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Shaman Intro

FourHawks — Mon, 01 Oct 2007 05:15:31 GMT

WHAT IS SHAMANISM? (Shaman Intro)

"Shamans" are people through whom Healing and Sustenance flow from Helpers and Guides in the Spirit World to those who come seeking his or her Help. As you read this introduction and some of the other entries on this site, consider whether what I do could likewise bring you Healing, Understanding and Peace. You can contact me on the "View My Complete Profile" Page (the link to this page is at the bottom of the "About Me" column on the top right side of this page). This blog contains over 200 of my 650-plus Shamanic Journeys.

Shamanism has been practiced across every pre-Western Culture, and for thousands of Years...and is now flourishing again across our World, as traditional religious Organizations fall short in helping some people reach full Spiritual Health, and achieve their spiritual Destiny.

Despite a total lack of Connection, each Shamanic Culture came to virtually the same Conclusions, and performed similar Rituals and Ceremonies, in communicating with and honoring the Spirit World. This Spirit World, although the Basis of all Existence and therefore Life itself, is woefully unexplored by most modern Cultures and Religions. It is hinted at by asking one to have "Faith" that it is there, but most can only hope that it is, and really know nothing of it (accept for stories they have heard of unexplained events from family and friends). A Shaman has learned to visit this World at Will, and to deal with and get help from Spirits who live there eternally. They are always waiting to bring Answers, Help and Healing to us who are living in this Existence/Reality...just one of many, by the way. Hence, "Hope" is replaced with Certainty, what some Shamans, myself included, call the "Knowing."

A Shaman is a Man or Woman who has been called in one way or another to learn how to interact with the Spirit World to bring about Healing, Good Fortune, Blessing, etc. for the People or a Person. This involves first adopting a centered Existence in which all Life and Everything are honored as Sacred Extensions of the Great Spirit, as opposed to being Tools for one’s own status-advance and wealth-building. One learns the Language of Nature, through which the Spirits can reach us all the time..when we listen. Then, the Shaman trains to perform the Duties required to become the “Channel” or “Hollow Bone” for the Spirit Helpers to work through. For in all Cases, it is not the Shaman who brings Healing or Correction. It is the Helpers working THROUGH the Shaman, who serves as their Intermediary, who give the Knowledge to the ill Person, whose Healing Mechanism can then be activated to achieve the all-powerful Self-Healing.

Shamans know that in many Cases, true Healing comes from removing Spiritual Dirt, Damage or Invasion, which often later manifests as a physical, emotional or mental Ailment. Moreover and most importantly, all Healing comes from within. Most “miracle” or “spontaneous remission” cures of modern Science are the result of the Ill Person achieving a self-induced cleansing of their Spirit Being. This is accomplished through changed Thinking and the discharge of Toxic Beliefs, arrived at through activation of the link to the Spirits, without knowing how. Shamans can cleanse People of these Spirit Illnesses, and this leads to Healing in all other aspects as well.

Other Illness is caused by a Person’s losing a Part of their Soul, due to a traumatic Event in their Youth, Gestational Period...or even a Past Life. These Soul Parts flee to a Safe Place in the Spirit World. The Shaman goes out to find and retrieve it, and then restore it to the Person, who then re-achieves Healing and Wholeness. This restored Spirit State leads to Healing in many more instances than People can achieve by themselves.

Sometimes illness is caused by more simple problems, such as a messed-up Chakra. At the bottom of this Intro, I discuss these a bit. Finally, of course, many Illness and Conditions are simply there as Defects in our Health and must be dealt with by Physicians...part of our Earth Walk.

A Shaman can: retrieve lost/forgotten/future Information (fortune telling); contact deceased loved ones or friends; locate lost objects; analyze and alter Energy States in those who have fallen ill physically, mentally, emotionally and/or spiritually; restore missing Soul Pieces; remove spiritual Intruders, etc. Again, much Illness and Unease derives from at least one Problem in a person’s spiritual State, be it an Intrusion of foreign Energy or a Loss of a part of one’s Soul. In Western Cultures, the predominant “seeing is believing” Mentality leaves People wide open to all sorts of unseen Spiritual Maladies that are simply not healed by physical and/or psychological Interventions. Even though the Symptoms may be eased or eliminated, the root Cause remains and the Problem returns. Shamans, however, can see into a person’s Spirit Body and ascertain what the root Cause of Illness is, and then attempt to remove it. Sometimes Shamanic Intervention is not allowed, though...more on that below.

