So have those in power yet they are still sitting in their positions and collecting the profits as us peasants moo like cattle to the slaughter. I really would LOVE to have a brighter outlook on all of this but it seems impossible.

I ask myself the same question every day actually. Possibly because if nothing else there is always hope. Even if that hope is futile and useless. Sometimes it's the only thing that keeps me going. Plus the pills I have will make me bleed to death internally which will be very painful and miserable and god only knows how long or prolonged it would take. I'd much rather prefer having 5 syringes each with 100mg of morphine and just slam them one after another really fast into my arm. Then just float away painlessly on a little fluffy cloud. You think 500mg would be enough? Maybe I should make it 1000 just to be sure? I took 200mg in pill form once and was sick for 2 days. Maybe a morphine suicide could be miserable too. What would actually be the best, quickest and painless way to self euthanize / terminate. Game over. The end.

Well, since you are ready and all. Why not ~? " <------- Sounds like you'd enjoy it too much. So I guess I will NOT commit suicide just because Cliff wishes I would. lol Like Ozzy says "I'm not going away". and "All my life I've been over the top. I dont know what I'm doing but I dont want to stop!"