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Alright, breathing some life back into this Tribe! Seriously though, little or big, what makes you feel jealous? Topic away!
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Oregon
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Well I guess that a offspring of jellousy would be angry, maybe even envy... I guess I suffer from this when I put really good intentions into something like a party and work my ass off to bring people together, and then other peoples concious or sunconcous thoughts fuck with my energies and cause sistuations to go wrong... Like when I throw a party and do my best to create memories in people lives and hope to bring them life changing experiances, and allow the family to expand the network of each other, then other energies work against me manifesting events to go horribly wrong, and dog on me for my efforts... I'm not really jealous of the success of other promoters, but I think that if people were more willing to help one another (setting their preconcieved notions aside) that events in life (such as dance party's) would go more smooth with support... So I guess I'm jealous of myself for having compassion and love and understanding for people when it seems like most people dont.... Well there's my rant.... And my point is this.... I'm a good person, and peoples views get scewed, twisted, and ill-informed people make me jealous because I dont have the power to control their thoughts and show them the light of the truth.... Thats what makes me jealous.... People who have the power to voice false facts and influance the minds and opinions of the family with their pre-concieved notions... Anyways, I'm going to Ken Kesey square now for the last hour of music......
LOVE YOU ALL
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well, ok... there is one. I guess I will start with what makes me jealous in polyamory: The feeling that new love interests or ones that are old and sparked again leave current partners feeling un...attended if you will. Irrational as it is I find myself caught up in the age old social flaw known as jealousy, which is at least the first stage towards moving past it. I find it hard to cope with the fact that when this happens(love interests) I feel a lack of closeness and feel left behind, which I discovered years ago is a product of my own insecure mind. So it is not that I am unaware so much as I am watching myself feel and act this way knowing it is not needed. My partners love and care for me as I them, and the important thing to remember is that the actions they take in other interests really have very little to do with me, but have to do with the fact that it makes them happy. They are not trying to hurt anyone or make them feel unwanted or insecure, they are pursuing what makes them smile and be filled with joy, which is important to me... that they are happy.
So that is what makes me jealous, anyone else brave enough to point a high powered microscope at their Egos?
Kris
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The surprise of finding out I'm not going to get to spend time with my sweetest sweetie when I was thinking we were going to be together brings up jealous feelings in me.
For example, talking for several weeks about plans to got to a friends party together and then being told that my sweetie was just reminded by her other partner that she had promised him to spend the weekend with him a few weeks ago. She had forgotten the promise and never told me about it. Though our plans for the weekend weren't "promised" I had some expectations that we would go together. Another similar occurance would be when less than an hour before I get out of work she lets me know that she's going to be spending a few hours with him instead of being home when I got there as I hoped. I saw here there a couple hours earlier and there was no mention that she might be somewhere else when I got home.
Both of those experiences brought up a bit of envy in me because he's getting to see her at times I want to also, but there is also the jealous feeling that I'm loosing these times that I, more or less, expected to spend together with her. I don't think it would be so bad if I knew her/his plans before I had much of a chance to come up with my own.
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I totally empathize brotha. One other thing for me is feeling that I might miss a once in a lifetime experience with one of my beautiful primaries that I love and that they will experience that with someone else or others... That makes me feel deeply jealous. I am doing my best to evolve past these things, realizing that them being happy is important too, but it is hard when it feels as if they don't always take that level of consideration. Anyone else?
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