I found this little blurb in my friend Vera's blog (tinyurl.com/3xfxql) about what I said at the El Circo dome Friday at BM - I'm surprised I was this lucid or maybe it's just Vera's nice writing style, but either way I find these ideas intriguing :

... so I asked my ears again, and this time they guided me to the El Circo dome! I was very pleased because the El Circo dome tends get all animalistic and shamanistic on Friday nights, which I had experienced first-hand three years ago. The animal energy, just like last time, made me feel kind of anxious. But I had a lot of fun dancing, and then I ran into my friend Kyle, and we talked a little bit about the anxiety, which he was feeling very strongly as well. His theory was that we get anxious because the animal energy is so strong, and even though it's a good energy, it implies anarchy, and the lack of rules or control is what makes us nervous because we are used to having rules. I wasn't sure I agreed completely with his theory because for me, there was also a piece of uneasiness around conformity - because El Circo is all about tribal headpieces and feathers and leather, and I with my lack of feathers and leathers didn't feel like I was going by the rules. But maybe that's just my own personal story, and maybe Kyle's personal story was what was causing HIS anxiety, and maybe each person's anxiety is created by their own personal story, and the animal energy just puts us in touch with what our story is? I don't know.