It's worth mentioning here how important Thoughts are. Many believe the Great Spirit has thought, and continues to think, the entire Universe, us included, into Being. This Insight is most prevalent among Incan Shamans. One's own Thoughts likewise have creative Power. Whatever you think, you are right.

Incan Shamans have known for millennia that one can literally "dream one's world into being" with enough power of Intent. Even Western Culture is full of many successful people who have done just that. You can manifest all Sorts of Success and Healing, or Failure and Illness, into your Life with your Thinking. This is why the Knowing is so crucial. What you think about the People, Places and Events of your Life has a profound Influence on how those Things effect you. I always used to tell my children that nothing anyone says to you can hurt you unless you let it. Accepting all Things and Events as Teachers versus Aggravants is the key. Knowing of the true Nature of All helps you think in Ways that strengthen your Spirit Being and bring Beauty to others through your Thoughts. I recently worked with a Woman who was being pursued by a Dark Spirit, thought into being by herself in a prior Life!

One of many Tools, the Shaman's Journey involves honoring the Helper Spirits and then using, in many cases, a steady Drumbeat to reach the brain-wave Level where the Spirit of the Shaman can leave his or her Body and venture out into one or more of the three Spirit Worlds (Upper, Middle and Lower) for guidance. Most People pass through this Brain-wave state on their way to and from Sleep, and so many Spirit Appearances occur at this these Times. Shamans have learned to stay at this intermediate level for minutes, indeed hours on end. Dancing and drumming together are also employed.

Many Journey Results come in metaphor Form, and are therefore best interpreted by the Shaman working with the One being helped. Sometimes the Events are not shown as they happened exactly..or even close, but the underlying Wounding that resulted IS real. The Reason for the Inaccuracy is that People tend to try to block out and disown the Memories of such Events. However, when the Shaman investigates, the Wounding Energy presents itself in a different but still interpretable Form. So even though key Events from earlier in life may come in a bit hazy, they are accurate in Essence.

I have never received erroneous Info from the Helpers. It is up to the Helped One to try to decipher the true Meaning of the Information, but the Shaman is there to help with a lot of the Imagery not readily understood in our Culture.

The Upper World is the Place of Guidance/Future and many high Shaman Spirit Ancestors who know much and also us, and houses the Upper World Soul (genealogical in nature...links to blood ancestry) called the Ami (pronounced “em”) in Mongolian-based Shamanism. We have a link to our Eternal Soul Essence which resides in this World through our uppermost Chakra. This Essence reincarnates over and over as we progress spiritually.

The Middle World is where we live now, and our Soul Piece here is called the Suld ("soold"). It remains here after Death to help Those left behind, and eventually merges into Nature as a Helper Spirit. There are many such Spirits here (sometimes referred to as ‘ghosts”). There are also many Shaman Helper Spirits here as well. Unbeknownst to most Westerners, Animals, Trees, Rivers, Mountains and Stones also have their own Spirit Essences that have much to offer. Our World is FILLED with Spirits, helpful and otherwise, and yet how few of us accept this as Reality...and pay the Price. Some have witnessed that the "spirit" Middle World runs parallel to ours, with quite a few Variations at play. This would explain Dreams we have in which things seem almost right, but then have weird Morphings ongoing.

The Lower World is the Place of Empowerment/the Past and houses the Soul Part known as the Suns ("soons"), which carries past-life Information. This World also houses Peoples’ “Power Animals”, actual Spirit Beings who take the form of an Animal to bring to you the Strengths and Abilities of that particular Animal, that you may be weak or lacking in. Everyone receives a Power Animal at Birth, but in Western Cultures most People lose them...because they don’t even know they are there. Shamans journey to retrieve Peoples’ lost Power Animals and restore these needed Strengths to People.

All three Worlds are beautiful and lush..I have seen is no Evidence of the Fire/Torture-driven Hell promulgated by some Western Religions in my Journeys. I have seen, however, a Dimension some call the Astral Plane where raging, confused and temporarily dangerous Earth Souls go to cool off, or await eventual Extraction and Healing by a Shaman. The Upper and Lower World Souls reincarnate, the Middle World Soul does not. Most Middle World Souls help those they have left behind and after several Generations become a more broad-based Spirit. Upper and Lower World Spirits usually return to their respective Worlds and await their Reincarnation. The "worst" Souls, who have gone totally "negative", are usually not allowed to reincarnate, as they are too disturbing to the Sacred Balance. Yet we have to accept that even these Being are manifestations of the same Great Spirit who has manifested as everything and everyone else. I have made quite a few Visits to Middle World Souls on behalf of Clients who wish to know how their deceased Loved Ones are doing.

