I feel your pain.

I am a cancer. He is a Leo.

I feel in love with him when I was 13 and he was 17.

My mom flipped so hard she moved us out of the state.

I spent the next 20 years 'unsuccessfully' trying to find someone to make me feel like he made me feel.

I suspect in the process I ruined what could have been great relationships because I constantly compared and expected others to be like him.

Well, 3 years ago I got my chance and I tool it ... he lives in California, I in Arkansas. He wooed me with flowers for mothers day, long and passionate love letters and promises of the world ...

We 'hooked up', had a great time and its been downhill every since ... he doesn't return phone calls or texts and claims he doesn't get letters ... he doesn't acknowledge birthdays, valentines day or anything let alone gifts ... (all things he did do in the beginning) ...

I've asked on more than one occassion what was wrong and he claims nothing is wrong and that he loves me like always ...

But his actions speak louder ... it took some doing ... some crying ... and hard realizing that he was not what I needed ... part of my problem was that he was my first love and u never really get past that ... also we never ended things, we were just torn apart ...

But I had to realize that now I'm an adult and capable of making my own choices ... so I chose me ... I cut him lose and moved on ...

Maybe it has something to do with the cancer leo combo ... maybe it has more to do with me not loving myself enough to say when enough was enough ... we as women have to DEMAND respect and we have to realize we are worthy of love ... just as we give it so should we receive it ...

After three years I still miss him ... long for him ... and even find myself comparing others to him ... but its something i intend to work through and change ...

By the way -- if it looks like duck, walk like a duck, sound and smell like a duck -- GUESS WHAT?!