behind me were two of the most beautiful goddesses iv happend to see...after a while we decided to go into the playa from the cafe we were at.. well to make a realy odd long story short .. my heart was heald by a woman named leal she was, id have to say the first woman ive fallen in love with that had nothing to do with sex ..at all.... it was odd and it hurt i new she wasnt for me... but i couldnt tell my heart that ... she litteraly sang my hearts captor into distruction.. it hurt but it was free..... and ever sense ive been borderline crackin up..knowing someone changed my life forever.. and that i wish i could share time and space with them ... yet to them you were just another random hippie boy.cute blue eyes dread locks.. but let me tell you . i havent the words to discribe the very feeling i get with just glimmer of a thought of her.... but alas thats the irony of the burn....boom boom bang zing fast fast fast right into a wall and all thats left is that small peice that seems to be that which is indistructable... and you know... even though i was awakend to the beautiful pain of the heart... and every thought that should bring happieness brings a sort of discomfort or pain and every bit of pain and discomfort brings me happieness... its all out of order and just how it should be. its odd that im blessed and tourtured by the same acts so i guess she helped me learn to walk the line between... because you know all the shit that hurt i would do again everyday for the rest of my life...... just to feel the sense of freedom you feel from having the walls around your heart stripped ripped and blown away... that tug... till i think i might die.... dramatic huh... imagin . it was my personal most monumental step in growth and all its done is free me from my cage and thrown me into the jungle... with out the face that brought that freedom...without her face i seem lost.... yet she did not leave me without tools.. thank you for the inspiration and for doing that which you did not know... ps if any of you know her ..just listen to her sing....thanks ive needed to talk to someone for a while...ive been stuck on a mountain for a month .. thank you burn bright..pps you know when you get back from the burn how everyone thinks your so flippin sexy.... isnt it flattering .. but damn it makes it confusing when you can have all but the one you want...maybe its that damn hope and fear again is it two or maybe just a very tricky one.....