Trouble occurs when Middle World Souls from people who have died, or Lower World Souls that come back up here illegitimately (or refuse to “go home” is the first place), attach themselves outright to "our world.". These Spirit Invasions can occur when either the after-Death Middle Soul or Lower World Soul latch onto a Person or Place where it does not belong. The Invasions can be by either Relations Souls, or total Stranger Souls.

Troubles can also arise if People offend Spirits living in their Area with actions that dishonor Nature. During a Journey, the Shaman sees these Souls and tries to right their Path. There are also those Dark Entities that must be dealt with, some quite dangerous. The worst of all Dark Spirit Beings are usually "dissolved" prior to becoming Threats again, as I mentioned just above.
In manifesting itself, the Great Spirit has taken Forms that run the Gamut from Light to Dark, Good to Bad, Positive to Negative...in an effort to achieve Sacred Balance (also called Yin/Yang), and allow us to attempt to do likewise. So, there is Plenty of what I call “Dark Being Energy” out there that can cause Illness. This Energy is often able to be transmuted so that the effected Person can return to living with normal, manageable and balanced amounts of “good and bad”. This Balance is the key to a successful Life. No-one is perfect, but striving to cancel a debilitating "Darkness" with the "Light", and then add a bit more Light, is the Goal. The Shaman is skilled at transmuting this Dark Energy...that is, removing it and returning it to the Spirit World for conversion to Good Energy.

Events in this or a prior Life that were very emotionally challenging can also “imprint” into one’s Spirit body and become a source of Illness. Villoldo (see the book section at the bottom) goes into this with great detail. Our Energy Bodies (the Aura) easily absorb Energies from any Source, so if one is unaware of an Intrusion of negative Energy, one can liken this Imprint to rubbing your Eyes after touching a Germ-infested Doorknob...the Illness manifests in Secret. These Events can also cause partial Soul Loss, and the Shaman journeys to bring this Piece back to the effected Person. These are closely related to Chakra problems.

Shamans have many Tools beyond the Journey given them by their Spirit Helpers to deal with these Beings, but always rely on Help from one or more Higher Spirits that are working with the Shaman. These Helpers often appear at first in the form of totem Animals, such as Owls, Hawks, Deer, etc. Humans relate better at first to these Forms than they would the Spirit itself, and can use the Qualities of that Totem in their Shamanic work as well.

If a Shaman happens to end up alone in a bad Situation while in the Spirit World, he or she calls for Help immediately...and it always arrives. Shamans always journey with at least one Guide or "Power Animal" for such Strength and Protection. I have at least five I rely on and honor. I just recently came very close to being taken from here while rescuing someone's Soul Piece. My main Helper pulled me to safety in the nick. It is WELL WORTH THE RISK, though, to restore someone to their intended personal Beauty. Some of the other Tools I use include the Sacred Pipe; antique Mongolian "Toli" (Brass Shaman "Mirrors"); ancient Moqui Stones; clear Quartz and other Crystals; Feathers; Tarot Cards; Divination Coins; and Smudge (Sage, Juniper, Sweet Grass).

Shamans can move through Time and Space instantaneously, going into the Future or Past, and change (shape-shift) into other types of Beings, such as Birds. In fact, in the Center of Existence where Shamans go to at the Journey's Beginning, all of Time and Space, from all Realities and Universes, meet at that one Point, known in Physics as a “Singularity” and in Mongolian Shamanism the “Gol”. From there, the Shaman can go anywhere in Space or Time, again nearly instantly. Fire from a Candle is usually the main physical representation of the Gol.

Another Key Concept: Sacred Path. Because we are comprised of Soul Parts that reunite for subsequent Lives, we each come here with a Spiritual Plan. This Plan may involve a wonderful Life..or a Life filled with Suffering and early Death. The Goal is to be a stronger Spirit when leaving than when we arrived. However, we forget this Plan at Birth and spend the rest of our Lives either trying to remember...or not. Many never do, and live with an Incompleteness that can be added to by Spirit Illnesses, either inherited or obtained while in this Life.

