That is just so cool Doe. I was just thinking the other day, that I really don't take enough time for myself and therefore am in a constant state of different ranges of frustration, because there is a constant sense of dissatisfaction with myself. Whoa, sorry about the long sentence. So are you just trying to be in the "now" more?

Hey there Doe, I have to think on this mom stuff....this can be deep....ok, when my mom moved in there was a control issue, she basicly wanted me to bow down on everything. I realized that because of what she felt she should have done as a mother but did not do so, she felt she had the right to come into my space and tell me how to be with my daughter, how to raise her etc...but at the same time she did not want to share me with my daughter or husband...it was bizarre and very confusing....I feel once we have left home, we have had children on our own, we are over 30 and have experienced our hard times, good times, etc. I truly feel that our parents should not feel the have the right to tell us how to live, what to do, how to be with our kids, where to work, how to dress, eat, and how to think....were we not born with the go how or the learning of how we can make our lives....really!

I am going to be 49 yrs old next month, I have experienced much, I know who I am, my potential as a mother and a provider...so you do not have to answere to anyone but yourself, no matter what circumstance you are under, or what you feel is right for you, you only need to answere to yourself and take care of yourself and just look into those beautiful eye's of you children and know you will be taken care of because you have the faith and the gumption to make it so....ok...I stand next to you dear one, I have traveled that single mother with child road and I remember how it was, but your heart and your mind is so powerful, you know you can be happy with yourself and depression or self doubt does not have to come your way any longer.......love to you Doe...lakotawolf