Yeah that gets me in the gonnectiguhzoik. That was 1991, then RT? If its Courtney's kid, I'm guessing, "Oy" then is appropriate--Courtney's Mom was one of my peeps: Red Sea Pedestrian I mean. Did you thumb thru or even more than that--his diaries that were published? What I saw was really not as experiemental as say an ideal renunciation & not the abstract kind... Like humility by giving up the willfulness, for somethimg way less subjective... He seemed to understand he could make hay with all that fire--intensity, but never got past the awe.