But in most Cases, Shamans do not Journey for People unless the Shaman is asked...we do not want to interfere with the Sacred Path of the Individual until they themselves recognize something is amiss. I have, however, been allowed to journey for some Folks out of Love, and been given valuable Information to try to heal them with. However, since the Person does not know of this Help, they do not “own” and incorporate it, and the Effects of the Journey may therefore be considerable watered down...again, it depends of whether or not the Person’s Sacred Path included a behind-the-scenes Intervention by a Shaman or not.

Finally, a Shaman does not share by-name Information with others unless the Person being helped allows it. I learned this Sacred Path Concept most strongly in my Study of Cherokee Spirituality, who try to maintain it as a major societal dictum. Of all the Shamanic Concepts I have learned, this one flies most strongly in the Face of Western Culture, where interfering with another for their own Good ("we know better"), without their Permission, is almost the number one social Tenet. It is nearly impossible to live in the West and follow this Precept to the Letter, for everyone else around the Situation will demand to know why you did not intervene when you had the Chance, and then excoriate you for failing to do so.

Bottom line: Unless it is your Sacred Path to live with a certain Illness or Situation, a Shaman can fix it IF YOU are willing to be helped: Remember, all Healing comes from Within. The Shaman merely serves as the "go-between" for the Spirits with the Help, and you, the one who puts that help into practice.

Visits of the Spirits as Animals/Clouds: Spirits come to us many times as Animals, for this is a form in which they can talk to us from a physical perspective. The sudden and often startling visit of a Hawk, Owl or Eagle; or even a Blue Jay or Cardinal...a Woodchuck...as you make a critical decision, or even as you drive, can tell you what is coming and what powers you need most. Birds, Four-leggeds, even Cloud Shapes, all can bring you these key messages at precise times. One just has to be open-eyed and ready to read them. :) Ted Andrews' works go into great detail about the Powers and Characteristics each Animal brings. Anyone hoping to understand the Language of the Spirits in terms of Animals and Birds should certainly get copies of his works, or others like it. See my "A Great New Year Coming" entry in this Blog for examples of recent key visits to me...

Chakras. No discussion of Spirit can be complete without mentioning these 8 key Energy Whirlpools embedded in our Auras and connected to our Spines. When one or more of these Vorticies are dirtied, blocked, out of synch, we find manifestations of these Imbalances across the Spectra of Human Life. These range from physical Illness to mental, emotional to spiritual. These can actually be seen using the naked Eyes, and Tom Andrew's has a wonderful little Book out (on Amazon, B&N, etc) on how to do just that. I have used this Book and been able to read the Energy Fields around myself and many others as a result. The first time it works for you, your Mind WILL boggle... There are many ways to clear a damaged Chakra. Alberto Villoldo discusses Methods, as do some of the other Authors listed below. But I have a found a wonderful Website that puts it all right there for you. Visit http://www.neatstuff.net/avalon/texts/know-how.html#study and read away. This site focuses on using Crystals, which I use in my Practice as well. If you do not have a precious-Stone store near you, apparently one can order these from this Site as well.

Shamans do not charge for their services, but do humbly accept tokens of appreciation in any form...whatever the Helped One thinks the services are worth to them. But we do not solicit such compensation. This compensation is to only given to honor the Work of the Spirits, and NOT the Shaman him- or herself.

Also, please read the very first two entries (Jan 8, 2001 and October 19, 2001) before delving into the Journeys themselves..these demonstrate in great detail why I am on this Sacred Path.

Key Knowledge and Training Sources:

My over 550 Journeys to the Spirit World; The Many Protector, Helper and Teacher Spirits I’ve met there; 6 years of Experience; and these Readings:

- Tom Cowan's "Shamanism as a Spiritual Practice for Daily Life"
- Sarangerel’s “Chosen by the Spirits” and “Riding Windhorses”
- Alberto Villoldo’s “Shaman, Healer, Sage”, “Mending the Past and Healing the Future with Soul Retrieval” and "The Four Insights"
- Kenneth Meadows' "Shamanic Experience: A Practical Guide to Psychic Powers"
- Mary Dean Atwood’s “Spirit Healing”
- Jamie Sams' "Medicine Cards" and "Sacred Path Cards"
- Sandra Ingerman’s “Soul Retrieval”
- Michael Harner’s “The Way of the Shaman”
- John Perkins' works on Shamanism
- Ted Andrews' "Animal Speak", "Animal-Wise", "Nature Speak", and "How to Read the Aura"
- Piers Vitebsky's "The Shaman"
- Stevens and Stevens' "Secrets of Shamanism"
Plus about 50 other works..

