You are not alone.
Don't be afraid of fear. Ha ! Easier said than done.
I think your experience is not uncommon.
I'm not sure what exacly you mean by "awakening" ,but i imagine it is some kind of transcendence of identification with the bodymind and the illussion of a esparate self residing within.
Suddenly all the unconscious,buried shadow aspects of ones life come bubbling up because the ego/censor identity has weakened.
Also the Oneness of Unity Consciousness is stepping up the pace of your evolution, purifying and releasing you from subtles levels of mistaken identity,preparing your bodymindsoul for deeper and deeper levels of realization of the truth of this Great Divine Mystery that is our Life.
Trust in the process unfolding in your bodymind life. It is through surrender to life as it is given ,not as we think it should be,that purifies and release all untruth.
Blessings to you, ~Free

your craziness will turn into wisdom... well, it did for me. I spent years on pharmacuticals while studying about reki and energy. then, with guidance and a lot of patience, I got off the drugs and changed my way of living. the energy that is now awake in you, needs some direction. I found myself doing reki shares, meditation, and yoga. that helped. Even getting outside for a hike or reading a book is a good way to relax. I guess my addvice to you is find someone in your area that can help you understand what is happening. maybe they can help you balance your chakras.

Sometimes when someone has an "awakening" expereience they do it through some form of trama to the body/spirit.

Your body freaks out when your spirit isn't all the way in. It causes you to be confused and feel "scatterd" because you are not "all together. Also when your spirit is not all the way connected with your body it gets tired because there is no power, you are literally unplugged.

This is all easy stuff to reintegrate once you know how to do it. (I have been doing it for over 11 years and have work with many many people on this issue.)

If you have an hour I can help you to integrate your body and spirit. I do all of my work over the phone, so it doesn't matter where you live. Just give me a call.

My website is:
www.unfoldinglove.com

Talk to you soon!
Joanna

cosmic mind: We are one
Ego: We are one?
CM: yes we are.
Ego: nice...what about him? is he one?
CM: yes
Ego: and her too?
CM: yes
Ego: and that tree?
CM: ALL IS ONE
Ego: everything?
CM: EVERYTHING
Ego: but I am still me, how can I be all?
CM: because you, the idea of you is just that, an idea

"once aware of the truth one can only return to life as the merry prankster."

this is a very intense time right now, i believe many people are suddenly waking up simotaneously..there is a lot of fear and control and resistance to this process. let go of what you think is possible and impossible, let go of your sense of needing to be sane, whatever that means, let go and let it happen. and it will work itself out, there are probably some angels around you, some guides, they will whisper what you need to get free of it, hopefully. it makes it easier. what is it that we need to control? what need have you to control your thoughts? or emotions, maybe they are not to be controlled but only felt, as the universe sings it s song in all these feelings we have.it is ok, we will be better than ever once we get through it....i can really relate to what you are saying, and that too feels very healing and comforting, to know we are all going through this together. pray for those on the path of bringing the light to the world to come to meet you in your path and guide you and help you feel more validated in the blossoming of your soul. when we have our meetings and can discuss these things we see that it is ok, we are just humans afterall, trying to make it through it, trying to be fully alive and not just numbly following along with whatever.
there are many voices that try to shut us down, but dont worry about them, they just dont know they are numb and asleep and ignorant and controlled by fear. they are like little children we must be patient with them and with ourselves...... just let all your thoughts and fear go by, allowing them , without attaching too much importance or resistance to them.
this is my best advice, as someone who also has struggled with the panic, as someone who was awaked through intense pain. it is hard to be awakened this way because we havent neccessarily done the preparatory work like the masters who pray for years and and then when the light comes to them they are ready. we are thrown into it, but it is ok, there are many ways, and there are those who are stronger than us who are there to help us, who have already been through it. travelling helps me, but i am a sag, but truly maybe it would do you some good to take a long walkabout, meeting people in the world who are waiting to help you, and it is easier to break patterns and open yourself up when you are in a different environment.
rumi says there is a secret medicine that is given to those who hurt so bad they can't even hope.....the hopers would feels slighted if they knew!

I feel like I am going crazy as well. I have been practicing yoga for over 10 years, and have been feeling very strange lately. I have had Karmas repeating themselves in fast motion; i get irritated extremely easy; I can't stand the way things are; I feel like nobody understands me and things seem upside down. All of my fears have come to the forefront all at once and I am starting to doubt everything.
Any advice?

My Partner has been experiencing the same thing!! Fear...panic...and wanting to run.

Thank you for this Tribe as he feels better knowing he is not the only one out there......
This gives people hope that there is an end to what they are going through.

I have been going through the process for years, and the energy is all around my heart chakra and it creates a lot of pain in my shoulders and arms. My partner has been reading The Power of Now and we find it helps to keep us grounded in the moment so we don't FREAK out.

~peace~
Sherri

HI I just read your emails. I am soo where you are at. I have not felt myself for at least 2 months. I have been reliving past life stuff, lots of awful feelings too. I thankful found a good energy therapist , she is helping me clear layers, so things change. But this is soo unbearable.
I had no idea spirituality could feel like this. I was always the most positive person in the group.
My whole life I always saw the positive. AT the moment. I just feel out of body and so detached from reality.
How do I get this back. I can't work , I can visit with people. I basically just hangout with my family and pray untill I get through this.

Does anyone know when the shift will be easier.

Lots of Love
P

I feel like I'm reading about myself, reading the replies here.

I recognize many of the symptoms, but I am not sure where they are coming from anymore...
As a matter of fact, I'm just back from my GP for the result of some blood tests done one week ago.

Samples were taken right at a moment I feared I was going to collapse because of all the stress, anxiety, panic, dizziness. I had been awake the whole night with a racing heart, but my mind was calm.. flat like a small lake without any waves.

But my body was screaming! And guess what? Everything that was measured turned out to be just about perfect. Thyroid, adrenal glands, kidney's everything is in order. One year ago my heart was examined and it was considered to be in perfect health. 24 hour Holter monitor was ok, Doppler was ok...

I must say that I actually somewhat hoped that the test results of today would show something... because now I'm really not sure where to go anymore.

Also, on one hand I'm more and more a spiritual person... but as a trained scientist I've got problems saying/accepting that I'm feeling horrible because of "esoteric/spiritual issues".

I know I'm sensitive, but who am I to be awakening?!?

On the other hand once more: I have healed a few headaches with literally my own hands... am at moments very empathic... and I recently I actually cried because I accidentally stepped on a few ants.

Only to hunt some of those @#$# mosquitoes with a passion the very next day?!?


I'm starting to feel so incredibly lost.. I really don't know what is what, where is where..

Who am I?
What am I doing on this planet?

Pfff.. sorry for the rant, but it's a big relief for me to type things out a bit.

Any useful pointers are welcome, as always.

Namaste! :)

haha

Welcome my friend

Practicing the Way has been the hardest most torturous part of my life so far. But it has also been the most fruitful, inspiring, and awe-struck. We must see the reality of our suffering before we can change it so what you explain is very normal for one who is just beginning to look at himself.

I would suggest to check out local Buddhist and meditation centers and see if there are any groups to join or Masters you can talk with. I couldnt imagine walking the path without my Master and Sangha for support and understanding.

Good luck my friend
Hue Chuyen

Self nurture at this difficult time and times of greatest difficulty by eating your food with your fingers, read my post on this under the topic of Happy Giving Thanks or Happy Thanksgiving.

Self nurturance cuts fear immensely!!!

Blessings, Spirit Wolf