ONE



the battle is ONE and gone...

nourishment yearned for

needed to be received

locked up

held away

and left them withering of bone

and of flesh

with hungry hearts

and loins

insatiable

and unfulfilable desire

desperation has been

the path of crumbs

that led me to MY door



why have I not opened to me

fully, wholly

for the angst maintained

for so very long

insisting that you

or someone

would be there

to share

care enough

to prove me wrong



have I not held you away

whilst begging for you to be near

whilst my need

clutched,

pounded

at your chest

no treasure found there

merely a wink in time

of pleasure

then despair



pushed to the edge

and this time

the precipice so high

so vast

so misty, the abyss

she plunges

into the mystery

a future no one knows

alone

she goes

she must



she knows...

surrenders lack

completely

finally understanding

investment in lack

always proves itself to prosper

manifest



there

is just ONE answer

give it over

lay down your arms

idiot

do you not see

IT IS ME

you seek

and look beyond

a billion times

or more

I AM here

give it up

desire

give it up

lack

give it up

attachment



trust

trust

TRUST!



I AM here

always was

always will Be

for I AM

the INFINITE

Heart and Mind

Spirit

as ONE

within thee...





my love, on my doorstep you have been, maybe for a month. please

do not begrudge me this growth. and you think you are ready to unite.

and I question has this unity occurred within your own being or is it

still based upon this desire I write of. either way, it is all fine.

it is again, early wee hours I have been awake and typed out these

words as they came. to be refined, no doubt. but within them the essence

of the freedom they speak of. i seem to be finally getting it.

mmmm... long and arduous do we hammer away for love we refuse to

offer ourselves fully. lets see, if we can be done with this, and then

savor, a lovers kiss, the bliss, fuller union, borne from within, that which

cannot be taken away.

infinite and eternal, as IT is.



An excerpt from my book
copyright Illumina Viula 2006
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