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Fights with the Dark Beings on my way to Shaman

FourHawks — Thu, 16 Aug 2007 00:02:19 GMT

1. The Two Fiddles Dream (sometime in 2001): "This Dream brought me to my first Encounter with the Dark Force in quite a few Years. I had been hanging around this little square cul-de-sac at night, for some reason. The little patch of Tar was bounded on three side by woods, with just the short outlet road leading to the main road, with a streetlight at the corner, as the fourth side. I had meandered over to the right side (facing the road) of this area when I suddenly saw two, brand new, beautifully perfect, shining, Bass fiddles both lying in a bed of dried Leaves. “My God,” I thought to myself. “What the hell are these thing doing out here unprotected?!” I bend down to touch one of them. I then stood up. As I was staring at them though, I suddenly got this feeling I was not alone. I had a very strong sense that someone or something was behind me...and coming toward me. I never looked back, for it is human nature to just begin walking toward the exit and hope that is enough to dissuade the “whatever” from following. But as I began to hurry down this outlet road toward the Street and Streetlight, I knew I was about to be grabbed. Sure enough, something clamped down violently on my upper shoulders. It was preventing me from moving any further. So I gathered virtually all my strength and tore my upper Body forward with as powerful a lunge as I possibly could. I let out a huge roar as I did so. Halfway through the road, I realized I was sitting up in bed and I had thrust my right shoulder and arm out with incredible force. Heart pounding, I knew I had been visited… It was back…"

2. The Shamanic Dream (The Defeat of the Dark Force): "“In the past few weeks, while driving or out at night, I thought I had been seeing black bird shapes, flying in the dead of night, darker than the sky itself. I also recently had a dream where I was standing in the back yard with my dog, and it was very dark. The trees and buildings were just black shapes. The sky was barely lit. Yet, I saw a very brilliant light shining from behind the shed, where the Pipe is smoked. I knew it was THE Sacred Light, and was thrilled to witness it! Off near the edge of the woods, though, I then saw this black animal walking toward my yard...large and low, hard to put a name to…sinister-looking. Both these things spoke to me of an impending return of the dark force, but I put that aside, hoping it wasn't true.

As the Shamanic dream began, I was walking my dog in my back yard. A huge black bird shape flew in from the west. As I first saw it, I was comforted knowing that I had thought I had been seeing black bird shapes at night. Here at last was proof, I thought. As it flew over me, though, it was huge! And a very dark gray against the black night. As it passed over me, I felt a sudden urge to scream. It was a PRIMAL scream, too...pure fear. All mouth, no sound? I woke up, but on a bed next to mine (where there is none in reality). As I sat up shaking, I felt a small wet touch in my back, like a dog's nose. I thought it was my dog, but it turned out to be my wife's hand, asking if I was OK. I said yes, feeling relieved. At this point, sequence one ended as the real wife woke up to turn in her back pain on our one bed, and I realized the first wake-up involving two beds had also been a dream. As you’ll see, I was in my old birthplace house in my birth town during that wake-up.

In Sequence 2, which began the minute I got back to sleep, I was in my old house again (where the dark force had pulled me down the stairs when I was young...and appeared to me as my mother with horns). I was up in my older sister's room, with my wife, daughter and dog. I was saying goodnight to them. I hugged my wife, then went to hug my daughter. As I hugged HER, the lights went out and it got very dark. She seemed unresponsive as I hugged her. I felt I was being isolated. I backed off to go out into the hall to turn on those lights instead. As I did so, I saw the barely visible face of my dog on top of a small table in the corner next to my daughter, staring at me. The hall lights didn't work either. I felt very unsettled. In my other sister's room, there was a weak glow of light emanating from a corner, but no light was on. I felt quite scared by now, and rushed into my bed room to grab my flashlight under the bed. I did so, it worked, and I started flashing it around. At this point, the dream carried me to a lit room downstairs for a second, with my dog by me. Suddenly, this room downstairs became my bedroom, the very place from which I'd been pulled as a boy. My dog was alert at the foot of the bed, staring at the door. Suddenly, my wife reached down from my right to hug me. I put my arms around her neck and got a much needed dose of love. As I did so, I felt a huge hand clasp her neck and begin pulling her away from me. I asked what the hell that that was, but no answer. This hand lifted both of us out of bed as I held onto her for dear life. When we were upright, I realized this dark shape had full hold of her. I let go of her at this instant in order to convince myself it was a dream, and this dream sequence ended instantly.

