Have you ever freaked someone out with your love?

Since you did ask red rob, my dreams/plans : I think I can do 2 quarters of school ( I just got into grad school in Psychology) and ( yikes) work full time.( I work at a non-profit that aims to provide quality preschool to all los angeles country 4 year old as well as other services for the first 5 years of life) It will be a lot but all good stuff. So after the 2nd quarter I can start interning with a Pyschologist, working for him/her 25 hours a week and going to school full time still. That's 26 weeks I have of work in downtown LA, and school all the way over in Culver city. ( 15 miles apart but with traffic about an hour commute) . I have 21 months of school all together.
Then I will find where I can intern and move to the apartment with the hardwood floors near it. Then I have 3000 hours of practical experiences to get working under a pyschologist before I take the state exam and get my license as a pyschologist in California.( about 2 years of work ) There is also a University of Transformational Studies that is associated with my church, the Agape Spiritual center. I want to take classes there and possibly become a licensed spiritual practitioner . Then I set up my own practice blending spirituality/pyschology/life coaching and what ever else seems good to throw in. Maybe exercise and massage and yoga. My dreams also include finding the right guy for me and building a great relationship. I will probably write a book too.
The thing about having Dreams, they don't tell you that it is so much hard work and it's exhausting and that it isn't always pleasent even when they are coming true. So I have about a decade of work cut out for me and I haven't even started grad school yet. But one day at a time right?

honestly, whatever happened in my last relationship occurred because i couldn't really be myself.. here i am writing this at 430 in the morning.... something i hardly ever got the chance to do in my last relationship... i was out dancing and partying my ass off all night tonight... it was sooooo much fun!!! MONDAY!!! i don't know what held me back in my past relationship.. perhaps both of us held on too tight.... for some reason, we managed to create an open and honest line of communication for 90% of our relationship, maybe we shouldn't expect much more than that???our expectations were crazy!!! something held us back... we were so real, but not real enough.. our love was strong, but not strong enough.. love is fucked sometimes!!! i think it's apparent that love can easily freak someone out.... easily!!!

it's too late, i'm not making any sense... i'll give this a shot again later... peace