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pain and fear

sparktrue — Thu, 19 Jun 2008 07:36:26 GMT

i am not taking action for months
intellectually I know what needs to be done
and what I want
but emotionally and subconsciously I associate
pain and rejection to dealing with going forward with any of these things
from past experience
therefore even though I know
I can't overcome the feeling that shuts me down.

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Pushed

Ron — Fri, 14 Mar 2008 09:02:23 GMT

How come if you start getting accepted in a tribe someone comes along and pushes you out in a cruel way?
everything was fine till "someone" showed up and then the atmosphere changed.
then you get accused of sending bad pm,s to them. I have never in my time on tribe sent a pm to anyone in anger,only nice things.
on the other hand i have received a lot of bad angry pm,s which i just dont understand why.
I came on tribe for accept not rejection.

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POEM

sparktrue — Wed, 20 Feb 2008 23:41:27 GMT

I'll post this here first for some thoughts... then I think
I'll post it to my blog....

GIVING UP ALL ADDICTIONS

No one can love me No one can hate me
No one will ever touch me No one will ever hit me
No one will ever help me No one will ever hurt me
No one can heal me No one can damage me
No one will support me No one will stop me
No one will lift me up No one will knock me down
No one can compliment me No one can insult me
No one can accept me No one can reject me
I am al-one I am all-one
I am love All one is love.

rr - LA 2/20/08

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Posting rejection

sparktrue — Tue, 19 Feb 2008 04:30:26 GMT

lately I have been posting in threads in which I had a lot
of interaction and lately ... there is like no response...
recently I posted in a thread "where is everyone" and
I wrote I was in NYC and seeing some major plays and
doing other cool stuff... and then the conversation just continued
on around me like I hadn't said a word.... I know
that I should not read into it but that outcome
looks and feels a lot like being ignored.

i post this to share a very real feeling of rejection,
but also to say that I know I need to not take it that way.
cheers
rr

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relearning to crawl

ravenshadow — Fri, 15 Feb 2008 03:02:15 GMT

revVrob suggested i post this here.

my eyes are shut and here we go...be kind...but be honest.

[ send ]

"i am one who has been stagnated by fear of rejection and one who questions acceptance..."are there motives here that are not so apparent? this is just some cruel set up for rejection isn't it? this fearfulness developed slowly over the past 10 years or so, i was fairly confident and used to shrug off rebuffs easily, now i am paralyzed...i wonder if perhaps i'd not given so freely of myself and forgiven with magnanimity i would not have experienced the deep disappointment and loss of faith in others...the real world chews and spits out the naive.

let me stop there before this devolves into misanthropic nonsense, i do not have hatred for the world. i am just unsure...of myself in it...i am reminded of the first time i attempted taking hold of the bars on a spinning school yard merry-go-round.

forgive me for the incoherent rambling."

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Good vs. Bad...

sparktrue — Wed, 04 Jul 2007 02:22:17 GMT

so trying to make something good is full of
judgement and potential acceptance / rejection...
but making something bad...
or just as an experiment with no intent to make it necessarily "good"
or "GOOD ENOUGH" often frees up creativity...
like on the BAD ADVICE ON ANY SUBJECT tribe...
there is no fear about giving bad GOOD advice...
since the advice is all pre-labeled bad members can be as creative as they
like with little concern about approval....
I also think about the Robert Rodregez movie
El Mariachi... the film was made as an experiment...
never thinking it would be "good enough"
to be distributed as a "Hollywood release" but it was.....

so posts that begin good vs. bad would be attempts to
create without worry about being "good enough" and with the freedom
to be as bad as may be.
cheers
revv

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ALONE

sparktrue — Wed, 04 Jul 2007 02:12:49 GMT

so I just created this tribe and I am the only member...
all alone
just the place where I shut down the most when it comes to creativity....
if I have someone to collaborate with no problem...(or certainly a lesser / more managable problem)

I have been avoiding work I need to write now for over a month...
might well loose job and income....

but what do I want to say to start
Fuck the world and everyone in it....
Here I am alone and all I need is someone to come and help me...
but I mean like do it for me....
not because I am lazy but because as long as I can stay in the realm of thought
i'm fine...
when it comes to putting it on paper my own internal feedback is a nightmare...
no, not good enough...
if someone else puts my ideas on paper, then I can be constructive, guide,
create...
it all most go back to some emotional trauma and some
particular make up...
but none the less there is anger....
and hurt....
and a nightmare of being trapped...frozen...
unable to move or do anything....

so fuck you all for not saving me...
for rejecting me when this is the best I can come up with
ahhhh piss.

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new title

sparktrue — Thu, 02 Aug 2007 06:59:09 GMT

so I've gone ahead and changed the title of the tribe a bit...

adding "and risk"

it seems to me that one of the key factors in fear of rejection
is the resources to be ready willing and able to take risks....

in some sense also a comfort with the unknown....
I think people who are always afraid of rejection are always looking
for "how" to do something... How will I be good at writing... How will I say the right
thing and then keep analysing it ....

but in fact we know that all great art and thought and activity come from....
No - thing.... from the silence... from the void....

In order to make great art one must not think about it .... or at least think about it
enough to practice and then get to the point where it becomes just an act without
any need to second quess it because that derails the process... you can't play a
great piece of music if you keep stopping to think about how you are playing the
instrument....

so at a key point risk has to be taken... surrender must be acceptable.
cheers
revv

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good vs. bad... writing

sparktrue — Wed, 04 Jul 2007 02:29:35 GMT

a boy sits in a closet shaped room with wires hooked up to his head...
a computer is using his brain as a curcuit - a node...
and the boy gets paid by the hour to let the computer use his bio-computer / brain
for processing it cannot do with non-organic chips....

but then.... the boy begins to be able to reverse the process...
now he is using the computer to process info he cannot do with his brain...

at first there is a conflict a fight...
but then the boy and the computer find they are perfect allies...

the boy steals millions of dollars from various global institutions
including some chases and close calls...

but in the end he gets away with all the money....

and in the end he sits down on a plot of ground with the wires removed
but the computer interface still accessible and starts gardening.

whatever.
r.

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