At this point, really awake, I was a nervous wreck. I knew what was happening. I was in a spirit war! I girded myself for battle in bed by wrapping myself figuratively in Sage, my War Bonnet, and my Pipe (I would have done so in reality but didn't want to wake up my wife). I knew I was very vulnerable, that the attack was on, that I had to rely on my Medicines to fight. I kept saying to myself, "I am Four Hawks, I am ready." I was praying hard, very nervous about what would happen next when I went to sleep.

Sequence 3 began immediately. I was back in the old house with my wife and her best friend. I was supposed to give the latter a facial makeover, of all things! But as I began, I realized I didn't have all the stuff I needed to do a good job, so I went to my room looking for the facial mask to begin the process, but couldn't find it. I don't recall how we jumped to the next morning, but we were in the kitchen, and I was apologizing to her friend for apparently falling asleep and not finishing with her, when my dog came running in from the back and jumped right on the kitchen table. The friend got up and went to the hall mirror to get ready for work. As I was there helping her and apologizing again, she went to turn on the light, and it didn't work. "Here we go again," I thought. I tried a lamp by the door, but it just has a small blue glow by the switch. I tried the living room light…nothing. So I knew IT was back. The girls took off to go to work, leaving me alone in the house. I was determined to get rid of this presence, so I walked toward the kitchen from the hall and reached back. I could almost see IT as I grabbed this force by the hand and pulled it to the back door. As I got there and went out into the yard, I released it to the Great Spirit. As I did so, I looked up and beheld the most beautiful sky I had ever seen. Bright, white bulbous clouds with long projections (like you see lava lamps) across the sky, with brilliant, closely-packed star clusters against a deep blue where there was clearing. Then, some gray cloud patches went by, one of which had two eyes in it. Directly above me, there was a large circle of light, turning slowly, that was actually a galaxy, complete with gaseous clouds spiraling in. I was so awestruck by the beauty, I did what any 20th century guy would do..ran for the camera! Even as I ran through the house to get it, I looked up and could still see the galaxy through the ceiling! But when I got back out, the sky had gone dark gray again, with just a hint of red at the horizon. Two boys were across the street as I stood there. One ran into the house, so I followed him. He was grabbing two books from the hall bookshelf, smiling, saying my son said it was OK. I asked him nicely not to take them, so he dropped them and ran back out to his friend. Once outside again, I noticed a woman cloaked in a veil, sitting on a bench across the street next to a stalled car. But now, the sky was looking interesting again. Not as gorgeous, but several of those brilliant star clusters were back. So I stood and took a picture. The camera took seconds on end to finish, so I don't know if I got it or not. I then turned and looked...the woman was still there...I could hear music playing softly by her. I was trying to decide if she was in need of help or just resting when the dream ended.

This was an epic shaman's dream. It had all the markings of things I've read about in Native books. I was so shaken I had to get up to write this all down. As I came upstairs, my granddaughter was crying, and my daughter went to her with a bottle. As I sat down to write about my experience at the kitchen table, the light over the sink (as it will do occasionally) went out! :) I had to laugh, given “lights out” was a main motif running though my dreams.

Both the animal in the prior dream and the large black bird at night to begin tonight's sequencing, WERE indeed announcers. My scream as the bird flew past me signaled the beginning of a truly primal, spiritual battle against fear itself. The girl at the end signals the fact that the dark force is still at the edges...remember the cat at the edge of the yard the last time I threw the force out that same back door, and you even wrote, beware of the cat? So the battle will resume again. The fact things went black when I hugged my daughter disturbs me greatly, for I fear she indeed has the same dark force attached to her that used to be attached to me when I was young. My dog's nearly-constant presence is also very interesting, as he has been out of sorts (tail down) for a few days.

Any other dreams after our sandwiches? Actually, yes. We were back here in my current town, on my back porch late at night, my son and I this time. All was quiet, normal. A large car came up our street and stopped in front of our house for a few seconds. It then back into my neighbor's driveway and drove off. I didn't know what it meant in the dream, but now realize it picked up the woman on the bench to take her away...for a while. If anything, though, this monumental fear journey proves my Medicine is strong...Four Hawks lives.

The battle will resume, but I am much stronger now for surviving this one.”

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